
AlexAP
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It's hard for me to have a normal emotional state and social life because of my past experiences. My family was extremely toxic, and in my brain they influenced me into what I think of family and community:
- My parents or siblings never showed any compassion, never said basic stuff like "That was god from you!", "I want you to be happy, son", "I'm proud of you", etc., but tons of arguments and shoutings. Now no contact.
- In school I was a loner, the dominant boys made fun of me, zero friends.
- Because of my problems in school, my parents had the idea that I was mentally ill and forced me to go useless therapy.
- I never became more social. I have some colleagues, etc., I'm not realy "shy", but very silent, straight face all the time. Many times I don't get invited when a new friends group is formed.
- The internet filled me with this autistic views of "masculinity", never show vulnerability/weakness, men don't need emotional support, etc. I don't believe in it, but it's exactly how my father was and how I lived, basically I can't "disprove" it for me.
I would love to be able to believe that it's okay for men to have basic emotional needs. Somehow my mind doesn't believe in it, so I keep quiet all the time. I know this forum is the wrong place, as retards here believe Normie men with emotional support are fags, pussys, soyboys, etc., so I would probably be better off with leaving this forum. But that's it, I can't, I feel alienated from Normies.
Let's be honest: Normies are the masterrace, sigmas are coping retards. Did anyone of you ever went from an emotionless weirdo to a Normie with healthy emotional expressiveness?
- My parents or siblings never showed any compassion, never said basic stuff like "That was god from you!", "I want you to be happy, son", "I'm proud of you", etc., but tons of arguments and shoutings. Now no contact.
- In school I was a loner, the dominant boys made fun of me, zero friends.
- Because of my problems in school, my parents had the idea that I was mentally ill and forced me to go useless therapy.
- I never became more social. I have some colleagues, etc., I'm not realy "shy", but very silent, straight face all the time. Many times I don't get invited when a new friends group is formed.
- The internet filled me with this autistic views of "masculinity", never show vulnerability/weakness, men don't need emotional support, etc. I don't believe in it, but it's exactly how my father was and how I lived, basically I can't "disprove" it for me.
I would love to be able to believe that it's okay for men to have basic emotional needs. Somehow my mind doesn't believe in it, so I keep quiet all the time. I know this forum is the wrong place, as retards here believe Normie men with emotional support are fags, pussys, soyboys, etc., so I would probably be better off with leaving this forum. But that's it, I can't, I feel alienated from Normies.
Let's be honest: Normies are the masterrace, sigmas are coping retards. Did anyone of you ever went from an emotionless weirdo to a Normie with healthy emotional expressiveness?