iwillbeflinch
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OK so my whole life I was ugly as fuck people literally used to touch me and chase each other.
I always sat in back off the class alone, no one wanted to hang out wiht me or be my friend. They'd randomly punch me or whatever.
Massive bullying and shit, no friends whole life. ETC ETC classic incel shit
ME AT 16 vs 20.
OK so I was at a concert recently and I was thirsty and gates weren't open so I went to corner store to get water only had a credit card, guy said I needed to buy more if I wanted to pay by card so I told him "Well I guess I can't buy it or" or something like that and was gonna leave and this girl offered to buy it for me. She was pretty attractive I'd say. After she handed my water I think I said thank you, then I got anxious and left. I couldn't even say anything or something idk. I felt anxious. I felt like if I hanged around she'd think I was desperate or something idk. Now I realize she probably thought i was an asshole or something.
After that there was another redhead girl, she was very cute looking and had very good body . I was standing there she came over to around me couple times, even bended over n shit. I didn't look cuz I'm epic alpha male
wish I did but obv cool guys dont stare at girls asses so u never ctahcing me doing that. Anyway she also did some other shit to get my attention I think but again I felt anxious to talk or say anything.
And there was this another cute girl after show who literally approached me said I was very charismatic n shit and wanted to talk I guess. I just told her I had to get water n shit and left.
I went to like a party once alone, not rlly party like a student bar. Anyway I was just standing alone people literally approahced me to talk ns hit idk
if i ever post a picture of me online somewhere girls usualy say im cute/attractive whatever
bla bla u get the picture.
I think I am I guess attractive now. But through years of trauma and emotional/mental abuse I can't even talk to girls that I think could be my type or attractive.
Plus I hate most people and cannot connect with anyone. I literally cannot connect with anyone. I might be likeable and friendly but I don't know if I'd ever genuinly want to be someone's friend. (I probably would but idk)
ALso I'm fine with talking to an attractive woman if she's not my type because there's no steaks for me in there.
I hate this, I literally have no fear in life but this. I know I could fucking conquer anything but this.
How can I get over the emotional/mental abuse that the girls I liked caused me, and just mentally be okay with mentally melting inside.
I'm not aspie so I can keep my cool while talking to girls and make them think I'm not dying inside but I just tend to not approach/talk at all or just end the conversation super early if I think they are cute.
Has anyone here experienced this? Went from subhuman to ubermensch (im jk obviously im not some superhman) and now they r attractive and how do u deal with it.
My goal is to just get shredded and then softmax (clothes + hair) and then I'll probably be coolest guy alive so it will hopefully override my autism
I always sat in back off the class alone, no one wanted to hang out wiht me or be my friend. They'd randomly punch me or whatever.
Massive bullying and shit, no friends whole life. ETC ETC classic incel shit
ME AT 16 vs 20.
OK so I was at a concert recently and I was thirsty and gates weren't open so I went to corner store to get water only had a credit card, guy said I needed to buy more if I wanted to pay by card so I told him "Well I guess I can't buy it or" or something like that and was gonna leave and this girl offered to buy it for me. She was pretty attractive I'd say. After she handed my water I think I said thank you, then I got anxious and left. I couldn't even say anything or something idk. I felt anxious. I felt like if I hanged around she'd think I was desperate or something idk. Now I realize she probably thought i was an asshole or something.
After that there was another redhead girl, she was very cute looking and had very good body . I was standing there she came over to around me couple times, even bended over n shit. I didn't look cuz I'm epic alpha male
wish I did but obv cool guys dont stare at girls asses so u never ctahcing me doing that. Anyway she also did some other shit to get my attention I think but again I felt anxious to talk or say anything.And there was this another cute girl after show who literally approached me said I was very charismatic n shit and wanted to talk I guess. I just told her I had to get water n shit and left.
I went to like a party once alone, not rlly party like a student bar. Anyway I was just standing alone people literally approahced me to talk ns hit idk
if i ever post a picture of me online somewhere girls usualy say im cute/attractive whatever
bla bla u get the picture.
I think I am I guess attractive now. But through years of trauma and emotional/mental abuse I can't even talk to girls that I think could be my type or attractive.
Plus I hate most people and cannot connect with anyone. I literally cannot connect with anyone. I might be likeable and friendly but I don't know if I'd ever genuinly want to be someone's friend. (I probably would but idk)
ALso I'm fine with talking to an attractive woman if she's not my type because there's no steaks for me in there.
I hate this, I literally have no fear in life but this. I know I could fucking conquer anything but this.
How can I get over the emotional/mental abuse that the girls I liked caused me, and just mentally be okay with mentally melting inside.
I'm not aspie so I can keep my cool while talking to girls and make them think I'm not dying inside but I just tend to not approach/talk at all or just end the conversation super early if I think they are cute.
Has anyone here experienced this? Went from subhuman to ubermensch (im jk obviously im not some superhman) and now they r attractive and how do u deal with it.
My goal is to just get shredded and then softmax (clothes + hair) and then I'll probably be coolest guy alive so it will hopefully override my autism
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