SidharthTheSlayer
Anti-Cosmic Satanist
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In today's society, literally any way you could choose to distract yourself reminds you that ultimately, you are an alien disconnected from your tribe.
I don't know how people hit 30 without seeking some sort of connection. It's unbearable. I used to think I could stand isolation, for at least 6 years I tolerated it well. I'm not sure how. But having just turned 20, having no real friends, no girlfriend, no connection to the world around me is a fact that constantly follows me.
If I want to watch a film I'm reminded that the last time I had a real conversation with someone in real life was more than 6 months ago. If I read a book I'm reminded of how boring my life is. If I watch anime I'm reminded of how I have no girlfriend and how most of my high school years were wasted on COVID... even music reminds me of my piece of shit alien life.
Society itself makes it impossible for you to ever forget that you are alone and that you should be ashamed of being alone, which is why monk mode is cope, are you telling me anyone can stand turning themselves into a soulless husk built to IMPROVE and GRIND? When even the very things that were supposed to help you cope through loneliness are fundamentally focused on human dynamics? No one ever had to go monk mode and deny themselves any form of respite from life which is already devoid of soul just to achieve something.
I legitimately can't stand it anymore. Coping with monk mode for an inevitable ascension is impossible. I needed to ascend YESTERDAY. It's time for a change.
I don't know how people hit 30 without seeking some sort of connection. It's unbearable. I used to think I could stand isolation, for at least 6 years I tolerated it well. I'm not sure how. But having just turned 20, having no real friends, no girlfriend, no connection to the world around me is a fact that constantly follows me.
If I want to watch a film I'm reminded that the last time I had a real conversation with someone in real life was more than 6 months ago. If I read a book I'm reminded of how boring my life is. If I watch anime I'm reminded of how I have no girlfriend and how most of my high school years were wasted on COVID... even music reminds me of my piece of shit alien life.
Society itself makes it impossible for you to ever forget that you are alone and that you should be ashamed of being alone, which is why monk mode is cope, are you telling me anyone can stand turning themselves into a soulless husk built to IMPROVE and GRIND? When even the very things that were supposed to help you cope through loneliness are fundamentally focused on human dynamics? No one ever had to go monk mode and deny themselves any form of respite from life which is already devoid of soul just to achieve something.
I legitimately can't stand it anymore. Coping with monk mode for an inevitable ascension is impossible. I needed to ascend YESTERDAY. It's time for a change.