Hs crush never went away

[Lonenely sigma]

Hs ended last may... This is so brutal, why is my mind so pathetic?

Cute brunette, her and I share the same birthday, we live basically a street away, went to the same hs, both seem to be high-iq, both listen to the similar music...

No similarity for my facial bones though. I am such a fucking simp, jesus christ... why can't she just love me?

I thought she was sending me some "hints" but I don't know anymore. I was actually sure she was but yeah, she probably wasn't, I am just delusional.

I once had a dream she was drowning me in a lake, and I was begging her to stop, but she wouldn't, she just continued drowning me and then whispered in my ear: " [my name], you missed your chance"... then she kissed me on the lips and I surrendered to her literally drowning me in that lake.

Poetic shit, innit?

 

[BonesmashFinalBoss]

Hs ended last may... This is so brutal, why is my mind so pathetic?

Cute brunette, her and I share the same birthday, we live basically a street away, went to the same hs, both seem to be high-iq, both listen to the similar music...

No similarity for my facial bones though. I am such a fucking simp, jesus christ... why can't she just love me?

I thought she was sending me some "hints" but I don't know anymore. I was actually sure she was but yeah, she probably wasn't, I am just delusional.

I once had a dream she was drowning me in a lake, and I was begging her to stop, but she wouldn't, she just continued drowning me and then whispered in my ear " [my name], you missed your chance"... then she kissed me on the lips and I surrendered to her literally drowning me in that lake.

Poetic shit, innit?

Just text her and see the reply. If she rejects you brutally the crush will go away in my experience

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Just text her and see the reply. If she rejects you brutally the crush will go away in my experience

I deleted my instagram account a while back because I was sad seeing her post her stories, and I don't have her number, so yeah.

Maybe I meet her again... we live near each other

 

[obscuredusk]

that’s brutal man you should check up on her

 

[BonesmashFinalBoss]

I deleted my instagram account a while back because I was sad seeing her post her stories, and I don't have her number, so yeah.

Maybe I meet her again... we live near each other

You should go up to her and tell her ur feelings, not cause you want to humiliate yourself which will most definitely happen, but because you can finally stop thinking about her afterwards and have ease of mind

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

One of the better threads rn ngl. I like that dream. Did you see her in person since last may?

 

[trench]

I deleted my instagram account a while back because I was sad seeing her post her stories, and I don't have her number, so yeah.

you sure that was the reason bud

 

[Lonenely sigma]

You should go up to her and tell her ur feelings, not cause you want to humiliate yourself which will most definitely happen, but because you can finally stop thinking about her afterwards and have ease of mind

Idk man, I'd probably just be suicidal afterwards, I am finally developing some confidence on the basis of being a cute twink, and if she rejected me I'd just be crushed

One of the better threads rn ngl. I like that dream. Did you see her in person since last may?

I have, we met once late at night, she was in a bus and I was on the street, it was like 11pm.

I went home and she uploaded a story of her street at night on instagram with some romantic song. Before that she didn't upload a story for a month, so I figured it was probably directed at me. Thats one of the muh "hints"

you sure that was the reason bud

Ok I MAY HAVE hugged the screen as well

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

Idk man, I'd probably just be suicidal afterwards, I am finally developing some confidence on the basis of being a cute twink, and if she rejected me I'd just be crushed

I have, we met once late at night, she was in a bus and I was on the street, it was like 11pm.

I went home and she uploaded a story of her street at night on instagram with some romantic song. Before that she didn't upload a story for a month, so I figured it was probably directed at me. Thats one of the muh "hints"

Ok I MAY HAVE hugged the screen as well

I would advise you not to do what finalboss said (tell her ur feelings immediately) but try to get in contact with her lightly. If she lives close to you that means you can see her if you go outside (do you?). Every time when you see her go and have a chat with her. The more times you see her the more your conversation should go from chatting to an actual conversation. Don't tell her your feelings immediately but let it look like your meetings are spontaneous and let feelings develop over time. But idk really, take my word with a grain of salt since I only visit prostitutes...

 

[totallynottrueadam]

Fucking pathetic niggger go talk to her and if she rejects you move on instead of talking about her on incel forums

 

[brazilianblackpill]

That's brutal OP, but if she ever really gave you hints you should try to at least interact with her somehow...
Deleting instagram isn't good because it is normies' main way of communicating.

 

[KaisenMaxxer]

Poetic af, shoot your shot, best case scenario you get togegther and its amazing, mid case scenario she rejects you but it will help get rid of this crush, worst case scenario is if she reacts really badly she might mock you or smth but you need to talk to her abt that.
Don't do a "confession" tho it will never work, just invite her to do things 1 on 1 and be somewhat sexual, you'll see if she doesn't want you at all. Then you need to expose yourself to other girls you probably won't feel much but you'll slowly forget about her.

 

[我需要阴部]

brutal man you'll never forget her while she probably wont even remember you in a week.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

I would advise you not to do what finalboss said (tell her ur feelings immediately) but try to get in contact with her lightly. If she lives close to you that means you can see her if you go outside (do you?). Every time when you see her go and have a chat with her. The more times you see her the more your conversation should go from chatting to an actual conversation. Don't tell her your feelings immediately but let it look like your meetings are spontaneous and let feelings develop over time.

I agree, going "straight to the point" only works for chadlites+, same as cold approaching. But I think that ship has sailed already, I saw her for 4 years straight (albeit I wasn't crushing on her for all that time) and I never did anything about it.

Idk why my mind tortures me with her though. Objectively, she's GONE for good from my world, not like she was ever particularly present but still...

But idk really, take my word with a grain of salt since I only visit prostitutes...

I'd rather have a mind like yours than mine. I try to find some "deeper connection", its really more about just validation in my case, because I grew up without any real positive feedback from girls... paying a prostitute wouldn't achieve much to me unless she starts complimenting me and stuff, and even then I'd doubt her genuineness.

Fucking pathetic niggger go talk to her and if she rejects you move on instead of talking about her on incel forums

We don't choose our minds boyo

Poetic af, shoot your shot, best case scenario you get togegther and its amazing, mid case scenario she rejects you but it will help get rid of this crush, worst case scenario is if she reacts really badly she might mock you or smth but you need to talk to her abt that.
Don't do a "confession" tho it will never work, just invite her to do things 1 on 1 and be somewhat sexual, you'll see if she doesn't want you at all. Then you need to expose yourself to other girls you probably won't feel much but you'll slowly forget about her.

She already sees me as a bit autistic, the entire hs does, I got drunk a few times and said some really braindead stuff, so just messaging her out of blue would be cringe enough on its own

brutal man you'll never forget her while she probably wont even remember you in a week.

True. She probably has 20 dudes in her dms rn.... cruel world

 

[我需要阴部]

True. She probably has 20 dudes in her dms rn.... cruel world

probably busy deciding which party to go to, which exotic country she will visit with her friends, applied for one part time job and immediately got it even with no experience. You should delete insta for a while it's truamatic seeing everyone enjoy their post grad life while you rot.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

probably busy deciding which party to go to, which exotic country she will visit with her friends, applied for one part time job and immediately got it even with no experience. You should delete insta for a while it's truamatic seeing everyone enjoy their post grad life while you rot.

I deleted it and don't plan to return, you are fully right, she's going to live her life to the fullest, fully forgetting my very existance.

I was bombarded with pictures of male models, beautiful prettyboys, she herself was following some of them, its just so fucking cruel, she probably sees me as an ugly subhuman. Perhaps not seeing her is the best thing I can do, then.

 

[我需要阴部]

I deleted it and don't plan to return, you are fully right, she's going to live her life to the fullest, fully forgetting my very existance.

I was bombarded with pictures of male models, beautiful prettyboys, she herself was following some of them, just so fucking cruel, she probably sees me as an ugly subhuman. Perhaps not seeing her is the best thing I can do, then.

not just her man its everyone

 

[KaisenMaxxer]

Do what @mentally_ill_chad said, he's 100% right abt your situation
There's a very low chance you get together but if you play mind games right, you might do it

probably busy deciding which party to go to, which exotic country she will visit with her friends, applied for one part time job and immediately got it even with no experience. You should delete insta for a while it's truamatic seeing everyone enjoy their post grad life while you rot.

stop being such a doomer bro
but technically you're right, OP should not rot here but instead try to enjoy life like they do, make friends, attend parties etc...

I deleted it and don't plan to return

That's a sign of 0 NTness, you should have an account, even if you don't post much or don't scroll

 

[我需要阴部]

Do what @mentally_ill_chad said, he's 100% right abt your situation
There's a very low chance you get together but if you play mind games right, you might do it


stop being such a doomer bro
but technically you're right, OP should not rot here but instead try to enjoy life like they do, make friends, attend parties etc...


That's a sign of 0 NTness, you should have an account, even if you don't post much or don't scroll

yeah I agree he's young still got a chance.

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

mind games

Yes, use your brain, strategize, make a plan on how to get what you want (this girl). Maybe immediately telling her your feelings looks tempting to you, but refrain from it

 

[ajshabs]

i was in a similar situation, i ended up texting her after i saw a pic of her on instagram with some guy at a party (eventually became her new bf)

i texted her “is whatever we had over” she replied brutally with “yes” and never spoke to me since, found out her new boyfriend is a 5ft 6 manlet (she’s like 5ft 8)

women eh

 

[liberty]

Lonenenenenenenenenenenenenely sigma

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

Shit I'm busy but I'll write this: You should seriously think for a few days do you really want this girl or no. If you come to the conclusion that yes, you want her then you must be decisive and act. But act smart and composed. If you fail in your quest you'll know that you've tried your best. But again if you decide that you want her you must act, because if you just let it be like this (actionless) you'll want to kill yourself in a few years because she was so close to you but you didn't do nothing. That will haunt you. A bad plan and action is better than no plan and no action, you gain exp from trying things out. If you come to the conclusion that you don't want her actually, then you must also be decisive and try to focus on someone else but her (you probably won't be able to forget about her, so you'll have to find a new girl to focus your attention on). Again I'm not a guy for these things so take everything I write with a grain of salt.

 

[faustianspirit]

I was obsessed with my HS crush almost for 2 years after graduating. It went away after not seeing her for that long. But I remember once I went to a mall near my town and she was there working and I saw her and started shaking, said hi to her and left