Huge dillemma in my life (rant?)

[dasmeapollo]

I have this weird kinda paradox situation in like all my life, like my dad says youll get all the girls when your older, sister says some variation of it, friends glaze me (idek if they mean it or not ) and like some of my friends have asked me or told me i should say that you should model or along the lines of it, ppl on org call me from hmtn-cl and so on and so forth, onlines the same ish, but the evidence doesnt match up, never kissed at 16, held hand romantically, hugged romantically, etc, never got ppl asking me for my snap, number etc, people always clown on me in my friend group, girls usually look at me weird, like im a sex offender, i see people look at me weirdly in public constantly, yet i ask my friends if im chopped but they insist im not, its about game etc, despite the bp being so prevalent especially to me and since my youth, the evidence doesnt match up to the hypothesis, my female friend despite asking me to come over and hangout with all of us, one of my friends said i looked like george cooper but shes like “but hes hot though..” and made awkward eye contact, or another would be she asked me would you kiss me for 2 grand and i jokingly said why u got two grand on you being clearly evident i didnt mean it and she said publically loudly “I DONT WANNA KISS YOU..!” And it was silent from there, or another instance is where theyll jokingly flirt to my mtn short friend(no offence all love ofc) and say they wanna give him head etc or kiss his head or lean her head against his shoulder or hug him randomly, and they say its just jokes (right..) and it just seems like everything around me is ropefuel from seeing me in the mirror and flaws and being treated in school shitty to seeing my worse looking friends get relationships, love etc despite being less attractive (nohatelikeisaid) it just doesnt match uo despite the world being infected with the bp, and its so hard to figure out why not me…

 

[dasmeapollo]

Also forgot to add pics of me they should be in any of my posts))

 

[Ogionth]

I have this weird kinda paradox situation in like all my life, like my dad says youll get all the girls when your older, sister says some variation of it, friends glaze me (idek if they mean it or not ) and like some of my friends have asked me or told me i should say that you should model or along the lines of it, ppl on org call me from hmtn-cl and so on and so forth, onlines the same ish, but the evidence doesnt match up, never kissed at 16, held hand romantically, hugged romantically, etc, never got ppl asking me for my snap, number etc, people always clown on me in my friend group, girls usually look at me weird, like im a sex offender, i see people look at me weirdly in public constantly, yet i ask my friends if im chopped but they insist im not, its about game etc, despite the bp being so prevalent especially to me and since my youth, the evidence doesnt match up to the hypothesis, my female friend despite asking me to come over and hangout with all of us, one of my friends said i looked like george cooper but shes like “but hes hot though..” and made awkward eye contact, or another would be she asked me would you kiss me for 2 grand and i jokingly said why u got two grand on you being clearly evident i didnt mean it and she said publically loudly “I DONT WANNA KISS YOU..!” And it was silent from there, or another instance is where theyll jokingly flirt to my mtn short friend(no offence all love ofc) and say they wanna give him head etc or kiss his head or lean her head against his shoulder or hug him randomly, and they say its just jokes (right..) and it just seems like everything around me is ropefuel from seeing me in the mirror and flaws and being treated in school shitty to seeing my worse looking friends get relationships, love etc despite being less attractive (nohatelikeisaid) it just doesnt match uo despite the world being infected with the bp, and its so hard to figure out why not me…

you are not even htn let alone cl.

maybe those scenarios don't match up because you're severely overrating yourself?

 

[dasmeapollo]

you are not even htn let alone cl.

maybe those scenarios don't match up because you're severely overrating yourself?

These were by ppl not me i thought originally i was a highball hmtn

 

[Manfrommars]

I have this weird kinda paradox situation in like all my life, like my dad says youll get all the girls when your older, sister says some variation of it, friends glaze me (idek if they mean it or not ) and like some of my friends have asked me or told me i should say that you should model or along the lines of it, ppl on org call me from hmtn-cl and so on and so forth, onlines the same ish, but the evidence doesnt match up, never kissed at 16, held hand romantically, hugged romantically, etc, never got ppl asking me for my snap, number etc, people always clown on me in my friend group, girls usually look at me weird, like im a sex offender, i see people look at me weirdly in public constantly, yet i ask my friends if im chopped but they insist im not, its about game etc, despite the bp being so prevalent especially to me and since my youth, the evidence doesnt match up to the hypothesis, my female friend despite asking me to come over and hangout with all of us, one of my friends said i looked like george cooper but shes like “but hes hot though..” and made awkward eye contact, or another would be she asked me would you kiss me for 2 grand and i jokingly said why u got two grand on you being clearly evident i didnt mean it and she said publically loudly “I DONT WANNA KISS YOU..!” And it was silent from there, or another instance is where theyll jokingly flirt to my mtn short friend(no offence all love ofc) and say they wanna give him head etc or kiss his head or lean her head against his shoulder or hug him randomly, and they say its just jokes (right..) and it just seems like everything around me is ropefuel from seeing me in the mirror and flaws and being treated in school shitty to seeing my worse looking friends get relationships, love etc despite being less attractive (nohatelikeisaid) it just doesnt match uo despite the world being infected with the bp, and its so hard to figure out why not me…

-Tbf parents and friends will always say things like that

-also having a model look≠ being appealing

-I seen your pics and I think a shorter haircut like a fringe would help and make you more appealing/approachable