J0RDN
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I have wasted 38 worthless years on this earth- almost 4 decades of agony. All I do all day is daydream what would happen if I wasn't an ugly fucking dork in hs and actually got shit done. And if I was a at least nt ltn maybe my life would be ok, but I am sub 1.5 and autistic. I have never touched a woman, kissed a woman, hugged, and I am still a Virgin to this day. My 4'10 mother never would even kiss me goodnight bc I could hear her talking to my 5'2 father about how ugly I was and how she said she wish there was a miscarriage. I ate slop every day which explains my low bone mass, recessed manilla, non existent chin, my ramus doesn't even appear, my eyelid exposure is horrid, my eyes are brown and are turned upwards, negative canthal tilt, recessed hairline, jew nose, terrifying chin to lip to philitrum ratio, my zygos are basically nothing, my eyebrows are blond and uneven-so they are impossible to see, my yellow teeth are crooked and jagged and messed up as fuck, I have a the worst over bite in existence, my eyes are spread far apart and bulge outwards like a fucking bug, my chin is recessed, I still can't grow facial hair, I have pimples all over my dry ass face, my symmetry is fucked, I have 34% bf, narrow clavicle, low hyoid, basically the worst face in the book. I am scared of cameras. Typing this from my shitty cracked up samsung with McDonald's wifi (I don't even have a job I'm just sitting on the curb in the parking lot) makes me nervous enough that I may accidentally take a pic of myself and post it onto social media to where I will get ridiculed and doxxed and people will find me and end my Incel life. I was never popular, even from daycare, I was shoved around as the ugly ass fat kid, and I wasn't even smart. I was corny asf and no one liked me. I did have a fish, named Jordan, who I have dedicated this account to bc he has been my only friend, as if I were to share my hideous name online, I would get doxxed and murdered. Anytime I made a joke, the class would go silent and the teacher would call me out and make me apologize. One time, I used the bathroom in middle school, and that was a big mistake I made. I have always had a micropenis, even from the beginning. They took pictures of my dick while I was peeing in the stall and spread it online. I saw the teachers laughing about it and I was about to kms, but I got arrested and was put on probation and was given some shitty "therapy" because the doctor didn't even want to be near me. Eventually, I got mad at my therapist and slapped tf out of her bc she always would remind me of how God made us all equal in his image. Fuck her, because I was sub 2 and fat, unlovable, and a walking micropenis Incel. God didn't even love me. Went to church and none of the grandmas would even bat an eye at me, God I'm so fucking ugly and insufferable. By the age of 13 I stopped going to school to do home schooling from all of the bullying, so the last time I talked to someone else my age was when I accidentally looked at one of my cousins at a family gathering when I was gathering some slop to consume, God I'm so fucking fat and obnoxious, but no words were exchanged. The last time I spoke to a female was either my mother or when the occasion of only female cashiers are at the checkout, but they almost never interact with me. Whenever I go out of the abandoned house I live in for free that has no ac, electricity, or plumbing, I cover my ugly ass face and bring a charger to charge my phone at circle k or something. God I hate being so fucking broke, I steal vapes from dumpsters and on the ground and sell them to cool middle schoolers who would have most likely bullied me if I was in school with them. I want to die. I'm so fucking braindead and surrounded by my retarded schizo thoughts I can't process shit. When I get out of my house rarely, I hide my face in my hood and bring my shitty cracked ass samsung wherever I go to look at models like Chico and slayers like drago and ehrens ascension to cope even harder. God I hate my fat fucking self. Looks are everything, personality is really just 1% of the equation and the normies who think otherwise are lucky and living in the bliss of their ignorance. Think abt it for a sex. Paul walkers allegation, were brushed off and hardly talked about. (To be fair she wasn't too much younger than the age of consent and it wasn't 100% verified) But it was still out there. And then ugly people like that one YouTuber that got exposed and everybody hated them. I can't even remember there name I hate my autistic ass self. And the guy who shot that ceo was claimed as a hero because he was attractive (ceo was still kinda a bad guy) (or was he just ugly) and other assassins are dangerous murderers because they are sub 5. The black pill is real and I had to be the living example of the bad side of it, life is so unfair. I would rope, but my recessed chin and jaw wouldn't even be able to hold up the rope to choke me out. Instead, the rope would slide up my midface to my jew nose and hang me from there. And my voice is so disgusting and high pitched like a foid but not even in an attractive way it just sounds like a dork. My fingers are so greasy and I feel so shitty all the time, I'm always passed off, and I can't seem to catch a break. I want to die so bad. This is probably hell from a past life I lived in sin and now I'm facing my brutal and cruel consequences. I'm a jackass addict and I need help but there's no point bc it's too late. No amount of looksmaxing could even save me. If I got 10k the very first and foremost thing I would do is get surgery to attempt living at a max of ltn to maybe get a job and a half normal life. I would burn at the stake, roasting my skin off for the chance at a day of being mtn, my dream. But there's no point. I hate stupid larpers who come on the internet and act like they are ND and an incel. Fuck off. I'm most likely gonna end my pissy fucking life when I hit the big 40. Why not post my miserable sorry ass pathetic life on a page about bettering my looks.
