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Mastery over yourself means mastery over the world. Everything you want to inflict on the world, you have to inflict it on yourself.
Meditation, studying, feeling, art, chess, reading and educating myself about everything there has to be learned; all instruments to push my brain to further stages of development.
I am an aspie, and I'm grateful for that. Highly adaptable and plastic brain. Went from being high-inhib to being super low-inhib for a week just by healing my trauma. I still fear death, and so fear remains, consequently some inhibition remains.
My brain became super fast. Processed everything as a computer.
Experienced ego death.
Experienced electrical sensations.
Experienced my shadow manifestations by schizophrenia and personality disorder.
Conquered a schizophrenia episode in front of my psychologist by recognizing I could go really crazy.
Survived 7 suicide attempts.
I'm still dealing with an illness.
Beyond pain there is pleasure, beyond pleasure there is pain. The cycle of extremes is done, at the extremes they are to be touched for they are the same thing.
Complete dominance of pain and fear, to reach zero leves of inhibition, and thus conquering the fear of death; mother of all fears.
I will show you guys what is possible when you dominate the mind, I will dedicate myself from now on to such delusional goal.
They say to no speak to others of what you are capable of doing, but to show them what is possible so they too can believe.
If there is nothing to show by my side, then it is because I have failed in doing so.
No more time to lose.
You guys are my biggest motivation in a sense, but seeing foids fall too.
@ConfusedBolivian @autistic_tendencies @Klasik616 @ivan.kuk @itzyaboyJJ
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