I am extremely disillusioned on life/society.

[Deleted member 17578]

I feel like most of my depressing and negative thoughts on life and society are rooted in truth and realism. But I can catch myself being overly negative sometimes and not recognizing good aspects/opportunities.

Brutal depression pill. What a lack of positive experiences does to a mf.

 

[ascension]

Same man. I do wonder how most people don't see the truths about the world that I see. But I guess they haven't had the same bad experiences as me.

I've done a lot of thinking about my situation and realise that I was fucked over from the start by bad parenting, which lowered my confidence from a young age, and from there life continued to go downhill. I removed myself from society to shield myself. But at the same time, no one has ever tried to help me out of this hole either. I see the way my sister, who is more socially awkward and quiet than me, gets helped by people, gets old school mates asking her to hang out randomly, being nice to her, etc. No one ever did that for me.

I feel like most people on this site only got here because of a succession of bad life experiences, and once they encounter the blackpill then any remnants of positivity get crushed. I want to go out into the world and believe in true love, believe in friendship, believe that I can be happy but I can't be ignorant and delude myself into those things. My life experiences have taught me that true love doesn't exist, it's mostly based on the way you look. I've learnt that friendship doesn't exist if you're a low value male. I've learnt that happiness is just a fleeting feeling because unless you're in the top 10% of men, you're always at risk of having your woman taken away from you, your kids taken away from you if you're married, or your friends letting you down if they feel you don't benefit them enough.

 

[Deleted member 20652]

Yeah I was young when I realized I will never be able to reproduce or get married. Already accepted that a long time ago though so that's fine

Now I'm starting to also think I will never ever be able to get a job/employment . This one is harder to accept though because my life depends on my financial situation. A permanent employment would change my life n cure my depression overnight because then I'd know for sure I'd be able to save a lot of money and then location max to Asia in the future. I am deeply unhappy in the west and living in the West is eating my soul.

 

[Nebula]

This thread is crazy relatable. All i can say is that you cant go to negative otherwise your deluding yourself the other way around. I dont feel like there is a point to living if you just gonna be overanalyzing and being negative if your talking/observing people. I genuinely belief there are unbiased people out there but just rare. Inb4 bluepilled cuck idgaf

 

[Tusseleif]

We know too much

 

[Winnetou]

We know too much

Too much and not enough. That mid tier understanding (normies are fully retarded) is the worst.