I am giving myself 2 years to ascend - then I'll rope

[vodkacel]

I've come to a realization that I have no meaning in life. I am tired of ldaring 24/7 with games, movies and forums. Education has no meaning without friends or building social contacts which I have 0 so far.

All the people I know (family, colleagues) have had some romantic experience. Being an almost 23 khhv - my confidence is sub 0, I am bitter and hate myself. I feel worse than everyone else, and I am, because no woman saw my genes are worthy in the 23 years of my existence. My cousin got his first gf at 11, my grandad had 2 kids by age of 21, all of my high school friends had already experienced ltr.

I became blackpilled at 18 (from bullying) but I still hoped for 'magic': to casually find a gf, experience love, little moments of affection. 4 years have passed like a bad dream. I am now 100% sure that nothing will change if I won't change. In the future I'll become 35, will have reputable job, house ... but what's the purpose if you can't 'share' it with anyone?

I am too blackpilled to betabux so my only chance is to ascend by looksmaxxing before I am 25. I also don't believe in hookers.

PLAN:
If I don't ascend by June 2022 (when I finish my bachelor), I'll rope. I've already intoxicated myself this Feb, but was resuscitated. I know I can do it. I don't have much money and can't take loans, I have app. 6000 EU. I have taken some of yours advice.

- gym + supplements
- rhinoplasty (4000 EU)
- hairstylist (X2 / month) + stubble
- style clothes

I feel pathetic to "improve" myself to get something that everyone gets automatically much earlier in their lifes, but I accepted that I was dealt with "bad cards".

 

[Deleted member 6695]

You better work hard bro

 

[Deleted member 6113]

y not farmer max? I almost envy your lack of hope. If I was down and out I would do everything I can to move out to the country and bring my life meaning by raising cattle etc.

 

[Vermilioncore]

TLDR: it’s over for many so many fucking men.

 

[Deleted member 1588]

Good luck man hope you will make it

 

[Deleted member 6867]

We're the same age 23 khhv don't want to fk a hooker, you're not alone with these problems bro don't rope. Good luck man

 

[Deleted member 6695]

We're the same age 23 khhv don't want to fk a hooker, you're not alone with these problems bro don't rope. Good luck man

This ⬆

 

[Entschuldigung]

My goal: ascend and then make a fake account and post a rate me: dopamine overload
then i'll go to the supermarket mog everyone
and at night i'll go to the parties and fuck 3 sub 4psl and record it tbh

 

[Incoming]

Good luck bro

 

[Vidyacoper]

2 years probably wont be enough time, but ascend no matter what

 

[Deleted member 6856]

Dn rd but you re already gl

 

[MusicMaxxingMidget]

If youre going to try, just rope. If youre going to looksmaxx either do it with 110% or dont even bother at all

 

[MusicMaxxingMidget]

2 years probably wont be enough time, but ascend no matter what

Thats what im thinking too, I started leanmaxxing and it took 5 months to get any noticable changes

 

[vodkacel]

You better work hard bro

I am:
already cut down all junk-food and fast carbs, train every day (cardio and lifting), try to be on sun at least 1 - 2 / day, started skin care and will have rhinoplasty in fall.

 

[vodkacel]

y not farmer max? I almost envy your lack of hope. If I was down and out I would do everything I can to move out to the country and bring my life meaning by raising cattle etc.

I have an option to sell everything and go buy farm in Siberia or even areas like Chernobyl (ded srs) but it's not my way of living.

 

[vodkacel]

2 years probably wont be enough time, but ascend no matter what

I am planning to get rhino (my biggest fail) which should be completely done in 1 - 1.5 years.
Skin care is quick since I have no acne but it is dry and pale looking.
As for gym, I am already training every day for 4 weeks and I am at app. 16% bf and I already see some progress in abdominal and shoulder areas.
The thing is that being khhv at 25 is a big fail in life and a hit to one's ego.

 

[Deleted member 6695]

I am:
already cut down all junk-food and fast carbs, train every day (cardio and lifting), try to be on sun at least 1 - 2 / day, started skin care and will have rhinoplasty in fall.

Mirin real hard, you are an inspiration

 

[vodkacel]

Mirin real hard, you are an inspiration

I honestly have nothing to lose. I just failed a year due to depression (that I cured with ssri) and will have to repeat it with 10% load of normal. I have time and before I put a cross, I want to go all out.

 

[Patrick Baitman]

Step 1: get off this site for good

 

[vodkacel]

Dn rd but you re already gl

cope, it does not matter what psl rating you get here. I could get a 5psl but if I get 0 success irl - this is a bigger indicator.

 

[Gazzamogga]

stop making 2 year plans if you can't even go a 2 weeks without not skipping a workout and having a cheat day

 

[vodkacel]

stop making 2 year plans if you can't even go a 2 weeks without not skipping a workout and having a cheat day

so far 4 week in and going, tbh discipline is hard af

 

[Tyronecell]

We're the same age 23 khhv don't want to fk a hooker, you're not alone with these problems bro don't rope. Good luck man

 

[Hunter Vallance]

Mentalcel tbh
People would beg for the life you have rn and you would end if for validation from a foid that will cause nothing but stress in your life

 

[Deleted member 6164]

Ur not gonna rope lol. When I was 14 I told myself I’d kill myself if I didn’t get laid or get a girlfriend by 16 years old. I’m 17 now.

 

[Gazzamogga]

so far 4 week in and going, tbh discipline is hard af

All you're doing is just mentally jerking yourself off with this shit. Stop planning/doing so much and focus on sticking to shit first.