I am immune to rejection emails

[Jason Voorhees]

A year and a half ago, every single "Unfortunately." or "We've decided to move forward with other candidates would just wreck me. I'd stare at the screen and the self doubt would flood in. "Am I even good enough to be in tech? Do I even belong here?

The worst part was, I knew I was giving it 100%. If I had been lazy or slacked off, I could have at least given myself an excuse "I didn't really try." But I was trying I was grinding my ass off, putting in all the work, and still getting no results. It made me feel completely worthless.


I would go to bed crying in tears thinking I should just quit and give up as I feel asleep but everyday I woke with new courage, strength and the will to try again. I was too stubborn, hell bent and competitive to give up. I can't take no for an answer. This isn't how I was raised so kept grinding and stacking up skills, and improving and finally I saw the fruits of my labour. After months I started getting emails saying congratulations and there was no turning back. Even now I get rejected all the time but it doesn't affect me anymore. I give my 100% and all I got and forget everything else.

 

[Insomnia]

Doing your absolute best just to fail is a devastating experience

 

[Jason Voorhees]

@amp @BigBallsLarry

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Doing your absolute best just to fail is a devastating experience

Indeed. It completely shattered me from the inside. It was like visceral punch to the gut but you'll learn to take it to the chin after sometime

 

[htbslayeer]

Mirin

 

[Klasik616]

Alright but I don't understand people who are passionate about working I myself don't find joy in it.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

A year and a half ago, every single "Unfortunately." or "We've decided to move forward with other candidates would just wreck me. I'd stare at the screen and the self doubt would flood in. "Am I even good enough to be in tech? Do I even belong here?

The worst part was, I knew I was giving it 100%. If I had been lazy or slacked off, I could have at least given myself an excuse "I didn't really try." But I was trying I was grinding my ass off, putting in all the work, and still getting no results. It made me feel completely worthless.


I would go to bed crying in tears thinking I should just quit and give up as I feel asleep but everyday I woke with new courage, strength and the will to try again. I was too stubborn and competitive to give up. This isn't how I was raised, kept grinding and stacking up skills, and improving and finally I saw the fruits of my labour. After months I started getting emails saying congratulations and there was no turning back. Even now I get rejected all the time but it doesn't affect me anymore. I give my 100% and all I got and forget everything else.

Glad to hear it brocel don't let failure keep you down

What doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger or something

 

[Insomnia]

Indeed. It completely shattered me from the inside. It was like visceral punch to the gut but you'll learn to take it to the chin after sometime

I know that feeling. Waking up early to study, just for someone who cheated to get a better grade than you

 

[Deleted member 245103]

A year and a half ago, every single "Unfortunately." or "We've decided to move forward with other candidates would just wreck me. I'd stare at the screen and the self doubt would flood in. "Am I even good enough to be in tech? Do I even belong here?

The worst part was, I knew I was giving it 100%. If I had been lazy or slacked off, I could have at least given myself an excuse "I didn't really try." But I was trying I was grinding my ass off, putting in all the work, and still getting no results. It made me feel completely worthless.


I would go to bed crying in tears thinking I should just quit and give up as I feel asleep but everyday I woke with new courage, strength and the will to try again. I was too stubborn, hell bent and competitive to give up. I can't take no for an answer. This isn't how I was raised so kept grinding and stacking up skills, and improving and finally I saw the fruits of my labour. After months I started getting emails saying congratulations and there was no turning back. Even now I get rejected all the time but it doesn't affect me anymore. I give my 100% and all I got and forget everything else.

When you sacrifice your present self by discipline for your future self you change the trajectory of your life.

Glad to see bits and parts of your story.

 

[Fridx]

This is also for sports giving your 100 and still not be chosen is the most heartbreaking experience