youreallretarded
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I need to tell someone but I have no one to tell so I'm gonna post this shit in the worst place possible, but I don't care.
I adore her so much. She's perfect. I can't stop thinking about her. She acknowledges my existence, she seems to care about me or at least acts like she does, she's good looking, kind, smart, funny. We don't even know each other that well but every minute we spent together was one of my happiest moments in my life. I wish I wouldn't have to drink that much alcohol to be a normal, functioning human being. I wish I wasn't so fucking insecure about the way I look, the way I behave. I wish I could look back into her eyes without being so nervous that I have to look away. I wish she would feel the same way about me that I feel about her. But why the hell should she choose me when there is a guy in our friend group that looks better than me? I know that she knows that I like her. Why was she still so nice to me? Why hasn't she distanced herself? She's one of the only girls that actually treats me like a human being. I feel so sick. I can't sleep because of her. My head hurts so much. I just want to hold her hands, I want to talk to her, to wrap my arms around her. I want to blow my brains out, but how can I, knowing that she exists? Wouldn't this be an insult to life itself? What if she does like me? I'm in so much pain and I don't know why. Why can't I just be normal?
I adore her so much. She's perfect. I can't stop thinking about her. She acknowledges my existence, she seems to care about me or at least acts like she does, she's good looking, kind, smart, funny. We don't even know each other that well but every minute we spent together was one of my happiest moments in my life. I wish I wouldn't have to drink that much alcohol to be a normal, functioning human being. I wish I wasn't so fucking insecure about the way I look, the way I behave. I wish I could look back into her eyes without being so nervous that I have to look away. I wish she would feel the same way about me that I feel about her. But why the hell should she choose me when there is a guy in our friend group that looks better than me? I know that she knows that I like her. Why was she still so nice to me? Why hasn't she distanced herself? She's one of the only girls that actually treats me like a human being. I feel so sick. I can't sleep because of her. My head hurts so much. I just want to hold her hands, I want to talk to her, to wrap my arms around her. I want to blow my brains out, but how can I, knowing that she exists? Wouldn't this be an insult to life itself? What if she does like me? I'm in so much pain and I don't know why. Why can't I just be normal?
