I am obviously getting punished but I don't know for what

[Clown Show]

These years of bad luck, stream of bad circumstances, abysmal mental health, poor physical health also, lack of intimacy, pain, all this shit that I've experienced over this past decade can't be explained in any other way that some higher power punishing me for something.

It's not some random suffering, it's all meaningful and has a sense of karmic justice. I can't figure out what it is exactly that I did that was so terrible to warrant this much shit that I've endured. Sure I did some bad things like being an asshole to some people, bullied, I do deserve some karma like we all do but I have never stolen something, severely lied, inflicted some serious pain to someone to eat shit this much for this long, I don't think that I deserved this... You have literal criminals, psychopaths, bullies, evil doers who are in comfortable place in life with a foid on their dick unlike me...

For how long will this last, how much more suffering will I have to endure to finally redeem myself because my life for these past 10-13 years was not worth living...

I will go this year to do an x-ray scan of my brain to see the damage that I have accumulated because something is seriously wrong...

 

[Clown Show]

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[The Grinch]

It doesn’t matter if you‘re a good or a bad person. In this world there is no (Karma), no reward or punishment based on morals, it’s all just survival of the fittest. Good genes = good life, bad genes = bad life.

The Universe doesn’t care if you‘re a good or a bad person.

 

[Clown Show]

It doesn’t matter if you‘re a good or a bad person. In this world there is no reward or punishment based on morals, it’s all just survival of the fittest. Good genes = good life, bad genes = bad life.

The Universe doesn’t care if you‘re a good or a bad person.

Nah, it all seems too intentional. Many things that I deeply didn't want to happen to me, that I was running from, happened to me in the end.

I wanted to have a normal and healthy adolescence filled with intimacy., boom, I got bullied and ended up an incel virgin in my 20s.

I never wanted to get cucked, boom, multiple foids rejected me only to get fucked by other men.

I wanted to feel good, boom, I got mentally ill.

And so on...

 

[fukmylyf]

I often feel the same way. There's no logical explanation for the misfortune I've experienced. I go through periods where everything seems to go horribly wrong despite doing everything right. It's like a different set of rules apply to me, like a glitch in the matrix.

People will blame your genetics, autism, etc. but I think a lot of things in life are determined by supernatural forces. I bet I could find someone with the same flaws as you or even worse off, but somehow they're successful and happy and you aren't. Things "just happen" for them.

I'm still trying to figure out the simulation, but I've found that it's best not to resist or fall into a victim mindset. Just surrender to it, like a bad trip on psychedelics. If I tell myself "it's just one of those weeks again" things seem to magically get better. I believe we are constantly being guided and tested by supernatural forces. Look into law of attraction, manifesting, witchcraft. I'm not even joking.

 

[fukmylyf]

Everything is energy.

 

[Latinus]

Unfortunatelly (or fortunatelly, depends on your point of view) karma doesn't exist.

We were raised with this bluepill mentality that karma will eventually teach "bad people" a lesson.

That's far from reality, the universe doesn't work that way, the universe is not a god looking after all of us and punishing people that do wrong.

In reality everything is arbitrary, you can find find shit people that eventually got screwed or screwed themselves, but also many shit people that live a long life and nothing bad happens to them.

If karma existed, it would be selective.

And if it's selective, it's not really a karma.

I can definitely relate with you, I had experienced many bad things in my life, not family per se, but in other social settings, I was heavily disrespected by many people in my life, and when I got along with someone that never mocked me or anything, these people eventually left my life or died (some online friends).

Even people that I mog in looks, charisma... seem to have less of a bad luck than me.

Sometimes I think I shouldn't have been born, but since I did the world will conspire to fuck me.

 

[pprimus43]

These years of bad luck, stream of bad circumstances, abysmal mental health, poor physical health also, lack of intimacy, pain, all this shit that I've experienced over this past decade can't be explained in any other way that some higher power punishing me for something.

It's not some random suffering, it's all meaningful and has a sense of karmic justice. I can't figure out what it is exactly that I did that was so terrible to warrant this much shit that I've endured. Sure I did some bad things like being an asshole to some people, bullied, I do deserve some karma like we all do but I have never stolen something, severely lied, inflicted some serious pain to someone to eat shit this much for this long, I don't think that I deserved this... You have literal criminals, psychopaths, bullies, evil doers who are in comfortable place in life with a foid on their dick unlike me...

For how long will this last, how much more suffering will I have to endure to finally redeem myself because my life for these past 10-13 years was not worth living...

I will go this year to do an x-ray scan of my brain to see the damage that I have accumulated because something is seriously wrong...

In a similar situation here. I just can tell there’s a reason behind it but I can’t comprehend what?

 

[pprimus43]

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