I am scared of myself

[AbandonShip]

I was severely depressed a few hours back and was having fucked up thoughts about killing and torturing people and suddenly i am fine again.

It scares me that i might do something fucked up when i am incel raging and regret it later in life.
I am getting extreme anxiety because of this.
I dont want to hurt people and think of myself as a kind person but when i am depressed i change completely.
Idk what it is.
Thats why i cant sleep rn.
I am having an anxiety attack beacuse of this.

 

[Ethnicope]

 

[AbandonShip]

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I am serious dude.
Three months ago i threatened my parents with suicide while drunk and wanted them to get emotionally hurt even tho i love them.

I feel like a ticking time bomb ready to explode at any moment.
Its scary cause i dont want to hurt the people i love

 

[Ethnicope]

Its scary cause i dont want to hurt the people i love

then stop acting like a retard because you are hurting them right now

fix your life to compensate

 

[AbandonShip]

then stop acting like a retard because you are hurting them right now

fix your life to compensate

Yeah but i am having anxiety thinking about how much bad i can do to others.
It scares me. I wasn't like this.
I am a good person

 

[Almu]

I am serious dude.
Three months ago i threatened my parents with suicide while drunk and wanted them to get emotionally hurt even tho i love them.

I feel like a ticking time bomb ready to explode at any moment.
Its scary cause i dont want to hurt the people i love

Are you gemini by any chance

 

[Butthurt Dweller]

me too brother

 

[ChaddeusPeuterschmit]

Don’t worry u won’t do anything, ur too much of a pussy

 

[AbandonShip]

Are you gemini by any chance

Taurus but horoscope is cope

Don’t worry u won’t do anything, ur too much of a pussy

Not really.
I am very unstable mentally.
I wouldnt worry if i was a pussy

 

[Almu]

Taurus but horoscope is cope

Not really.
I am very unstable mentally.
I wouldnt worry if i was a pussy

Go to a doc

 

[AbandonShip]

Go to a doc

Nah. Docs dont treat shit

 

[hebbewem]

Yeah if i saw a ugly brown guy in the mirror and that was me . I would rope on the spot

 

[Deleted member 4209]

my mother said shes scared of me fml

 

[AbandonShip]

Yeah if i saw a ugly brown guy in the mirror and that was me . I would rope on the spot

Good thing i am not ugly

 

[moggingmachine]

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[AbandonShip]

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Ok nihher

 

[shibo]

dont kys

 

[AbandonShip]

dont kys

Not suicidal even tho i wish i would die.

I cant kill myself unless my parents die or some shit

 

[shibo]

Not suicidal even tho i wish i would die.

I cant kill myself unless my parents die or some shit

i dislike my parents tbh

 

[AbandonShip]

i dislike my parents tbh

I dont. I love them but still hurt them emotionally.
I am a bad person but i want to be good.

 

[moggingmachine]

Ok nihher

WTF!!!!!!!

 

[Handlet]

Not suicidal even tho i wish i would die.

I cant kill myself unless my parents die or some shit

I truly feel you brother
My 3 year relationship ended because of my self hate caused bitterness
Don't follow the same path
Reminding yourself to this won't work on long run either.
I could'nt find any way out of this. I am going ER very soon.
This type of shit always end up losing everything you care and nobody cares ur playing victim remember that

 

[AbandonShip]

I truly feel you brother
My 3 year relationship ended because of my self hate caused bitterness
Don't follow the same path
Reminding yourself to this won't work on long run either.
I could'nt find any way out of this. I am going ER very soon.
This type of shit always end up losing everything you care and nobody cares ur playing victim remember that

Yeah. I honestly need to forget about all these thoughts and focus on improving my life.

And dont go ER bro. There is no point in hurting innocent people.
Think of their families and how much pain you would cause to them.
There is always a better solution to problems than going er

 

[Handlet]

Yeah. I honestly need to forget about all these thoughts and focus on improving my life.

And dont go ER bro. There is no point in hurting innocent people.
Think of their families and how much pain you would cause to them.
There is always a better solution to problems than going er

Your right
I am just so alone nowadays and filled up with rage I can't think right.
I guess this forum is only people I know and most of them people like me
But your words even tho they are simple shit it means alot it helped thanks bro

 

[Esteban1997]

Clown world

 

[KEy21]

Self insight is the #1 signifier in psychology that indicates someone is capable of changing and controlling their behavior

so now that you recognize it - you can make sure to reminder yourself when you feel that way, that it’s just a temporary phase and not to act irrational.