antipsychotics
im joking yall
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I am sick of living in a world that constantly rejects me. I am sick of this loneliness, this separation from society. The feeling is always there, I can distract myself momentarily but then my grim reality comes flooding back to me. I could cope and cope and cope but nothing will ever change. I look back on the times where I did have friends and a girlfriend and I want to be blinded by nostalgia but I can’t. I was always being used for something. Nobody ever wanted me for me. I’ve been a reject since birth. It doesn't matter how much money I make, my clothes do not matter, my looks do not matter. Nothing I do fucking matters. Everything good I’ve ever had I lost. And everything good I had was an illusion. Every relationship/friendship I’ve been in, I was always blinded by the fact that somebody actually liked me enough to talk to me, but then the illusion would reveal itself to me, and I was always left feeling empty and dissatisfied. The emptiness has grown to full blown hatred and despair. I have no hope for my future, who cares if I am alive? I have nobody. Nobody would blink if I died, the world will still keep spinning and people wouldn’t have a care. Whats the point to life if I can’t connect? If i cant enjoy life with another human being? What is the point? I have no purpose in life, I have no drive to improve anymore, all that I do means nothing. Everything good always goes away, I can never be content within this world. And I will never be enough for anyone. I no longer wish to live in a world that rejects me. I plan to die.