I am so delusional

[slayy]

I was literally mesmerized for the last 20 minutes by looking at this foid on ig. She just posted some pics and she looks drop dead gorgeous. I kinda know her because we go to the same school but she's one year older than me and already has bf (he's like 20 lol). She looked at me in a weird way one day and thought she had something for me so I started following her on ig, especially cause she's very shy irl and even if I know she's too good looking to be with me I still thought that it was possible to at least try. But of course this just made things worse, cause now that I know that she has a bf (I discovered that by looking at her ig) and literally tons of guys that likes her pics, I just realized even more how out of my league she is. She didn't even follow me back even after I liked all of her pics but idgaf I am still gonna be delusional cause if she breaks up I am gonna rape the shit out of her promised