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I become so disgusted when I see my own penis and testicles, to the point where I become physically uncomfortable with having them attached to me. I am not sure if I would be as disgusted by them if I was attractive and had an actual sex life, but I wish I wasn't, because I can barely even pee anymore without being disgusted. I actually started sitting down to pee a few months ago so that I don't have to touch it as much, and I never really clean it. The only time I touch it is to masturbate, but that is not something I want to do, and it feels like I am forced against my will to do it. When I don't think about their existence, it's not really that bad, but when I notice them and have to think about it, I only dream of nullification surgery, and if I had the money, I would probably get a penectomy as soon as I turn 18.
If I could actually use my genitalia for its intended purpose, maybe I wouldn't hate it so badly. But, I will never, ever have sex.
If I could actually use my genitalia for its intended purpose, maybe I wouldn't hate it so badly. But, I will never, ever have sex.