i asked myself what did i do to deserve this all my life but

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i realized i had something not normal with me from the very start

when i was 4 years old i would secretly hit my friends randomly and one time i locked my mom’s friend’s daughter who was like 2 in my room and grabbed her by the head and started hitting it on the metal bed frame

then throughout my life i’ve done evil purposely and i just came to reflect on it like a month ago maybe i did everything to deserve this, i think i’m better now but i’m just paying for what i did in my past

 

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call me fucked, im just doing sort of a vent to admit to my problems, get it off my chest a bit it’s weighing heavy

that’s that

 

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i enjoyed causing harm since a baby that’s just been my nature so i feel like i deserve everything that came my way