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I feel kind of embarrassed to write this but I don’t know where else to empty my mind and look for an external opinion.
Getting into it, everything started past Saturday, I(20m) meet with my girlfriend(20) and another couple of friends at a friends house for a small reunion/party. I picked up my gf and we got to the place, everything was going great and we ordered some food for the night. In addition to this, we bought alcohol (I’m from Mexico so it is legal to drink at my age) and we were pretty happy because we don’t usually see those friends and we were having a great time. Well this is now when everything starts, my gf and I like to tease each other, even if it’s an inappropriate place or moment, so evidently we were doing it, kissing a little, hugging, grabbing each other, etc. So my friend (the owner of the house) tells me that his parents are out of town and if we want to, my gf and I can go to a room and come back for the dinner. Obviously for me that sounded great, I was tipsy and therefore, horny and so my gf. She tells me to go to the room, but then I remember a big detail, I don’t have a condom with me, I proceed to let her know and I tell her that we can go but we can’t have sex but maybe other stuff like an oral. She agrees and we go to the room together, we get into it and well as usual we make out and when she takes my jeans off, she gives me an oral and then rides on top of me, and tells me to have sex; I disagree and say no I don’t feel comfortable doing it without protection. Then she proceeded to try to put me inside of her which I don’t allow, and it goes on like this for maybe a couple minutes until she archives it. She can see my face of hesitation and inconformity and grabs my hands and pushes me back against the bed with hers, I’m freaking out and I pull out and tell her to stop she is 5.1’ and I’m 6’ but I don’t want to push her hard or hurt her trying to get out, so I just gave up and let her finish while I was just purely uncomfortable and feeling weird. When it ended she wanted to go again and got a little angry because I got dressed quickly.
I don’t know how to feel about it, I had a conversation with her the next day and I told her that I didn’t liked what happened, but for my surprise the answer for that was “well if you don’t want me to do that, then don’t tease me”
I feel really weird ever since and I’m not comfortable talking about this with my male friends because I’m pretty sure they are going to laugh about it or say something like “you complain about getting laid” or something stupid like that. It’s really hard and I don’t know what to do.
Getting into it, everything started past Saturday, I(20m) meet with my girlfriend(20) and another couple of friends at a friends house for a small reunion/party. I picked up my gf and we got to the place, everything was going great and we ordered some food for the night. In addition to this, we bought alcohol (I’m from Mexico so it is legal to drink at my age) and we were pretty happy because we don’t usually see those friends and we were having a great time. Well this is now when everything starts, my gf and I like to tease each other, even if it’s an inappropriate place or moment, so evidently we were doing it, kissing a little, hugging, grabbing each other, etc. So my friend (the owner of the house) tells me that his parents are out of town and if we want to, my gf and I can go to a room and come back for the dinner. Obviously for me that sounded great, I was tipsy and therefore, horny and so my gf. She tells me to go to the room, but then I remember a big detail, I don’t have a condom with me, I proceed to let her know and I tell her that we can go but we can’t have sex but maybe other stuff like an oral. She agrees and we go to the room together, we get into it and well as usual we make out and when she takes my jeans off, she gives me an oral and then rides on top of me, and tells me to have sex; I disagree and say no I don’t feel comfortable doing it without protection. Then she proceeded to try to put me inside of her which I don’t allow, and it goes on like this for maybe a couple minutes until she archives it. She can see my face of hesitation and inconformity and grabs my hands and pushes me back against the bed with hers, I’m freaking out and I pull out and tell her to stop she is 5.1’ and I’m 6’ but I don’t want to push her hard or hurt her trying to get out, so I just gave up and let her finish while I was just purely uncomfortable and feeling weird. When it ended she wanted to go again and got a little angry because I got dressed quickly.
I don’t know how to feel about it, I had a conversation with her the next day and I told her that I didn’t liked what happened, but for my surprise the answer for that was “well if you don’t want me to do that, then don’t tease me”
I feel really weird ever since and I’m not comfortable talking about this with my male friends because I’m pretty sure they are going to laugh about it or say something like “you complain about getting laid” or something stupid like that. It’s really hard and I don’t know what to do.
