Manu le coq
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When i was younger I tought i was special, that i’m smarter than other people, that i’m better looking, or i had something inside of me, that i couldn’t tell what it is but, which made me different, something which made me better, i tought I was born to acomplish something, to become a movie star or a cosmonaute.
I was persuaded of it, Regardless of how much life could throw counter evidence at me, which blatantly showed me how ordinary or below i am. I always found a way to cope with reality.
But i understand now
I’m worth nothing, i’m no one
I’m not special, i’m not smarter, i’m not better looking, I have nothing special making me better inside of me.
I have no friends, no family, no bright and wonderful futur, nothing.
I’m just as shitty and low value as everyone else.
It’s been a long journey,
But now I accept my condition as a low value man.
I’m a just worm
I'm not made to live with people
I’m not fit for society,
I indulge in self gratification, and instant cheap pleasure.
I have no greater meaning behind each of my actions, no great war, no transending purpose. I just seek pleasure and avoid pain like an animal. I live day by day, without any long term plan, I'm just a worm, and I always has been and I will forever be one.
Eventually one day I will wake up at 87yo , i will look back at my meaningless existence, and i will tell myself, "It's trully been a worthless shitty life, i’m so glad it's almost over".
Then I will die and within a few decades my own existence will be forgotten, it will be like i never ever existed. Our life choice don't matter, nothing really does.
I was persuaded of it, Regardless of how much life could throw counter evidence at me, which blatantly showed me how ordinary or below i am. I always found a way to cope with reality.
But i understand now
I’m worth nothing, i’m no one
I’m not special, i’m not smarter, i’m not better looking, I have nothing special making me better inside of me.
I have no friends, no family, no bright and wonderful futur, nothing.
I’m just as shitty and low value as everyone else.
It’s been a long journey,
But now I accept my condition as a low value man.
I’m a just worm
I'm not made to live with people
I’m not fit for society,
I indulge in self gratification, and instant cheap pleasure.
I have no greater meaning behind each of my actions, no great war, no transending purpose. I just seek pleasure and avoid pain like an animal. I live day by day, without any long term plan, I'm just a worm, and I always has been and I will forever be one.
Eventually one day I will wake up at 87yo , i will look back at my meaningless existence, and i will tell myself, "It's trully been a worthless shitty life, i’m so glad it's almost over".
Then I will die and within a few decades my own existence will be forgotten, it will be like i never ever existed. Our life choice don't matter, nothing really does.
