I can’t ever stop ascending

[RealNinja]

I started using substances at age 11 or 12. Over the next 8 years I tried a litany of them including but not limited to: MDMA, fentanyl, meth, muscle relaxers, benzos, And I’ve yet to find a drug that’s as compelling as mogging is. It hits like crack when you spend your entire life obese & ugly & uncared for, and then suddenly reach a point where your physical presence is so salient that people are reacting to it everywhere you go. I remember a girl from my high school class accidentally bumped into me and overreacted by screaming “ewww!” I ran into her in the gym about 3 years later, she didn’t recognize me at all until I introduced myself but she couldn’t stop looking at my forearms. One of many examples. When you go from having women react to you with disgust to having them go out of their way to interact with you, getting creepshotted by them in public, or being directly offered sex, it feels surreal & you can’t get enough of it.

And that right there is the issue, It’s never enough. I feel obligated to see how far I can take it. Nevermind the positive attention, this feeling is intensified by the negative attention that comes with having a salient physical presence and a personality that doesn’t fit into any molds. If you’re fat and invisible no one gives a fuck about you. People you’ve never spoken to don’t dislike you, other men don’t try to challenge you and play dominance games, you aren’t criticized for no reason, people don’t try to attach themselves to you in public and then talk shit behind your back. I feel obligated to try as hard as possible to achieve physical flawlessness. @6ft4 said that trying and falling short is often punished more harshly than never trying at all

 

[jeoyw9192]

I started using substances at age 11 or 12. Over the next 8 years I tried a litany of them including but not limited to: MDMA, fentanyl, meth, muscle relaxers, benzos, And I’ve yet to find a drug that’s as compelling as mogging is. It hits like crack when you spend your entire life obese & ugly & uncared for, and then suddenly reach a point where your physical presence is so salient that people are reacting to it everywhere you go. I remember a girl from my high school class accidentally bumped into me and overreacted by screaming “ewww!” I ran into her in the gym about 3 years later, she didn’t recognize me at all until I introduced myself but she couldn’t stop looking at my forearms. One of many examples. When you go from having women react to you with disgust to having them go out of their way to interact with you, getting creepshotted by them in public, or being directly offered sex, it feels surreal & you can’t get enough of it.

And that right there is the issue, It’s never enough. I feel obligated to see how far I can take it. Nevermind the positive attention, this feeling is intensified by the negative attention that comes with having a salient physical presence and a personality that doesn’t fit into any molds. If you’re fat and invisible no one gives a fuck about you. People you’ve never spoken to don’t dislike you, other men don’t try to challenge you and play dominance games, you aren’t criticized for no reason, people don’t try to attach themselves to you in public and then talk shit behind your back. I feel obligated to try as hard as possible to achieve physical flawlessness. @6ft4 said that trying and falling short is often punished more harshly than never trying at all

What are ur next plans looksmaxxing wise?

Also do you live in the US or somewhere else just curious?

 

[Im sorry mother]

Drop the stack

 

[6ft4]

How the hell were you obese if you were taking meth since childhood?
I was too busy to eat my usual full 3 meals per day last week and dropped potatoes out of my diet and cut my chocolate intake in half and unintentionally lost 4kg

Mogging / validation from being glazed is addictive and a weak substitute for slaying as it provides the belief that slaying is just around the corner

When I was at my peak invisible-ness around 15 years old, there was actually a somewhat liberating feeling from not even being in the game as it felt like I had no standards to maintain
I couldn't feel disappointment from a lack of attention because that's all I knew
Once I began to mog and felt like I needed to maintain or increase the amount of attention I was getting from foids, that's when my mentalceldom kicked in

 

[jeoyw9192]

How the hell were you obese if you were taking meth since childhood?
I was too busy to eat my usual full 3 meals per day last week and dropped potatoes out of my diet and cut my chocolate intake in half and unintentionally lost 4kg

Mogging / validation from being glazed is addictive and a weak substitute for slaying as it provides the belief that slaying is just around the corner

When I was at my peak invisible-ness around 15 years old, there was actually a somewhat liberating feeling from not even being in the game as it felt like I had no standards to maintain
I couldn't feel disappointment from a lack of attention because that's all I knew
Once I began to mog and felt like I needed to maintain or increase the amount of attention I was getting from foids, that's when my mentalceldom kicked in

What'd u ascend from to what now

 

[RealNinja]

How the hell were you obese if you were taking meth since childhood?
I was too busy to eat my usual full 3 meals per day last week and dropped potatoes out of my diet and cut my chocolate intake in half and unintentionally lost 4kg

Hahah I’ve never used any stimulant long term except nicotine. I just started trying various different drugs at a young age

When I was at my peak invisible-ness around 15 years old, there was actually a somewhat liberating feeling from not even being in the game as it felt like I had no standards to maintain
I couldn't feel disappointment from a lack of attention because that's all I knew
Once I began to mog and felt like I needed to maintain or increase the amount of attention I was getting from foids, that's when my mentalceldom kicked in

Yes, that’s definitely an issue when you start to look good and get attention, it makes your self esteem much more vulnerable to fluctuation. You feel on top of the world if you have a good day where you’re getting a lot of attention or successful interactions with girls. And then maybe tomorrow you don’t look as good due to bloating, some pimples, poor sleep, bad hair day, bad outfit etcetera. Or for whatever reason women just aren’t giving you as much attention as they were before. Then it’s much easier to feel like shit about yourself or miss being invisible because it’s an “off day”

 

[6.5x5cel]

fuark man that sounds amazing. Crossing my fingers that a manage to claw my way into HTN territory and finally become visible to young MTB+. So fckn tired of being invisible man. Even most landwhales/LTBs in grocery stores don't give me IOIs despite being a skinny MTN