I cant get over the fact that I have wasted my teens.19M

[Sean o' Tist]

I feel terible. I ve been feeling this way for over a year now, since I turned 18. That day I still remember as one of the worst days of my life.

So, Im a guy with aspergers, ever since early childhood I havent been able to fit in and socialize properly. But at that time, I didnt really care. I have had some frinds in elementary, one of them is still my best frind till this day. But I do not have any particulary good memories from elementary.

Fast forward to 2021, I have started High school. Situation had only gotten worse then. First year I have had social anxiety arround people from my class, but still, I have mannaged to make a 1 single friend. And Im grateful for him, geniouenly.

But the thing is, throughout highschool, nothing really happened. I do not have any remarkable memories from there. Nor bad nor good.

But the part that haunts me the most, is that Im still a virgin. Yes, it is. However immature and fragile that might sound, its been my biggest insecurity for a past year. And not that I think that anyone would care abt it, I dont. It is the feeling that most people have already slept arround and dated and have been having fun since middle school, yet Im left behind.

And Im not even that bad looking. Maybe a MTN

And yes, I know people have much, much bigger problems than I, but that doesnt make me feel any better, I think Im entitled to my emotions (and sorry if this sentence sounds angry/asshole-ish, its not the intend)

Im going to find a therapist soon.

Just please, write what you think abt this, I will appriciate any feedback ,

thank you for reading

 

[orangomango2003]

Dnrd

 

[Sean o' Tist]

Dnrd

what a surprise

 

[HighTierSubhuman]

Relatable

 

[cooldude1231]

Your therapist will shame you for being an incel

 

[Andremln]

It gets worse

 

[Deleted member 104629]

if you never had a chance at socializing and being ''successful'' in life due to a mental disability, why would you judge yourself

 

[zemult]

I have the same exact experience as you except I'm LTN.

Once you get older, you'll realize all of this is pointless to think about. You're just wasting more time of your youth by thinking about this constantly JFL.

You're at least alright-looking with good averageness. Good phenotype. I'd kill to have your facial structure. You have to stop mentally mastrubating about fantasies that could have happened and focus on moving forward. Your feelings are valid but cmon nigga.

 

[RAITEIII]

You're still a teen? Start building memories NOW.

 

[Ruthless]

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