Sean o' Tist
no surgery for autism
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I feel terible. I ve been feeling this way for over a year now, since I turned 18. That day I still remember as one of the worst days of my life.
So, Im a guy with aspergers, ever since early childhood I havent been able to fit in and socialize properly. But at that time, I didnt really care. I have had some frinds in elementary, one of them is still my best frind till this day. But I do not have any particulary good memories from elementary.
Fast forward to 2021, I have started High school. Situation had only gotten worse then. First year I have had social anxiety arround people from my class, but still, I have mannaged to make a 1 single friend. And Im grateful for him, geniouenly.
But the thing is, throughout highschool, nothing really happened. I do not have any remarkable memories from there. Nor bad nor good.
But the part that haunts me the most, is that Im still a virgin. Yes, it is. However immature and fragile that might sound, its been my biggest insecurity for a past year. And not that I think that anyone would care abt it, I dont. It is the feeling that most people have already slept arround and dated and have been having fun since middle school, yet Im left behind.
And Im not even that bad looking. Maybe a MTN
And yes, I know people have much, much bigger problems than I, but that doesnt make me feel any better, I think Im entitled to my emotions (and sorry if this sentence sounds angry/asshole-ish, its not the intend)
Im going to find a therapist soon.
Just please, write what you think abt this, I will appriciate any feedback ,
thank you for reading
So, Im a guy with aspergers, ever since early childhood I havent been able to fit in and socialize properly. But at that time, I didnt really care. I have had some frinds in elementary, one of them is still my best frind till this day. But I do not have any particulary good memories from elementary.
Fast forward to 2021, I have started High school. Situation had only gotten worse then. First year I have had social anxiety arround people from my class, but still, I have mannaged to make a 1 single friend. And Im grateful for him, geniouenly.
But the thing is, throughout highschool, nothing really happened. I do not have any remarkable memories from there. Nor bad nor good.
But the part that haunts me the most, is that Im still a virgin. Yes, it is. However immature and fragile that might sound, its been my biggest insecurity for a past year. And not that I think that anyone would care abt it, I dont. It is the feeling that most people have already slept arround and dated and have been having fun since middle school, yet Im left behind.
And Im not even that bad looking. Maybe a MTN
And yes, I know people have much, much bigger problems than I, but that doesnt make me feel any better, I think Im entitled to my emotions (and sorry if this sentence sounds angry/asshole-ish, its not the intend)
Im going to find a therapist soon.
Just please, write what you think abt this, I will appriciate any feedback ,
thank you for reading
