chudlite
𝕯𝖝𝕯 𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖜
- Joined
- May 17, 2024
- Posts
- 11,298
- Reputation
- 21,174
i remember i had this girlfriend when i was 16, she was 14, this song reminds me of her
she was ugly to say the least… however this is where the true character and quality of my soul shows it’s splendor
She was a very sweet girl if im being frank, i think back to sigmund freud and the little statue of a hedgehog he had on his table,
i feel as if had i not been afraid of pain, what transpired would’ve never happened, you see im a gentle loving soul who is simply afraid of intimacy make that what it makes me,
i think we would’ve been together still, funny enough i care so deeply for this girl, not a sense of love either, i do not love nor do i miss her, i simply think of it as a life lesson
i saw her without makeup once and decided to break up with her for some reason, i dont know i was uglier back then, i told her “i fucking hate you leave me alone” one day randomly, i hung up after
i vividly remember how her voice trembled and creaked after, this was 4 years ago so i remember not what she said only the stark change in tone, trembling it reminded me of a bridge facing a heavy gust of wind
so i hung up, she called me 2 times afterwards, i didnt answer, so i went on with my life, i met prettier girls sure
did any of them treat me as well? No
so here i am on the toilet thinking about my tribulations and my hardships, the struggle a loving soul must endure for that of which he believes,
a soul must suffer for that of which he desires for if he not suffer, his desire is not truly his but of one seeded ideals and moral, he is but a golem of flesh, raped of his destiny and true self
i’ll show a picture of her to you niggas if i can find it btw
@cromagnon @ey88 @swt @BigJimsWornOutTires @Gaygymmaxx
