I can't phantom how much more productive I was when I was younger

[SayNoToRotting]

I would spend hours working on animations, drawings for my own enjoyment,

I had my own youtube channel with relatively high production value drawing tutorials...

I was incredibly high energy and motivated back when I was between 9 and 14.

All the spirit is long gone now, I have been facing fatigue for over 3 years now and it seems like I won't escape it anytime soon.

 

[Golden Glass]

I would spend hours working on animations, drawings for my own enjoyment,

I had my own youtube channel with relatively high production value drawing tutorials...

I was incredibly high energy and motivated back when I was between 9 and 14.

All the spirit is long gone now, I have been facing fatigue for over 3 years now and it seems like I won't escape it anytime soon.

Was similar with me until I started e-commerce. Became addicted to social media marketing and making money from it.

 

[chadpreetcel123]

how many subscribers did u have boyo

 

[Tony]

 

[Deleted member 1464]

Many can relate.
Needed that sweet JB love.

 

[beyourself]

Lately I started to believe it's just my (our) brain filtering negative and neutral moments and remembering only the best ones, thus the feeling of worthlessness I use to experience these days.

I kept thinking ages 14-17 were my epitome but then I realized there aren't so many things I accomplished during those years apart from "being busy". In fact I didn't accomplish shit, just kept myself busy.​

 

[SayNoToRotting]

how many subscribers did u have boyo

Somehow it went up from 45 to 48subs 3 years after I put all my videos on private:

I'm still considering making them public again, just in case I will become more motivated to chase that sweet ad revenue.

 

[beyourself]

Many can relate.
Needed that sweet JB love.

Gotta be precise bro, love =/= getting it back as well.
So yeah I felt like shit mostly (ages 15-16)​

sweet ad revenue.

you can't buy sandwich with those 2 cents bro wtf
I thought the days when people believed youtube ad system can make them money are gone​

 

[SayNoToRotting]

I thought the days when people believed youtube ad system can make them money are gone

It would have certainly been possible back in 2015 and 2016, when my channel was running (for a month).
however I don't know if I would have made enough subscribers by the end of these times.

Maybe it will look different again in the far future.

 

[beyourself]

It would have certainly been possible back in 2015 and 2016, when my channel was running (for a month).
however I don't know if I would have made enough subscribers by the end of these times.

Maybe it will look different again in the far future.

I'm not sure even a thousand views can make someone a dollar TBH (not like a thousand views is a great milestone, but compared to your average wannabe-youtuber it's much).
I'm pretty though sure most of the money youtubers make come from product plasements, integrations and straight-up side business.​

 

[SayNoToRotting]

I'm not sure even a thousand views can make someone a dollar TBH (not like a thousand views is a great milestone, but compared to your average wannabe-youtuber it's much).
I'm pretty though sure most of the money youtubers make come from product plasements, integrations and straight-up side business.​

well I never expected to make a living off of it, jus some neat little cash.

 

[Feanor]

i do not relate. i did nothing but replay the same video games over and over when i was that age.

 

[Ritalincel]

try vyvanse

 

[SayNoToRotting]

try vyvanse

perhaps