I can't stand this type life

[BlackFag]

WARNING A CUCKED ETHNIC NIGGERCELL
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I can't stand it
i love women i always have i always have liked women, i find them beautiful i want to get to know one, to love one etc

of course i know i will never be loved in return (no shit, love starts at HTN)
but i just don't think i can keep living with the Blackpill on my mind for the rest of my life

it keeps draining me, looking at others and constantly knowing i'm below them
yeah yeah i get it i'm LLTN but still doens't change shit

i want to live man, i want to be happy and love another person
but i know it won't happen

and thats the hardest thing to accept
that i am an sub 5 and it never truly started

i wish i could say that i'm not stuck like this
but my personnality is shit i'm autistic and Sub 5
every day i see my face in the mirror i sob, i just want to destroy my godforsaken face
because this is sinful life, God said that we should go out and reproduce but i can't even do that
i've failed God, in the worst way possible
i've been increasingly thinking of Killing myself
because atleast when i die i can finally be comfortable in the arms God
i'm giving myelf 48 hours if i do not feel better ill end my own life
as this is not a life

 

[BlackFag]

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[IzDrizSub5]

hey mate im here, true love is one of the few exceptions to bp and looksmaxint in general. when you really love someone, you love them always and no matter what they look like. Ive been in love, ive seen her when she looks “bad” and she saw me when i looked bad, our love did not change. if love is what your looking for, and you are not receiving it, there is a few things i can recommend to you. Go to places you enjoy spending time, wait to find a women you find attractive, ask for her name and ask about her day, start conversations about things you like, and ask about the things she likes. if girls are refusing to talk to you, there is a potential for you to lower your standards to find a proper looksmatch. love takes time and IS meant for everyone. you have not failed god, change your perspective of your position. god is giving you the chance to prove everyone wrong, yourself included. change things up, go for runs, walks, adopt a dog. perspective is the deadliest part of our lives, if you have a terrible view on everything in your life, everything in your life is terrible.

I have 4 suicide attempts, the last of which i woke in my mothers lap. no amount of pain is worth the loss of your life, god untied the knots i made in the rope, 4 separate times. we are not meant to loose you, and you are not meant to be gone. Stay strong my friend.