I completely descended but I want to "go back"

[suicidemonkey]

I'm a 20 year old guy and a few months ago, I genuinely believe that I was quite good looking.

Now I'm probably like 21% body fat, I gained weight rapidly and feel a little worthless.

Before, I must've been 13-14% body fat with a good level of appeal.

Now that I'm 20, I honestly feel kind of lost because I now feel like a full grown man who doesn't deserve to have "fun" in a similar way to teenagers (if that makes sense, like it's just too late).

I can't stop overthinking all of this shit, I shift between feeling like I have everything under control and the thought of going homeless if I'm kicked out of my parent's house.

Could someone tell me bluntly if it's too late? Maybe I'm just overthinking somehow, but it feels like many of the "innocent" teen experiences that I wanted are gone forever (as stupid as this sounds on paper). Is anything like that (even just closely similar) achievable?

Also, when I was lean I was 100% above average facially (I don't know what rating but girls would often stare and I could easily cold approach) so now that I'm 21%bf, it feels over.

 

[blackrockjewmanlet]

“just lose weight” brootal

 

[StraightHeadJames]

bruh 20 years old is basically still a Kid lol just dont hang out with 15 year olds


and ur problem is only getting lean nigga what u stressing about U can get that anytime

 

[suicidemonkey]

bruh 20 years old is basically still a Kid lol just dont hang out with 15 year olds


and ur problem is only getting lean nigga what u stressing about U can get that anytime

How old r u ?

 

[StraightHeadJames]

How old r u ?

19

 

[suicidemonkey]

19

I'm fucked bro

You know how I spent my late teens? On at least 3 separate occasions, I went to the city completely alone and passed out in public from severe alcoholic intoxication. I was literally passed out on the street, was taken home in an ambulance and couldn't recall anything.

 

[StraightHeadJames]

I'm fucked bro

You know how I spent my late teens? On at least 3 separate occasions, I went to the city completely alone and passed out in public from severe alcoholic intoxication. I was literally passed out on the street, was taken home in an ambulance and couldn't recall anything.

well u should try to max out your health indicators now

like animal based diet, grounding, spend a lot of time in sun, 0 cortisol

if u want to go back to ur previous looks since u disregarded ur health. do it ASAP

 

[suicidemonkey]

well u should try to max out your health indicators now

like animal based diet, grounding, spend a lot of time in sun, 0 cortisol

if u want to go back to ur previous looks since u disregarded ur health. do it ASAP

No no, I drank like this prior to realizing that I'm actually good looking while lean.

Just thought I'd share.