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Environment is law
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She posted alot of story's on instagram and she didn't seem to be even bothered. Thats why i shed some tears for like 2 minutes. While i was crying i was looking in the mirror to calm down and detox myself from this bullshit. I still love her and the fact like she doesn't even seem bothered hurts so much. I softmaxxed and even hardmaxxed to be where im at today and im still busy softmaxxing and planning hardmaxxes till this day. But is it really worth it? My mental health declines the more i do this. I need some support but im a mixed mf in the netherlands so nobody cares about you. To begin with everybody reached their social milestone very young while i quit literally haven't experienced ANY (Ive been to a birthday party once, puked everywhere and on somebody). That was the 1st and last time i ever got invited to something nice. Ive finally "reached" my goal of being attractive but now that i am here its still not enough clearly. I want to be healthy (mentally cause im the healthiest fucker ever
), normal and love. I know its to much to ask but i genuinely will stay a virgin forever unless i find somebody that is also is a virgin, likes me for who i am (my looks, shyness, obessiveness and just genuinely my unhingedness). Somebody i can shard my emotions with without them judging me. I want to be treated human and only chadlites can achieve that if you are ND. Some mightve seen me and say you look good its fine. No, it is not. When i went to college 6 months ago (less appeal cause of extremely swollen nose, bad haircut and slight higher body percentage) i could still be considered htn with my height and frame. I actually got IOI's for the 1st time in my life and it felt good. But ofcourse like always you cant win. I was doing very well the 1st couple of weeks socialising as a ND guy more with the 50/50 girls and guys. After a while though peoples true nature came. As a shy person i just cant be bothered to standup for myself cause i want to make connections and not be alone yet the opposite happens. I end up being picked cause im easy pickings and basically cast aside cause im competition yet not at all. Fun fact i was 16 at the time, those losers 21. How cruel for adults to bully a shy kid honestly. Maybe they were jealous cause a 16 yo fogged them, who knows. This is why i firmly believe to have the chance to become succesful as an ND person you need to be either environment, Cl+ or extremely smart (all based on luck jfl).
People will hate you for just existing cause you are different from what they are used to (water). Being used to something is the worst. My dad personally also gets very annoyed at me cause our habits are just very different, he isn't USED TO IT. Be normal or death theory or the be chad or death theory or the just be NT theory.
Anyways i appreciate you guys for the support today. It really helped, goodnight.
People that might relate: @superpsycho (Truecel) @fr0st (that dumb lesbo rated you a 3 but she doesn't even like guys so whatever) @enriquecuador (thanks for the advice, i tried but failed in the end) @loyolaxavvierretard (You also gave good advice. I like talking to older people) and @chudlite For going through the same very recently. Ofcourse there are way more but im way to tired rn to tag them cause i slept like absolute garbage yesterday and i honestly need the sleep (can't be descending after the hoes fuck you up, that's what they want).
), normal and love. I know its to much to ask but i genuinely will stay a virgin forever unless i find somebody that is also is a virgin, likes me for who i am (my looks, shyness, obessiveness and just genuinely my unhingedness). Somebody i can shard my emotions with without them judging me. I want to be treated human and only chadlites can achieve that if you are ND. Some mightve seen me and say you look good its fine. No, it is not. When i went to college 6 months ago (less appeal cause of extremely swollen nose, bad haircut and slight higher body percentage) i could still be considered htn with my height and frame. I actually got IOI's for the 1st time in my life and it felt good. But ofcourse like always you cant win. I was doing very well the 1st couple of weeks socialising as a ND guy more with the 50/50 girls and guys. After a while though peoples true nature came. As a shy person i just cant be bothered to standup for myself cause i want to make connections and not be alone yet the opposite happens. I end up being picked cause im easy pickings and basically cast aside cause im competition yet not at all. Fun fact i was 16 at the time, those losers 21. How cruel for adults to bully a shy kid honestly. Maybe they were jealous cause a 16 yo fogged them, who knows. This is why i firmly believe to have the chance to become succesful as an ND person you need to be either environment, Cl+ or extremely smart (all based on luck jfl).People will hate you for just existing cause you are different from what they are used to (water). Being used to something is the worst. My dad personally also gets very annoyed at me cause our habits are just very different, he isn't USED TO IT. Be normal or death theory or the be chad or death theory or the just be NT theory.
Anyways i appreciate you guys for the support today. It really helped, goodnight.
People that might relate: @superpsycho (Truecel) @fr0st (that dumb lesbo rated you a 3 but she doesn't even like guys so whatever) @enriquecuador (thanks for the advice, i tried but failed in the end) @loyolaxavvierretard (You also gave good advice. I like talking to older people) and @chudlite For going through the same very recently. Ofcourse there are way more but im way to tired rn to tag them cause i slept like absolute garbage yesterday and i honestly need the sleep (can't be descending after the hoes fuck you up, that's what they want).
