I cry way too much.

[MoggerGaston]

few hours ago I was walking through the city, saw a bird (magpie) flying close to the ground, past me, and went sitting on a branch 2 meters on my right.

The thought of: 'what a beautiful world' hit my mind and before I could even fully register the thought, tears started coming from my eyes. Knowing how much pain and suffering I endure every single day, unable to enjoy any of it. Despite life being able to be so beautiful, all I experience is rejection, pain, suffering, trueceldom.

Just now also, I got an e-mail from one of the university associations inviting people for a special organized day of physics lectures on the topic of astrophysics, I could see that I could subscribe to the full program for like 15 euros including lunch and dinner, but it reminded me of with how much passion I once started this degree. And how I used to attend days like this with great interest, motivation, ambition.
Yet now it's all over. There is nothing left. It was all a lie for me as I am a truecel subhuman who will never be respected, loved, cherished, valued.

Nothing.

So much pain I have to endure, every single day.

 

[ben132794]

few hours ago I was walking through the city, saw a bird (magpie) flying close to the ground, past me, and went sitting on a branch 2 meters on my right.

The thought of: 'what a beautiful world' hit my mind and before I could even fully register the thought, tears started coming from my eyes. Knowing how much pain and suffering I endure every single day, unable to enjoy any of it. Despite life being able to be so beautiful, all I experience is rejection, pain, suffering, trueceldom.

Just now also, I got an e-mail from one of the university associations inviting people for a special organized day of physics lectures on the topic of astrophysics, I could see that I could subscribe to the full program for like 15 euros including lunch and dinner, but it reminded me of with how much passion I once started this degree. And how I used to attend days like this with great interest, motivation, ambition.
Yet now it's all over. There is nothing left. It was all a lie for me as I am a truecel subhuman who will never be respected, loved, cherished, valued.

Nothing.

So much pain I have to endure, every single day.

same

 

[PsychoH]

few hours ago I was walking through the city, saw a bird (magpie) flying close to the ground, past me, and went sitting on a branch 2 meters on my right.

The thought of: 'what a beautiful world' hit my mind and before I could even fully register the thought, tears started coming from my eyes. Knowing how much pain and suffering I endure every single day, unable to enjoy any of it. Despite life being able to be so beautiful, all I experience is rejection, pain, suffering, trueceldom.

Just now also, I got an e-mail from one of the university associations inviting people for a special organized day of physics lectures on the topic of astrophysics, I could see that I could subscribe to the full program for like 15 euros including lunch and dinner, but it reminded me of with how much passion I once started this degree. And how I used to attend days like this with great interest, motivation, ambition.
Yet now it's all over. There is nothing left. It was all a lie for me as I am a truecel subhuman who will never be respected, loved, cherished, valued.

Nothing.

So much pain I have to endure, every single day.

You should do a meetup with me Gaston. Hire shit to go around the countries. I remember seeing people on quads it was cool as shit.

 

[Regressive]

its over

 

[Jiaxi]

gods takin care of the birds in the air and he’ll take good care of you

 

[꧁𓊈𒆜𝓟𝓻𝓸☑️𒆜𓊉꧂]

nothing alcohol can t cure tbh

 

[MoggerGaston]

gods takin care of the birds in the air and he’ll take good care of you

birds always make me cry

 

[MoggerGaston]

nothing alcohol can t cure tbh

drank a bottle of wine in 1 hour, going to get more.

but the depression will be back again tomorrow, this is no way to live. yet there is no other way.

ive done everything.

I am just one man, against the world.

 

[BimaxLaser]

Looks at the bright side at least your gl

 

[꧁𓊈𒆜𝓟𝓻𝓸☑️𒆜𓊉꧂]

drank a bottle of wine in 1 hour, going to get more.

but the depression will be back again tomorrow, this is no way to live. yet there is no other way.

ive done everything.

I am just one man, against the world.

thank god i live in the balkans and can get snus and alcohol anywhere at 16, it really helps with school ngl

 

[MoggerGaston]

thank god i live in the balkans and can get snus and alcohol anywhere at 16, it really helps with school ngl

Yes, but if you would've lived closer to me, we could've been snorting mephedrone and ketamine right now

 

[R@m@]

 

[꧁𓊈𒆜𝓟𝓻𝓸☑️𒆜𓊉꧂]

Yes, but if you would've lived closer to me, we could've been snorting mephedrone and ketamine right now

too far boyo, adderal is he only acceptable amphetamine and other drugs will js nuke your will to live tbh, stay with nicotine and alcohol boyo, one day you will look back and smile at your former glory

 

[MoggerGaston]

Looks at the bright side at least your gl

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

 

[BimaxLaser]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Stop crying nigga Holy, also you got a source for heroin im looking for some

 

[MoggerGaston]

too far boyo, adderal is he only acceptable amphetamine and other drugs will js nuke your will to live tbh, stay with nicotine and alcohol boyo, one day you will look back and smile at your former glory

nigga, amphetamines literally destroys your brain for the long-term

ketamine, 2-cb, mephedrone, mdma, shrooms, lsd are all harmless drugs compared to amphetamines.

 

[꧁𓊈𒆜𝓟𝓻𝓸☑️𒆜𓊉꧂]

nigga, amphetamine literally destroys your brain for the long-term

ketamine, 2-cb, mephedrone, mdma, shrooms, lsd are all harmless drugs compared to amphetamines.

shrooms are cool ngl, they grow where i live too jfl

 

[MoggerGaston]

shrooms are cool ngl, they grow where i live too jfl

i was visited by angels and demons, real ones, while on shrooms last year.

shit was crazy.

 

[Daddy's Home]

These foids tell you to cheer up, so you should do exactly that..

 

[MoggerGaston]

It feels too brutal that I can be so close to dating-succes, yet impossibly far away at the same time.

I've already dated so much in the past with 0 succes, it's literally all pointless. I guess some incels on this forum would dream for results like this, but for me this amounts to nothing.

I haven't had sex in years, gone on way too many dates, nothing I can do. Everything is pointless.

I am not even autistic, introverted or weird on dates. Just not good enough.

It's a retarded life and all I think of is suicide, unless I am on drugs, only way to enjoy this retarded life.

 

[lurking truecel]

Nah one day that bird will fly and it will be you, a reincarnated birdcel flying over the town in all of this glory just to be laughed at by human fools. Btw over for u my friend

 

[MoggerGaston]

Nah one day that bird will fly and it will be you, a reincarnated birdcel flying over the town in all of this glory just to be laughed at by human fools. Btw over for u my friend

over

 

[yyamann]

ropefuel

 

[Vermilioncore]

Sadly we suffer alone, together.

 

[CandidateSlayer]

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It feels too brutal that I can be so close to dating-succes, yet impossibly far away at the same time.

I've already dated so much in the past with 0 succes, it's literally all pointless. I guess some incels on this forum would dream for results like this, but for me this amounts to nothing.

I haven't had sex in years, gone on way too many dates, nothing I can do. Everything is pointless.

I am not even autistic, introverted or weird on dates. Just not good enough.

It's a retarded life and all I think of is suicide, unless I am on drugs, only way to enjoy this retarded life.

Seems really weird. You get so many matches, possibly NT and yet, not a single date leads to sex.

You claim to not be good enough. Could you please be more specific? At which point during the date do you feel that you lost the game yet again?

 

[MoggerGaston]

Seems really weird. You get so many matches, possibly NT and yet, not a single date leads to sex.

You claim to not be good enough. Could you please be more specific? At which point during the date do you feel that you lost the game yet again?

It's multiple factors:

First of all I have low-trust looks/appeal, which causes the foids I attract to vision me as this dominant mogger chad fuckboy who has never had issues with women. This is the projection on me and the behavior I am expected to exhibit.

Then there is the following:

29yo, never had a real relationship ever in my life before. Unfixable
was KHHV at 23.5yo, got my first kiss at 23.5yo. This has had severe implications for my mindset, behavior, emotions. Unfixable
I was abused by my own parents, mainly my own mother, throughout my entire childhood. This has scarred me for life. Unfixable
I have no social-life whatsoever. As in literally: no family, no friends, NOTHING. Unfixable
No real hobbies or any interest whatsoever. I am a ghost due to my depression, which has been completely unfixable.
Failed studies, no career, rotter. Also unfixable.

Add on top of that, female hypergamy. Where there is a guy with NONE of these issues ALWAYS around the corner. What fucking chance do I have?!


This life is one big torture device for my soul.

 

[enriquecel]

few hours ago I was walking through the city, saw a bird (magpie) flying close to the ground, past me, and went sitting on a branch 2 meters on my right.

The thought of: 'what a beautiful world' hit my mind and before I could even fully register the thought, tears started coming from my eyes. Knowing how much pain and suffering I endure every single day, unable to enjoy any of it. Despite life being able to be so beautiful, all I experience is rejection, pain, suffering, trueceldom.

Just now also, I got an e-mail from one of the university associations inviting people for a special organized day of physics lectures on the topic of astrophysics, I could see that I could subscribe to the full program for like 15 euros including lunch and dinner, but it reminded me of with how much passion I once started this degree. And how I used to attend days like this with great interest, motivation, ambition.
Yet now it's all over. There is nothing left. It was all a lie for me as I am a truecel subhuman who will never be respected, loved, cherished, valued.

Nothing.

So much pain I have to endure, every single day.

maybe idk tbh just ok bro bye bro peace out

 

[MoggerGaston]

maybe idk tbh just ok bro bye bro peace out

 

[enriquecel]

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