I don’t see a point in living anywhere

[notalive]

The more research and treatments I get, the more I’m finding out that one of my failos is basically unfixable and a social death sentence. I can’t fit into normal society. I’m going to keep trying, but every attempt just leads me closer to roping.

 

[notalive]

I don’t have any life, I haven’t had one since I graduated high school, and it’s all because no one is accepting enough of me to want to be my friend or partner. Every weekend passes the same, every day, every night. What a fucking curse. Wish someone could just put me out of my misery like a sick dog.

 

[notalive]

And I’m fucking 26 to put the cherry on top

 

[Neucher]

you're stuck here forever

 

[SoundnVision]

What's ya issue fella

 

[noodlelover]

Get a hobby. Worked for me.

 

[kooper420]

I don’t have any life, I haven’t had one since I graduated high school, and it’s all because no one is accepting enough of me to want to be my friend or partner. Every weekend passes the same, every day, every night. What a fucking curse. Wish someone could just put me out of my misery like a sick dog.

make a new hobby like football as a simple as example then you'll eventually make friends which you can hang out with otherwise no one will ever come up to you and just be your friend you need to have a common interest

 

[notalive]

What's ya issue fella

It’s physical but not something I want to discuss right now. Remembering it only makes me feel worse. I’m going to drink my sorrows away tonight, alone, in my apartment

 

[notalive]

make a new hobby like football as a simple as example then you'll eventually make friends which you can hang out with otherwise no one will ever come up to you and just be your friend you need to have a common interest

Ok I will pick up doing drugs, hopefully someone can have that in common with me

 

[kooper420]

Ok I will pick up doing drugs, hopefully someone can have that in common with me

icl if you find someone who does lets just say weed on occasions you can just hangout and smoke with them aslong as it keeps you happy and your in control its fine

 

[SoundnVision]

It’s physical but not something I want to discuss right now. Remembering it only makes me feel worse. I’m going to drink my sorrows away tonight, alone, in my apartment

You have a job then

 

[Part-Time Chad]

Smart phones ruined every place on earth. The world has become a giant north America. The only difference is that they speak different languages.

 

[pprimus43]

The more research and treatments I get, the more I’m finding out that one of my failos is basically unfixable and a social death sentence. I can’t fit into normal society. I’m going to keep trying, but every attempt just leads me closer to roping.

Life isn’t worth living without a loving girlfriend

 

[notalive]

Life isn’t worth living without a loving girlfriend

I go to the store, restaurant, work, and I feel like I'm watching everyone from the outside.
Like I'm invisible or a creature of a different species. Especially physically but also mentally.

I think it's the sub-humanness that has ground me into the dirt over the years.

Years of negative reinforcement and lack of external validation teach you a lesson. That you're worthless and not good enough to be part of society. No one finds value in you. I could turn into prime Chico tomorrow and I wouldn't recover.

Me with an acquaintance: "Hey! How's it going?"
-- "blah blah blah"
"Awesome, you wanna hang out sometime?"
--- "sure!"
I text them later: "Hey do you wanna go play tennis? gym? food? vidya?"
--- "No I have this XYZ, sorry!" **goes and does other stuff with other friends**

Me with co-worker/stranger: **cheerfully trying his best to have a conversation that might lead to a friendship**
Other person: **not even making eye contact and constantly trying to get away**

Me on the COUPLE of first dates I ***catfished*** girls on dating apps with frauded photos:
Me: "Hope you got home safe!"
--- They text later that night: "I don't see anything going further with you. Good luck!"

Me everyday during any interaction with a girl: ***being my friendly, joking self***
Them: ***not even LOOKING at me***

I hate how I look, I hate how I feel. I'm not even worthy of anyone's time.

 

[geneticdiff]

I don’t have any life, I haven’t had one since I graduated high school, and it’s all because no one is accepting enough of me to want to be my friend or partner. Every weekend passes the same, every day, every night. What a fucking curse. Wish someone could just put me out of my misery like a sick dog.

find friends or a partner that don't care about your looks, if you care about looks as someone who's 26 and still prob mtn, ur cooked and need to find your inner light, only path to genuine fufillment

 

[notalive]

mtn

I know damn well what MTN is, and I'm nowhere near that.
My inner light is accepting my looks and living a life of isolation forever, because I will never be accepted by anyone.

 

[Mosh12]

Slay count?

 

[pprimus43]

I go to the store, restaurant, work, and I feel like I'm watching everyone from the outside.
Like I'm invisible or a creature of a different species. Especially physically but also mentally.

I think it's the sub-humanness that has ground me into the dirt over the years.

Years of negative reinforcement and lack of external validation teach you a lesson. That you're worthless and not good enough to be part of society. No one finds value in you. I could turn into prime Chico tomorrow and I wouldn't recover.

Me with an acquaintance: "Hey! How's it going?"
-- "blah blah blah"
"Awesome, you wanna hang out sometime?"
--- "sure!"
I text them later: "Hey do you wanna go play tennis? gym? food? vidya?"
--- "No I have this XYZ, sorry!" **goes and does other stuff with other friends**

Me with co-worker/stranger: **cheerfully trying his best to have a conversation that might lead to a friendship**
Other person: **not even making eye contact and constantly trying to get away**

Me on the COUPLE of first dates I ***catfished*** girls on dating apps with frauded photos:
Me: "Hope you got home safe!"
--- They text later that night: "I don't see anything going further with you. Good luck!"

Me everyday during any interaction with a girl: ***being my friendly, joking self***
Them: ***not even LOOKING at me***

I hate how I look, I hate how I feel. I'm not even worthy of anyone's time.

What are your stats

 

[notalive]

What are your stats

skin: acnescarcel burn victim, crater-face and body
skeletal deformities: maxillary and mandibular hypoplasia, significant asymmetry

 

[notalive]

Slay count?

0

 

[geneticdiff]

do you have a face reveal anywhere?

 

[pprimus43]

skin: acnescarcel burn victim, crater-face
skeletal deformities: maxillary and mandibular hypoplasia, significant asymmetry

I’m sorry bro. I’d say your only hope is to moneymaxx like crazy and SEA max

 

[Mosh12]

0

Why

 

[notalive]

do you have a face reveal anywhere?

If that became associated with my org account or leaked by anyone, I'd lose my very valuable job where they background check you and your socials and online presence, and I would have basically nothing left to live for

 

[notalive]

Why

Looks

skin: acnescarcel burn victim, crater-face
skeletal deformities: maxillary and mandibular hypoplasia, significant asymmetry

 

[notalive]

I’m sorry bro. I’d say your only hope is to moneymaxx like crazy and SEA max

I'd rather stay here in the USA and escortcel, but it's risky and illegal

 

[pprimus43]

I'd rather stay here in the USA and escortcel, but it's risky and illegal

Dm me

 

[rand anon]

And I’m fucking 26 to put the cherry on top

Right behind u at 25 boyo

 

[geneticdiff]

I go to the store, restaurant, work, and I feel like I'm watching everyone from the outside.
Like I'm invisible or a creature of a different species. Especially physically but also mentally.

I think it's the sub-humanness that has ground me into the dirt over the years.

Years of negative reinforcement and lack of external validation teach you a lesson. That you're worthless and not good enough to be part of society. No one finds value in you. I could turn into prime Chico tomorrow and I wouldn't recover.

Me with an acquaintance: "Hey! How's it going?"
-- "blah blah blah"
"Awesome, you wanna hang out sometime?"
--- "sure!"
I text them later: "Hey do you wanna go play tennis? gym? food? vidya?"
--- "No I have this XYZ, sorry!" **goes and does other stuff with other friends**

Me with co-worker/stranger: **cheerfully trying his best to have a conversation that might lead to a friendship**
Other person: **not even making eye contact and constantly trying to get away**

Me on the COUPLE of first dates I ***catfished*** girls on dating apps with frauded photos:
Me: "Hope you got home safe!"
--- They text later that night: "I don't see anything going further with you. Good luck!"

Me everyday during any interaction with a girl: ***being my friendly, joking self***
Them: ***not even LOOKING at me***

I hate how I look, I hate how I feel. I'm not even worthy of anyone's time.

Honestly brah, i lived a pretty similar life up until recently, i was shortest in my whole class, shorter than even the girls, (still 5'8 rn) one of the uggliest, had girls literally make vomit expressions when everyone would play truth or dare and someone would dare a girl to kiss me, as it was such a revolting task for them. As years went on, i ended up living almost entirely friendless except for the 4 friends in my discord friendgroup.

Sometimes bro, you gotta realize that you're not NT, you're fucking sitting on .org complaining, so what normal people at your work would want to engage with you? Don't try to force friendships and relationships with nt's, especially not anything on tinder, that shit is legitimately brainrot cancer hookup attention seekers. Find people with YOUR interests, YOUR brain capacity and YOUR values. anyone you'll EVER find on tinder is looking for a short term high and some attention.

What friendship would you ever want with a co-worker anyway? Is that something you want, because you actually share common interests with them and don't have to force a convo and vibe with them? Or is it something society has embedded into your brain, and you think the only way you'll get friends is by forcing a friendship.