I drew myself to rid myself of any confidence

[slavic.cel]

I am sub 6’, subhuman face, micropenis and mentally ill but somehow lately my brain still got the fucking arrogance to start thinking that I might be loveable. That someone could love me for who I am and accept both my interior and exterior. Not I realise how fucking stupid that sounds. I felt sick to my stomach the entire time drawing it and now feel suicidal but at least I will always be reminded of what I am from now on. An unlovable freak. As much as I crave it every minute, I wasn’t put on this earth to love, to be held and feel the lips of my lover on mine, to listen to reassuring words telling me I’m enough, for someone to look at me with eyes full of deep affection they will ever feel only towards me. I need to come to terms with this reality and move forward from there, whether it be trying to fix it with surgeries or just living life. I recommend the same for anyone else in my position.


Here are the drawings yes I just traced my face