i drink alcohol only so i can feel something

[got.daim]

i've been thinking a lot lately about alcohol lately, and how i've been abusing it, i've just been using it to escape reality, who hasn't had a night where they keep drinking and the next thing you know you're three sheets to the wind lmao, idk why i do it, maybe the thrill, i just want to feel something, this world feels so heavy on me, i love getting drunk, it makes everything seem funnier and less painful, but i get the worst hangovers, i get really bad headaches and throw up all the time, how do i stop the bad hangovers

 

[Bewusst]

I've been there. I used to drink excessively to escape reality and cope with stress. I quit because the hangovers would eventually get to a point where I genuinely believed I wouldn't live to see another year and had probably already caused some damage to my cardiovascular system. I would prioritize booze over food, barely eat at all yet still gain weight and be absolutely miserable when I was sober.

I do feel better now, but I don't think I'll ever be back to 100%. I get sore for days doing the most mundane activities like going for a walk or grocery shopping, as if I'm returning from an ironman triathlon. I may look 28 but feel 82 yo physically. Alcoholism can cause irreversible damage to your health. Stop while you can, but don't stop cold turkey if you're physically dependent and get professional help if necessary. There are more pleasant ways to die other than alcoholism. I gained nothing from it, except for a lesson.

 

[User28823]

total alcoholic death