I either don’t deserve love or it isn’t meant for me

[humblesorber]

I don’t believe in talking about my problems, but nobody here knows me and I feel like everyday I’m closer to roping. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but every relationship I’ve been in I’ve been mistreated or hurt or just love bombed and then dry treatment, everyone I’ve ever been with put their mental illnesses out on me and I don’t understand why or what I ever did to deserve this. I already have a hard time at school and home, I come back and have a harder time because I have to deal with being alone I mean I’d rather be alone but it’s still so exhausting and then when I get mad all I get called is a mad sensitive person by my family by everyone I know when in reality I’m just fed up from how they treat me I’m tired of giving everyone more than they deserve but I can’t seem to be loved any other way, I don’t think I’m ever finding someone who actually loves me for real everyone I know is fed up with me even if they don’t say it, everyone I’ve ever dated has thought of me as an unattractive individual or disliked me in someway or the other I just want someone to love me for once without me having to do much or prove myself or make the first move I don’t know why that’s hard but that’s all I ever wanted in my life to feel truly loved and wanted.

 

[Poisonpunk3]

Becoming a billionaire is like having precious, romantic love. Not everyone was meant to get to feel being held by a significant other. Everone was meant to go through something else. Some were meant to get arrested, some weren't meant to have a license, some were raped, some were killed by guns or knives, but just because some went through such, that doesn't mean everybody was meant, as I've said , get raped or be killed or die by a plane crash [extreme examples]. The same it is with romantic love. If you're attractive and tall, but you die alone, no relationship ever had, then you are a unicorn; the pathetic one in a thousand, you were built for inceldom. Compare this to 5'3 guy finding an honest wife, again, a "unicorn". This is what we call an exeption to the rule. If you genuinely can't find a partner, meaning you can't contribute to the human species, except to work for other high-standing individuals, then you are less than a passing thought. To answer your question, love was not reserved for you.

 

[humblesorber]

Becoming a billionaire is like having precious, romantic love. Not everyone was meant to get to feel being held by a significant other. Everone was meant to go through something else. Some were meant to get arrested, some weren't meant to have a license, some were raped, some were killed by guns or knives, but just because some went through such, that doesn't mean everybody was meant, as I've said , get raped or be killed or die by a plane crash [extreme examples]. The same it is with romantic love. If you're attractive and tall, but you die alone, no relationship ever had, then you are a unicorn; the pathetic one in a thousand, you were built for inceldom. Compare this to 5'3 guy finding an honest wife, again, a "unicorn". This is what we call an exeption to the rule. If you genuinely can't find a partner, meaning you can't contribute to the human species, except to work for other high-standing individuals, then you are less than a passing thought. To answer your question, love was not reserved for you.

I wish it wasn’t this waybut what can I do… I want it to happen but it doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen any sooner.