I feel completely detached from my physical body sometimes now. I may have opened Pandora's box.

[NuclearBrainReturns]

It's as if I'm operating some kind of robotic or flesh vehicle instead of my mind and soul being directly connected to my body as it used to be. I look at my hands and arms and I don't see MY arms or hands I see a flesh vehicle I am operating through commands of the soul.

It's like opening a box that has another box inside of it. Inside of that second box is some donuts (aka the real deal).

Last night I opened that box and the box within a box. Now I'm having a hard time putting it all back in. I feel much more connected to my physical body than I did last night though but ego death is seriously not to be fucked with. I hope I haven't perma fucked my brain.

But it is surprisingly quite easy to live like this. It isnt some horrific torturous experience, quite the opposite. I feel totally liberated. I no longer feel any sense of jealousy towards people or the idea others are having sex and I'm not or whatever it is. Jealousy over money or belongings too.

I very nearly packed my bags to live in a homeless shelter some hours ago but I stopped myself because I realised I would miss my parents. Such a life affirming moment as it seems my ego is coming back although at a very slow rate.

Only the essentials are still functioning, sorta like a nuclear powerplant switching off and only running emergency power until the lights come back on. Some kind of soul reset.

Bizarre experience. After last night I am completely convinced of God or a life beyond this physical realm. If you were to have seen what I saw last night you would also be utterly convinced. Really quite magical.

 

[Tallooksmaxxer]

is this some kind of self hating pre-transition rant?

 

[dreamcake1mo]

I remember you saying some matrix boy was stalking you, what happened? Coincidence?

I have had out of body lucid dreams regularly since a young pap, so im not sure if i have went though something like ego death, or is ego death something i already went through.

Ive always thought theres 2 types of people. One is a human, and another is a spirit within a human body. I lowkey have a website dedicated to all the information related to these subjects.