I feel disgust when people like me and distance myself from them.

[MoggerGaston]

Can't believe I am this mentally ill. It explains why I have 0 friends, girlfriend, social-circle, nothing.

I put so much fucking effort to get out of my comfort-zone and meet new people, try new hobbies, activities, socialize. It's difficult for me and takes a lot of energy.
Then whenever I do get succes where someone likes the real me, my humor, my personality, my intelligence, my hobbies, knowledge, style, music-taste etc.

I feel complete and utter disgust. I hate myself and think I am a disgusting subhuman piece of shit. So when someone likes me, I feel disgust.

I look down on people who like me because they like a subhuman worthless piece of shit. They must not be worth socializing with.

As a result, the moment I notice someone likes me, I avoid them and distance myself from them.


WHAT THE FUCK CAN I EVEN DO? THIS MENTAL ILLNESS IS INSANE. ILL BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

 

[BimaxLaser]

Maybe stop spending 8 hours a day on looksmax.org

 

[MoggerGaston]

Maybe stop spending 8 hours a day on looksmax.org

and do what instead?
I used to play videogames a lot in the past instead of being on here and there was no difference.

In 2020-2021 I used to work full-time and it didn't make a diff either.

 

[moreplatesmoreweigh]

No one likes you tho

 

[MoggerGaston]

Maybe stop spending 8 hours a day on looksmax.org

I used to be part of a student fraternity and social-dancing club, socializing there ~20 hours per week at least. didnt do shit either.

 

[MoggerGaston]

No one likes you tho

dumb retarded fuck. stop projecting ur subhuman life and personality on me.
I have people begging for my attention yet all it does it causes me to ghost them and avoid them at all cost.

I always complain about how I go raving solo and nobody wants to go to raves with me. Yet I have colleagues at work who keep asking me about parties/ravies I go to because they want to go with me, yet all I feel is discomfort and end up ghosting them.

 

[auitistsurvior]

Can't believe I am this mentally ill. It explains why I have 0 friends, girlfriend, social-circle, nothing.

I put so much fucking effort to get out of my comfort-zone and meet new people, try new hobbies, activities, socialize. It's difficult for me and takes a lot of energy.
Then whenever I do get succes where someone likes the real me, my humor, my personality, my intelligence, my hobbies, knowledge, style, music-taste etc.

I feel complete and utter disgust. I hate myself and think I am a disgusting subhuman piece of shit. So when someone likes me, I feel disgust.

I look down on people who like me because they like a subhuman worthless piece of shit. They must not be worth socializing with.

As a result, the moment I notice someone likes me, I avoid them and distance myself from them.


WHAT THE FUCK CAN I EVEN DO? THIS MENTAL ILLNESS IS INSANE. ILL BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

dnr but thats normal if you understanded they like you cs of your looks

 

[moreplatesmoreweigh]

dumb retarded fuck. stop projecting ur subhuman life and personality on me.
I have people begging for my attention yet all it does it causes me to ghost them and avoid them at all cost.

I always complain about how I go raving solo and nobody wants to go to raves with me. Yet I have colleagues at work who keep asking me about parties/ravies I go to because they want to go with me, yet all I feel is discomfort and end up ghosting them.

Ur idea of a fun day is snorting mephedrone alone while on .org jfl

 

[MoggerGaston]

Ur idea of a fun day is snorting mephedrone alone while on .org jfl

keep coping.

ur life cant compete whatsoever with me raving on 4 diff drugs in the best locations on the planet. u have no clue what life quality is.

 

[BimaxLaser]

and do what instead?
I used to play videogames a lot in the past instead of being on here and there was no difference.

In 2020-2021 I used to work full-time and it didn't make a diff either.

I used to be part of a student fraternity and social-dancing club, socializing there ~20 hours per week at least. didnt do shit either.

I spend my time similar to you but im actually ugly. Im gonna be the ugly version of you in 8 years

 

[moreplatesmoreweigh]

keep coping.

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ur life cant compete whatsoever with me raving on 4 diff drugs in the best locations on the planet. u have no clue what life quality is.

My bad gaston

 

[Daddy's Home]

I suppose you need parents/extended family who should have validated you as a child, or at least tried to validate you în general. Even if they didn't do it then, based solely on blood bond, they should be willing to do it now even that you're at this age, especially if they know what you're going through..

But that's probably never been an option and probably never will be, so you always have to constantly turn to the outside environment (therapist/support group/random people to form connections with and tell you how awesome you are) but the problem is that you're still a stranger and you're relatively isolated from them, like they don't give a shit about you at the end of the day..

You need people who are ''forcibly'' connected to you, like I said, extended family, grandparents, aunts, idk etc. because that's how things normally work, like you can distance yourself from them, but to a lesser extent perhaps than the average unknown person..

But as long as you don't have access to such human resources, which are supposed to be relatively guaranteed once you are born, it is natural to be dysfunctional and to turn away from strangers who give you positive feedback

You're like a toy that came out of the factory broken, and now it's outside the factory in the trash, constantly hoping that a child will find it and play with it

In everyday life, the toy inevitably sinks into the ground, slowly sinking until no one has access to it, which is what happens to all of us eventually, when we die and are buried. It's just a question of how much we want in the end to stay in the garbage and not end up in the ground..

 

[MoggerGaston]

I spend my time similar to you but im actually ugly. Im gonna be the ugly version of you in 8 years

being ugly or not doesn't matter when you are so severely mentally ill that you don't get to enjoy any benefits from your looks.

like, I have women coming up to me at raves/parties and telling me I look like jason momoa, henry cavill, ian sommerhalder, and asking me for making out or sex straight-up. Not often, but it happens, so I must be somewhat good-looking.

But only thing it does is make me feel incredibly awkward and dissasociate as a result. I end up not capitalizing on this attention whatsoever and going home feeling like a diseased subhuman worthless faggot.

being good-looking while feeling subhuman is pure torture because I realize I am privileged in many ways now yet my life quality is subhuman due to mental illnesses and theres nothing I can do about it.

 

[BimaxLaser]

being ugly or not doesn't matter when you are so severely mentally ill that you don't get to enjoy any benefits from your looks.

like, I have women coming up to me at raves/parties and telling me I look like jason momoa, henry cavill, ian sommerhalder, and asking me for making out or sex straight-up. Not often, but it happens, so I must be somewhat good-looking.

But only thing it does is make me feel incredibly awkward and dissasociate as a result. I end up not capitalizing on this attention whatsoever and going home feeling like a diseased subhuman worthless faggot.

being good-looking while feeling subhuman is pure torture because I realize I am privileged in many ways now yet my life quality is subhuman due to mental illnesses and theres nothing I can do about it.

We should swap bodies bro, you can look and feel subhuman, while I can ascend

 

[MoggerGaston]

My bad gaston

i have no fun in life dude, but it's not a result of being boring, shy, not trying out new things, having special interests,hobbies, etc.

people seem to like me and my lifestyle, i can often be the life of the party, it's just that I cant enjoy it whatsoever.

 

[MoggerGaston]

We should swap bodies bro, you can look and feel subhuman, while I can ascend

in many ways my potential is completely wasted on me, so i cant disagree.

ive had stacylites in love with me, yet I rot alone in my room instead of enjoying that attention. fuck this garbage shit life, nothing i can do.

 

[BimaxLaser]

in many ways my potential is completely wasted on me, so i cant disagree.

ive had stacylites in love with me, yet I rot alone in my room instead of enjoying that attention. fuck this garbage shit life, nothing i can do.

Not a psychologist but maybe dont do that nigga

Its brazy we could have been having this conversation in dutch, however im not sure if I want to do that

What makes you unable to love them back brah did you get traumatised as a child or what

 

[Tintin]

being ugly or not doesn't matter when you are so severely mentally ill that you don't get to enjoy any benefits from your looks.

like, I have women coming up to me at raves/parties and telling me I look like jason momoa, henry cavill, ian sommerhalder, and asking me for making out or sex straight-up. Not often, but it happens, so I must be somewhat good-looking.

But only thing it does is make me feel incredibly awkward and dissasociate as a result. I end up not capitalizing on this attention whatsoever and going home feeling like a diseased subhuman worthless faggot.

being good-looking while feeling subhuman is pure torture because I realize I am privileged in many ways now yet my life quality is subhuman due to mental illnesses and theres nothing I can do about it.

You stop calling yourself a ugly subhuman ? Well it's a good step.

You probably have a avoidant personality. You are trauma of being treated like shit younger and you avoid people because your brain is affraid of being dumped again so you avoid people to protect you.

You should unironicaly go to a therapist

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

as weird as that sounds I can relate,

all is says it that you subconsciously think low of yourself and by extension low of anyone who would think highly of you

while you respect people more who don't give af abt u

cuck mentality

 

[MoggerGaston]

Not a psychologist but maybe dont do that nigga

Its brazy we could have been having this conversation in dutch, however im not sure if I want to do that

What makes you unable to love them back brah did you get traumatised as a child or what

I was bullied by my peers and abused by my parents in my youth.

it has mentally destroyed me.

 

[MoggerGaston]

You stop calling yourself a ugly subhuman ? Well it's a good step.

You probably have a avoidant personality. You are trauma of being treated like shit younger and you avoid people because your brain is affraid of being dumped again so you avoid people to protect you.

You should unironicaly go to a therapist

im already doing ~10 hours of intensive therapy a week for months and it doesnt do fucking shit man.

therapy isn't a magical cure which fixes your life. I am FUCKED.

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

I always complain about how I go raving solo and nobody wants to go to raves with me. Yet I have colleagues at work who keep asking me about parties/ravies I go to because they want to go with me, yet all I feel is discomfort and end up ghosting them.

what's their looks level

if theyre LTN and below and / or non nt looking that could be why

 

[MoggerGaston]

as weird as that sounds I can relate,

all is says it that you subconsciously think low of yourself and by extension low of anyone who would think highly of you

while you respect people more who don't give af abt u

cuck mentality

nothing I can do about it

muh cuck mentality, what can I fucking do dude.

u think it was my decision to get abused in my youth and develop these mental diseases?

im fucked.

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

nothing I can do about it

muh cuck mentality, what can I fucking do dude.

no Im not judging you, im saying I can somewhat relate to an extent

 

[Tintin]

nothing I can do about it

muh cuck mentality, what can I fucking do dude.

u think it was my decision to get abused in my youth and develop these mental diseases?

im fucked.

At least you have looks tbh. Now you have the power to stopping your subhuman life and take confidence with good experiences.

Imagine still be in your situation but you're still a sub5 and never ascended

 

[FoidFumbler]

Have you tried a lobotomy?

 

[MoggerGaston]

what's their looks level

if theyre LTN and below and / or non nt looking that could be why

This girl I feel very comfortable with at work, colleague of mine. Always making jokes with her, teasing her, etc. She shares a lot about her personal life with me too and seems to like me.

She's been trying to go to raves/parties with me several times now, yet I simply feel discomfort. Like I think she would reject me, look down on me, I can't be myself, idk.
I know from other colleagues that she has even showed some romantic interest in me yet instead of seeing this as an opportunity, it just further makes me want to distance myself from her. Like I simply can't believe anyone could like me and that I am some sort of imposter, fake-person and she will find out 'who I really am' or some shit and then reject me brutally.

So in the end I keep side-lining her. Even though some rave-girl buddy is perhaps exactly what I need.

I can't stop it, I simply feel disgust whenever she tries to meet-up with me after work, etc.

 

[MoggerGaston]

At least you have looks tbh. Now you have the power to stopping your subhuman life and take confidence with good experiences.

Imagine still be in your situation but you're still a sub5 and never ascended

i dont have this power because I was abused as a child and have to suffer with mental-disease which only the bottom <5% of the population will ever suffer from.

 

[Regressive]

based fellow mentalcel

 

[Pikabro]

Do you feel that if someone is willing to spend time with you, they must be low value? Or they pity you, secretly look down on u

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

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This girl I feel very comfortable with at work, colleague of mine. Always making jokes with her, teasing her, etc. She shares a lot about her personal life with me too and seems to like me.

She's been trying to go to raves/parties with me several times now, yet I simply feel discomfort. Like I think she would reject me, look down on me, I can't be myself, idk.
I know from other colleagues that she has even showed some romantic interest in me yet instead of seeing this as an opportunity, it just further makes me want to distance myself from her. Like I simply can't believe anyone could like me and that I am some sort of imposter, fake-person and she will find out 'who I really am' or some shit and then reject me brutally.

So in the end I keep side-lining her. Even though some rave-girl buddy is perhaps exactly what I need.

I can't stop it, I simply feel disgust whenever she tries to meet-up with me after work, etc.

Seems LTB don’t blame u lmfao

But seriously, you seem to suffer from severe self esteem issues.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Do you feel that if someone is willing to spend time with you, they must be low value? Or they pity you, secretly look down on u

yes, anyone who likes me must be low-value and I feel disgust and distance myself from them.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Seems LTB don’t blame u lmfao

insane standards you have. ur mentally ill urself.

But seriously, you seem to suffer from severe self esteem issues.

i know and nothing I can do about.

'just fix ur self-esteem bro, just think more positively'

like just fucking lol man.

 

[Pikabro]

yes, anyone who likes me must be low-value and I feel disgust and distance myself from them.

It’s true to an extent tho.

 

[MoggerGaston]

It’s true to an extent tho.

not really.

I look down on myself and dont consider myself good enough. But objectively, realistically speaking, I am better than the average person my age in most ways.

I tend to be more social, extroverted, risk-taking, have more interesting hobbies, am smarter, more athletic, financially succesful, etc.

If I am not good-enough to be loved/liked, then the average person shouldn't be either. Yet this is not the case as average people tend to feel welcome, loved, liked, etc.

 

[omnilegent]

We will get over this buddy, keep hustling!

 

[autistic_tendencies]

Avoidant schizoid maybe
Common incel trait