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inb4 cope. I mean, i make a lot of troll posts but this one hits close. Im 16 born in 06. Won't say more and amnesia is like 32 i think. Even though we have a big age difference i was lurking through old posts and saw posts where he said he sat alone and non nt. I dont really agree with amnesias ideas like nazism, facism etc. But idk man im just wondering rn if there are many loners here
 
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Is he actually a nazi JFL? I thought he was just a racist
 
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Is he actually a nazi JFL? I thought he was just a racist
hes a neo nazi. I dont associate myself with nazism or facism but hes a nazi.
 
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Is he actually a nazi JFL? I thought he was just a racist
i only posted this, because apparently hes giga non nt. Im legit the same. I sit in the library all day thinking that nt would change things, but its just looks tbh
 
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so you probably think the earth is flat and the moon landing was filmed in a studio like him
 
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ask me anything op
 
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I agree with you; I'm not going to go into details, but I don't really use LooksMax forums anymore; when I do check in once every few months, I like to read through Amnesia's (and his only) created threads. He connects with me on a deep level; I see his insights, humor, and feelings as almost my own; I know how it all feels, and knowing that I'm not alone in this type of psychological build has been very fulfilling. I sincerely thank you, @Amnesia. I wish you nothing but joy in your life.
 
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Stop sucking his cock it's already frequent enough for him, fuck him I can't cope with his presence.
 
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ask me anything op
hi amnesia, im wondering if you were actually non nt in ur school days or and if so are you now? Also, are you slaying brunette stacies with your tip tier looks? Also how's it going in ur life.
 
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hi amnesia, im wondering if you were actually non nt in ur school days or and if so are you now? Also, are you slaying brunette stacies with your tip tier looks? Also how's it going in ur life.
amnesia you may be racist, but i still relate to you
 
hi amnesia, im wondering if you were actually non nt in ur school days or and if so are you now? Also, are you slaying brunette stacies with your tip tier looks? Also how's it going in ur life.
i remember very vividly at 10 years old that is when I knew I was different than most kids. I did have friends at that time, a group of 4 other boys but it was at a sleepover with all of them when I was the last one awake and was like reflecting on the sleepover that I just knew I wasnt the same as them. I didnt process info the same way, didnt really have the exact same interests as they did. Was still able to get along fine with them

However in Middle School the schism became more apparent. Kinda got a new group of friends and I remember it was typical for boys to stand in a circle on the playground and talk. Maybe 8 boys to a circle or whatever and I was paralyzed to ever contribute anything to the discussion. It always seemed like the boys had some knowledge of pop culture and what was cool inherently that I didnt, and I never knew where they got this info from. When i did chime in 9/10 times I wasnt even acknowledged and another did just changed the topic or smthing. I felt invisible.

I had one best friend in Middle School and he had a group of friends that I was a part of by defacto from just being friends with him. But I was always able to relate to that best friend, me and him were on teh same level in thinking, it was a great time because it felt like I could be myself in many ways around him.

High school was hell though because a totally new group of guys I never met, making friends was hellish. I didnt share a lot of the same interests as the other guys. Many could rattle off stats of sports players and were obsessed with pro sports and I couldnt give less of a shit about it. Plus that one best friend I had got a gf and kinda ditched me when at school to hang with her which left me to drift from group to group of guys thinking I could actually be a part of these circles when in reality I would sit on the outside of the circle and kinda just listen to them talk not knowing what else to do. Never talking just sitting in silence. To the point I just started to sit in the library alone during lunch and wait out days until Hs was over.


I never felt like the whole go to a party get dumb drunk and be able to have fun in a social setting was something I wsas capable of doing. I tend to overthink in all situations and dancing is something my body cannot do.... flowing with the music, wow wtf does that mean



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u might like this thrread

 
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i remember very vividly at 10 years old that is when I knew I was different than most kids. I did have friends at that time, a group of 4 other boys but it was at a sleepover with all of them when I was the last one awake and was like reflecting on the sleepover that I just knew I wasnt the same as them. I didnt process info the same way, didnt really have the exact same interests as they did. Was still able to get along fine with them

However in Middle School the schism became more apparent. Kinda got a new group of friends and I remember it was typical for boys to stand in a circle on the playground and talk. Maybe 8 boys to a circle or whatever and I was paralyzed to ever contribute anything to the discussion. It always seemed like the boys had some knowledge of pop culture and what was cool inherently that I didnt, and I never knew where they got this info from. When i did chime in 9/10 times I wasnt even acknowledged and another did just changed the topic or smthing. I felt invisible.

I had one best friend in Middle School and he had a group of friends that I was a part of by defacto from just being friends with him. But I was always able to relate to that best friend, me and him were on teh same level in thinking, it was a great time because it felt like I could be myself in many ways around him.

High school was hell though because a totally new group of guys I never met, making friends was hellish. I didnt share a lot of the same interests as the other guys. Many could rattle off stats of sports players and were obsessed with pro sports and I couldnt give less of a shit about it. Plus that one best friend I had got a gf and kinda ditched me when at school to hang with her which left me to drift from group to group of guys thinking I could actually be a part of these circles when in reality I would sit on the outside of the circle and kinda just listen to them talk not knowing what else to do. Never talking just sitting in silence. To the point I just started to sit in the library alone during lunch and wait out days until Hs was over.


I never felt like the whole go to a party get dumb drunk and be able to have fun in a social setting was something I wsas capable of doing. I tend to overthink in all situations and dancing is something my body cannot do.... flowing with the music, wow wtf does that mean



@dachad



u might like this thrread

This is the most relatable thing I've ever read. We had the exact same childhood and I still don't understand how to dance.
 
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i remember very vividly at 10 years old that is when I knew I was different than most kids. I did have friends at that time, a group of 4 other boys but it was at a sleepover with all of them when I was the last one awake and was like reflecting on the sleepover that I just knew I wasnt the same as them. I didnt process info the same way, didnt really have the exact same interests as they did. Was still able to get along fine with them

However in Middle School the schism became more apparent. Kinda got a new group of friends and I remember it was typical for boys to stand in a circle on the playground and talk. Maybe 8 boys to a circle or whatever and I was paralyzed to ever contribute anything to the discussion. It always seemed like the boys had some knowledge of pop culture and what was cool inherently that I didnt, and I never knew where they got this info from. When i did chime in 9/10 times I wasnt even acknowledged and another did just changed the topic or smthing. I felt invisible.

I had one best friend in Middle School and he had a group of friends that I was a part of by defacto from just being friends with him. But I was always able to relate to that best friend, me and him were on teh same level in thinking, it was a great time because it felt like I could be myself in many ways around him.

High school was hell though because a totally new group of guys I never met, making friends was hellish. I didnt share a lot of the same interests as the other guys. Many could rattle off stats of sports players and were obsessed with pro sports and I couldnt give less of a shit about it. Plus that one best friend I had got a gf and kinda ditched me when at school to hang with her which left me to drift from group to group of guys thinking I could actually be a part of these circles when in reality I would sit on the outside of the circle and kinda just listen to them talk not knowing what else to do. Never talking just sitting in silence. To the point I just started to sit in the library alone during lunch and wait out days until Hs was over.


I never felt like the whole go to a party get dumb drunk and be able to have fun in a social setting was something I wsas capable of doing. I tend to overthink in all situations and dancing is something my body cannot do.... flowing with the music, wow wtf does that mean



@dachad



u might like this thrread

The condition of the non-NT man is all about being a chameleon, of being able to mask yourself effectively to others while not coming off as uncanny while doing so.

Obviously, that's not how we were predisposed; nature's assignment will always come back to haunt and reshape our condition. When knowledge/intelligence grows and life experiences build on, you start to realize the inevitability --- the brutality --- of this condition, this inscription that cannot be scraped off. After a certain point --- like you (and most people, tbh) in high school --- there's a breaking point.

The question is really how to deal/cope after passing stage. For many, it's finding an actually genuine clique of shared interests and conditions --- i.e., forums like .org that are accepting of non-NTs. The question is, is there any turning back? You definitely have slayed as a result of your looksmaxxing journey, but the brain is still adamant in staying in the gelatinous fluids of encapsulated divergence.
 
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Stop sucking his cock it's already frequent enough for him, fuck him I can't cope with his presence.
No need to mystify him tbh, at the end of the day he's a member of this forum like the rest of us, same end goal(s).
 
i remember very vividly at 10 years old that is when I knew I was different than most kids. I did have friends at that time, a group of 4 other boys but it was at a sleepover with all of them when I was the last one awake and was like reflecting on the sleepover that I just knew I wasnt the same as them. I didnt process info the same way, didnt really have the exact same interests as they did. Was still able to get along fine with them

However in Middle School the schism became more apparent. Kinda got a new group of friends and I remember it was typical for boys to stand in a circle on the playground and talk. Maybe 8 boys to a circle or whatever and I was paralyzed to ever contribute anything to the discussion. It always seemed like the boys had some knowledge of pop culture and what was cool inherently that I didnt, and I never knew where they got this info from. When i did chime in 9/10 times I wasnt even acknowledged and another did just changed the topic or smthing. I felt invisible.

I had one best friend in Middle School and he had a group of friends that I was a part of by defacto from just being friends with him. But I was always able to relate to that best friend, me and him were on teh same level in thinking, it was a great time because it felt like I could be myself in many ways around him.

High school was hell though because a totally new group of guys I never met, making friends was hellish. I didnt share a lot of the same interests as the other guys. Many could rattle off stats of sports players and were obsessed with pro sports and I couldnt give less of a shit about it. Plus that one best friend I had got a gf and kinda ditched me when at school to hang with her which left me to drift from group to group of guys thinking I could actually be a part of these circles when in reality I would sit on the outside of the circle and kinda just listen to them talk not knowing what else to do. Never talking just sitting in silence. To the point I just started to sit in the library alone during lunch and wait out days until Hs was over.


I never felt like the whole go to a party get dumb drunk and be able to have fun in a social setting was something I wsas capable of doing. I tend to overthink in all situations and dancing is something my body cannot do.... flowing with the music, wow wtf does that mean



@dachad



u might like this thrread

thx man
 
The condition of the non-NT man is all about being a chameleon, of being able to mask yourself effectively to others while not coming off as uncanny while doing so.

Obviously, that's not how we were predisposed; nature's assignment will always come back to haunt and reshape our condition. When knowledge/intelligence grows and life experiences build on, you start to realize the inevitability --- the brutality --- of this condition, this inscription that cannot be scraped off. After a certain point --- like you (and most people, tbh) in high school --- there's a breaking point.

The question is really how to deal/cope after passing stage. For many, it's finding an actually genuine clique of shared interests and conditions --- i.e., forums like .org that are accepting of non-NTs. The question is, is there any turning back? You definitely have slayed as a result of your looksmaxxing journey, but the brain is still adamant in staying in the gelatinous fluids of encapsulated divergence.
i think people become non-nt because of circumstances. I like being non-nt and realised that im not angry abt not having friends. I'm sad because i cant get women. Amnesia gets women which is why he isnt depressed
 
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just started to sit in the library alone during lunch and wait out days until Hs was over.
This hits so hard. It literally is me rn.
 
i think people become non-nt because of circumstances. I like being non-nt and realised that im not angry abt not having friends. I sad because i cant get women. Amnesia gets women which is why he isnt depressed
Yeah true. But there's a chance that because you can't get women, you hate yourself for it (believing "I'm subhuman" unironically) --> you hate the women that reject/ignore you --> you hate people in general. This was the character development of ER.
 
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Yeah true. But there's a chance that because you can't get women, you hate yourself for it (believing "I'm subhuman" unironically) --> you hate the women that reject/ignore you --> you hate people in general. This was the character development of ER.
Yeah that's there. But i never hated women, i do make troll posts such saying things like "all women are sluts" but it's mostly for attention on an incel forum, this is the only place on the internet other than twitter where i can just say outlandish shit and people can agree. It isn't really women's fault they dont like me, right now im simply not GL enough and im working on it, ik things will change but librarymaxxing is my only option.
 
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i think people become non-nt because of circumstances. I like being non-nt and realised that im not angry abt not having friends. I'm sad because i cant get women. Amnesia gets women which is why he isnt depressed
i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
 
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i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
I agree with you, but maybe that's because you mog everyone here and can get any girl you want. I was sitting in the library yesterday imagining myself getting revenge on the girl who rejected me if i looked like you. Then again, even if i did ascend i'd probably go back to being depressed after a week
 
i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
to add on to that, y ou have endless validation here and I'd assume irl. You can slay till your 40 I'd assume
 
i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
Also, did you get jaw implants? Cause you look way better from ur base
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i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
also why didnt u take ur mask off and mog the 6'2 lanklet at the pizza place jfl
 
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The Mexican nazi
 
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How do you tan bro? MT2 sprays or tanning beds at any tanning salons? Or how much?
Do you take any supplements for it?
Your tan is so fire
 
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I'm way too extroverted and psycho to relate, except in that I have also come to accept that I'm non NT. I'm so glad I'm musical and rhythmic lmao. I'm still self conscious about dancing though so it's time to practice and learn

Ok I'll let you guys be
 
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I am fellow librarycel, I rotted in the library attic during lunches and napped until class started
 
i actually disagree, I think I was not NT from birth, there was no event in my life that made me become that way. It's just how you are wired from birth

and I absolutely am depressed, but that comes from realizing that life is just suffering. I have always thought once I achieved X in my earlier life THEN I wouldnt be depressed anymore

But then I got money I got tons of women and looks and realize it still doesnt do shit.
If i remember correctly, you took accutane right? Are you really sure that it was not accutane that made you feel like this?

My mental health got permanently fucked after accutane which was well over a year ago
 
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