camster77
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Every year since 2020 it feels like things have been getting more and more fucked up. The new year coming around now is just another reminder of my doom to me. I am 17 right now and I have become a complete mentalcel. I may seem normal, maybe somewhat withdrawn on the outside but it feels like I am completely mentally ill. I cannot enjoy anything anymore all I can think about every moment of the day is that I am just becoming older, time is passing me by and I am not living my life how I am supposed to.
I cannot connect to people I was never able to. I may be "nice" but when it comes to actually being a meaningful friend I'm too much of an absent minded sperg. I have one friend who somehow sees something in me, but I know that I can't be saved. I have no escape but to keep on living a hollow meaningless life. This is also 100% the reason I can't have a girlfriend. I have been able to attract girls in the past, go on dates and make out with them but it never works out because I'm so fucked in the head. Being with an NT girl is completely out of reach for me and I have to accept that.
I hate the fucking west I hate every single thing about it from the bottom of my soul. I hate how soulless our society has become, I hate my stupid wagecuck apprenticeship, working with computer all the time like some fucking geek, i can barley even concentrate on my pointless work anymore I can only think about how this world is slowly detiorarating my mind. We are so disconnected from nature which is problably why I turned out l like this. For those it aren't so lucky the industrialized world completely scrambles your brain chemistry. Lacking nutrition is also why there are so many subhumans today. I'm lucky that I'm not deformed but I do suffer from acne and a not ideal midface because of our shit stressful enivorment in the west.
I could keep on ranting for pages jfl but this just feels pointless
I cannot connect to people I was never able to. I may be "nice" but when it comes to actually being a meaningful friend I'm too much of an absent minded sperg. I have one friend who somehow sees something in me, but I know that I can't be saved. I have no escape but to keep on living a hollow meaningless life. This is also 100% the reason I can't have a girlfriend. I have been able to attract girls in the past, go on dates and make out with them but it never works out because I'm so fucked in the head. Being with an NT girl is completely out of reach for me and I have to accept that.
I hate the fucking west I hate every single thing about it from the bottom of my soul. I hate how soulless our society has become, I hate my stupid wagecuck apprenticeship, working with computer all the time like some fucking geek, i can barley even concentrate on my pointless work anymore I can only think about how this world is slowly detiorarating my mind. We are so disconnected from nature which is problably why I turned out l like this. For those it aren't so lucky the industrialized world completely scrambles your brain chemistry. Lacking nutrition is also why there are so many subhumans today. I'm lucky that I'm not deformed but I do suffer from acne and a not ideal midface because of our shit stressful enivorment in the west.
I could keep on ranting for pages jfl but this just feels pointless
