I feel like I’m procrastinating life itself, my best years at that

[luuk]

I fantasise in my head so much but live an awfully mundane life, I waste so much time rotting and doing fuck all even though I have so many productive things I can do and near limitless potential

I need freedom and space and resources. But I set the bar so much higher than I actually need because of inhibition

For example I’d love to post on social media, I feel like I have the algo knowledge and the content and the ideas to actually blow up. But the idea of people I know or worse, family, seeing it would mortify me and its at the point where I almost never even post instagram stories let alone create content in any niches I like. I’m so inhibited that I feel afraid to be authentic even when nobody is watching because I’m paranoid as fuck. Like writing in a diary, I’ll start and then I’ll either just end up lying or scribbling it all out and throwing it away

I want to hop on roids too (for gains and mental sides idgaf about bone growth cope anymore) and I have spent so much time researching pharmacology, but I live with my parents half the year and rely on them for resources and my life would be ruined if they found out. But worse still I wouldn’t want to have to see my mother crying at whatever her son had gotten himself into, especially considering how much normies demonise roids. My own familial ties restrict me from exercising my will.

The first step I guess is to get a job and moneymaxx like crazy all summer so I’m less reliant on others.

The I need to lower my inhib drastically. Maybe I should get therapy or smth I know its a bit zogged but I have a lot of real issues that cause all this. Sometimes I get very defeatist about it all because I feel like my brain chemistry isn’t gonna change that drastically at 20. Maybe I should take a heroic dose of ayahuasca and hope that the aztec spirit rewires my brain in a favourable way jfl

I fear that by the time I have my own place year round, enough money to actually do what I want & freedom from my own mental chains, I’ll be too old to enjoy it and will have wasted my prime

What to do, brocels? Anyone relate?

 

[luuk]

up

 

[luuk]

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[Sycophant]

- I feel like social media is a bar set to be achieved by only preselected individuals, and everyone else is meant to waste time on it - nothing wrong for small gym stuff to rep farm on insta
- wouldn't personally hit the extreme of roids, before fixing my life elsewhere, idk where you're at though
- therapy just provides momentary copes that could otherwise be developed with critical thinking, provided the most drastic upset in your life is just a lapse in motivation

- if you've actually got problems, focus on the positives Bhai

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @vesalius

 

[KD6Imp33]

Your brain still developes till 25.
You're still a young retard. - Master Yoda
Learning about life never stops.
You make mistakes, eventually learn about it, or not.
Steroids i have no clue about, only that it's bad and will make you age even faster. So with 25 you will look like 40.

 

[luuk]

- I feel like social media is a bar set to be achieved by only preselected individuals, and everyone else is meant to waste time on it - nothing wrong for small gym stuff to rep farm on insta

Idk I feel like it would be fun and I would absolutely be able to nail a small niche following
No point in fantasising about things of that level for now though I can barely be myself when nobody is watching

- wouldn't personally hit the extreme of roids, before fixing my life elsewhere, idk where you're at

I feel like my hormones are a bit chaotic and fucked I’m actually getting some bloodwork soon just to see, if I’m on the lower end it will definitely push me towards roiding

I see pics of natty physiques way better than mine and think that even that wouldn’t satisfy me, I just want to be huge and terrifying and to just mog tbh
Like @lucasegolifts transformation is pure roidfuel

- therapy just provides momentary copes that could otherwise be developed with critical thinking, provided the most drastic upset in your life is just a lapse in motivation

Oh its far more than a lapse in motivation
I grew up basically subhuman and ND bro (had decent genes but late ass puberty & was fat as fuck until late teens so no teen love for me), only recently ascended to like MTN and hit a growth spurt

I was KHHV until almost 19, missed out on most other formative experiences too and been playing catchup for the last 2 years

Was the floater friend of an already subhuman tier friend group most of my childhood too and had estranged, surface level relationships with my family, my parents and literal twin barely know me
Abandonment/attachment issues, hell I think I have fucking bpd and I’m a man

Idk if therapy will do jack shit but what else do I have but drugs?

- if you've actually got problems, focus on the positives Bhai

I try, its just tiring

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @vesalius

 

[zenserenity]

But the idea of people I know or worse, family, seeing it would mortify me and its at the point where I almost never even post instagram stories let alone create content in any niches I like.

Post that "cringe" video.

Post whatever is on your mind.

Embarrassment is temporary, regret is forever.

 

[luuk]

Your brain still developes till 25.
You're still a young retard. - Master Yoda
Learning about life never stops.
You make mistakes, eventually learn about it, or not.
Steroids i have no clue about, only that it's bad and will make you age even faster. So with 25 you will look like 40.

I have no intention of sticking around longer than like 50 and I’m cutecel-lite tbh I could do with the dimo

 

[luuk]

Post that "cringe" video.

Post whatever is on your mind.

Embarrassment is temporary, regret is forever.

I wish
These mental walls may as well be physical
I overcome these things slowly, I was once worse, but its not something I can just jump into

 

[Giornoblaze]

Idk I feel like it would be fun and I would absolutely be able to nail a small niche following
No point in fantasising about things of that level for now though I can barely be myself when nobody is watching

I feel like my hormones are a bit chaotic and fucked I’m actually getting some bloodwork soon just to see, if I’m on the lower end it will definitely push me towards roiding

I see pics of natty physiques way better than mine and think that even that wouldn’t satisfy me, I just want to be huge and terrifying and to just mog tbh
Like @lucasegolifts transformation is pure roidfuel

Oh its far more than a lapse in motivation
I grew up basically subhuman and ND bro (had decent genes but late ass puberty & was fat as fuck until late teens so no teen love for me), only recently ascended to like MTN and hit a growth spurt

I was KHHV until almost 19, missed out on most other formative experiences too and been playing catchup for the last 2 years

Was the floater friend of an already subhuman tier friend group most of my childhood too and had estranged, surface level relationships with my family, my parents and literal twin barely know me
Abandonment/attachment issues, hell I think I have fucking bpd and I’m a man

Idk if therapy will do jack shit but what else do I have but drugs?

I try, its just tiring

BTW u mentioned in a thread previously that u got straight 9s and A*.
How come Oxford rejected u? Or were u larping those grades, bc ive seen ppl get in with 8s and As or Bs into Oxford or Cambridge

 

[luuk]

BTW u mentioned in a thread previously that u got straight 9s and A*.
How come Oxford rejected u? Or were u larping those grades, bc ive seen ppl get in with 8s and As or Bs into Oxford or Cambridge

Cambridge not oxford
It was the admissions test (ENGAA), barely studied and bombed it

 

[luuk]

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[Sycophant]

Idk I feel like it would be fun and I would absolutely be able to nail a small niche following
No point in fantasising about things of that level for now though I can barely be myself when nobody is watching

- Im all for positive reinforcement, but thats the more intelligent stance on that situation. My philosophy is - why put myself out there, while both my image of myself isnt complete, im not entirely happy of the metric of which i judge myself, and ill knowingly experience ridicule anyways. You're literally just putting youself out there hoping to be received well, when that never occurs.

Post that "cringe" video.

Post whatever is on your mind.

Embarrassment is temporary, regret is forever.

- For luuk, i think this ideology is made by people who are "innately selfish, as we constantly try to prove to those more innocent that we are selfless, and to those who aren't as innocent - that there exists selflessness in the world." - this is something i have saved, and is strongly believe in. Dont do something that will tarnish your reputation.

I can barely be myself when nobody is watching

- stems from lack of agency. i've said this frequently here, but why reinvent the answer? you need something that you intrinsically enjoy, you can do without needing to receive validation for. who you are as a person is a culmination of axiomatic primitive likes and dislikes - developed throughout your life. e.g. you really liked building legos as a kid, and as a result you like constructing things - like seeing your imagination realized in real-life through some media of creation (coding, art, architecture... whatever). The overarching point - think of one thing you truly enjoy - never question it - and allow yourself to fully be engrossed in it. you need something to propel you forward.

- identity is a separate matter, and one im not entirely comfortable to answer. Youve said yourself previously its self perceived expected outcomes in of one my fav bookmarked thread vvv - and this can easily be changed (pls discuss this more with me, i have more thoughts on it)

Spoiler: goated thread

https://looksmax.org/threads/an-evi...used-dogs-mentalcels-inhibcels-gtfih.1876595/

I feel like my hormones are a bit chaotic and fucked I’m actually getting some bloodwork soon just to see, if I’m on the lower end it will definitely push me towards roiding

I see pics of natty physiques way better than mine and think that even that wouldn’t satisfy me, I just want to be huge and terrifying and to just mog tbh
Like @lucasegolifts transformation is pure roidfuel

- roids are fine, but the long term implications of a constant life-subscription to trt when im already poor i cannot agree with. imagine you have enough money, there's essentially no issue after education with roids.

- but for now, figure out if your even at homeostasis, or if you have some underlining issue that needs addressing.

- also depends on your purpose in LM, if you want to feel better, or slay - muscle answers the questions differently and there are different more effective avenues that address them more optimally (specifically if u just want to slay)

Oh its far more than a lapse in motivation
I grew up basically subhuman and ND bro (had decent genes but late ass puberty & was fat as fuck until late teens so no teen love for me), only recently ascended to like MTN and hit a growth spurt

I was KHHV until almost 19, missed out on most other formative experiences too and been playing catchup for the last 2 years

- my life story aswell

- i was KHHV until the same age, and have been fixing myself since. I've had relationships in school, but was so needy, clingy and retarded that all fell through (this behavior stemmed from a catalyst at home, that ive since distanced myself from - but obviously the solution for this is distancing yourself from all behavior similar). im no longer an incel, but trying to be someone who is more nuanced on others desires has been a challenge, especially when it comes to maintaining an uncaring facade to women when needed

- i think now that i dont have anything attaching myself to my previous retard identity i can properly develop into the thing i want to become. I understand my own idiosyncrasies, and by accounting for them they almost dont limit me anymore. I hated high-school, i hated everything about it, how it skewed my understanding of how life functions.

Was the floater friend of an already subhuman tier friend group most of my childhood too and had estranged, surface level relationships with my family, my parents and literal twin barely know me
Abandonment/attachment issues, hell I think I have fucking bpd and I’m a man

Idk if therapy will do jack shit but what else do I have but drugs?

- again my life story

- and again, i think using these generalized containers of behavior (saying youre bpd) limit you to expecting something to happen that isnt guaranteed. The most important thing i need in my own mental posture is my ability to control how i function. The moment something impedes in my own freedom, thats when i deform into something that doesnt meet my expectations for myself.

- i believed for the longest time that family was bound by blood, but i think family is what you make it - more specifically the people you allow to see when youre not at your most functional capasity. If youre tired, or need assistance recoviering from an addiction, these are the people you allow to see you when youre not presentable to the entirety of the public domain.

- if family hasnt made an effort, dont make one. Anacdotally, you're not going to enlist any effort on their behalf - unless they've shown theyre willing to provide some in the first place so dont bother.

- dissociate yourself from loser friend groups, imagine/manifest yourself with people you want to be associated with. People who just understand social context - and youll immediately start seeing yourself filling the shoes youve manifested. you have no need to associate with loser retards that just have a negative feedback loop of possitive affermation for terrible character atributes that constantly detract from society. They souldnt promote stupid shit like anime is a positive thing to be watching in ur past time, normalsie gooning (or any other hyperbolic examples of retarded behaviour)

- drugs are a temperary solution to a permanent problem you have withing your own mental. just address your mental first before you take something exogenous you have to subscribe to, to feel the same semblance of normal you could have otherwise just fixed

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @PSLbbc @stigmaboy

 

[GoyLite]

- Im all for positive reinforcement, but thats the more intelligent stance on that situation. My philosophy is - why put myself out there, while both my image of myself isnt complete, im not entirely happy of the metric of which i judge myself, and ill knowingly experience ridicule anyways. You're literally just putting youself out there hoping to be received well, when that never occurs.

- For luuk, i think this ideology is made by people who are "innately selfish, as we constantly try to prove to those more innocent that we are selfless, and to those who aren't as innocent - that there exists selflessness in the world." - this is something i have saved, and is strongly believe in. Dont do something that will tarnish your reputation.

- stems from lack of agency. i've said this frequently here, but why reinvent the answer? you need something that you intrinsically enjoy, you can do without needing to receive validation for. who you are as a person is a culmination of axiomatic primitive likes and dislikes - developed throughout your life. e.g. you really liked building legos as a kid, and as a result you like constructing things - like seeing your imagination realized in real-life through some media of creation (coding, art, architecture... whatever). The overarching point - think of one thing you truly enjoy - never question it - and allow yourself to fully be engrossed in it. you need something to propel you forward.

- identity is a separate matter, and one im not entirely comfortable to answer. Youve said yourself previously its self perceived expected outcomes in of one my fav bookmarked thread vvv - and this can easily be changed (pls discuss this more with me, i have more thoughts on it)

Spoiler: goated thread

https://looksmax.org/threads/an-evi...used-dogs-mentalcels-inhibcels-gtfih.1876595/

- roids are fine, but the long term implications of a constant life-subscription to trt when im already poor i cannot agree with. imagine you have enough money, there's essentially no issue after education with roids.

- but for now, figure out if your even at homeostasis, or if you have some underlining issue that needs addressing.

- also depends on your purpose in LM, if you want to feel better, or slay - muscle answers the questions differently and there are different more effective avenues that address them more optimally (specifically if u just want to slay)


- my life story aswell

- i was KHHV until the same age, and have been fixing myself since. I've had relationships in school, but was so needy, clingy and retarded that all fell through (this behavior stemmed from a catalyst at home, that ive since distanced myself from - but obviously the solution for this is distancing yourself from all behavior similar). im no longer an incel, but trying to be someone who is more nuanced on others desires has been a challenge, especially when it comes to maintaining an uncaring facade to women when needed

- i think now that i dont have anything attaching myself to my previous retard identity i can properly develop into the thing i want to become. I understand my own idiosyncrasies, and by accounting for them they almost dont limit me anymore. I hated high-school, i hated everything about it, how it skewed my understanding of how life functions.


- again my life story

- and again, i think using these generalized containers of behavior (saying youre bpd) limit you to expecting something to happen that isnt guaranteed. The most important thing i need in my own mental posture is my ability to control how i function. The moment something impedes in my own freedom, thats when i deform into something that doesnt meet my expectations for myself.

- i believed for the longest time that family was bound by blood, but i think family is what you make it - more specifically the people you allow to see when youre not at your most functional capasity. If youre tired, or need assistance recoviering from an addiction, these are the people you allow to see you when youre not presentable to the entirety of the public domain.

- if family hasnt made an effort, dont make one. Anacdotally, you're not going to enlist any effort on their behalf - unless they've shown theyre willing to provide some in the first place so dont bother.

- dissociate yourself from loser friend groups, imagine/manifest yourself with people you want to be associated with. People who just understand social context - and youll immediately start seeing yourself filling the shoes youve manifested. you have no need to associate with loser retards that just have a negative feedback loop of possitive affermation for terrible character atributes that constantly detract from society. They souldnt promote stupid shit like anime is a positive thing to be watching in ur past time, normalsie gooning (or any other hyperbolic examples of retarded behaviour)

- drugs are a temperary solution to a permanent problem you have withing your own mental. just address your mental first before you take something exogenous you have to subscribe to, to feel the same semblance of normal you could have otherwise just fixed

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @PSLbbc @stigmaboy

holy high effort, mirin but not readin

edit: did read

 

[PSLbbc]

- Im all for positive reinforcement, but thats the more intelligent stance on that situation. My philosophy is - why put myself out there, while both my image of myself isnt complete, im not entirely happy of the metric of which i judge myself, and ill knowingly experience ridicule anyways. You're literally just putting youself out there hoping to be received well, when that never occurs.

- For luuk, i think this ideology is made by people who are "innately selfish, as we constantly try to prove to those more innocent that we are selfless, and to those who aren't as innocent - that there exists selflessness in the world." - this is something i have saved, and is strongly believe in. Dont do something that will tarnish your reputation.

- stems from lack of agency. i've said this frequently here, but why reinvent the answer? you need something that you intrinsically enjoy, you can do without needing to receive validation for. who you are as a person is a culmination of axiomatic primitive likes and dislikes - developed throughout your life. e.g. you really liked building legos as a kid, and as a result you like constructing things - like seeing your imagination realized in real-life through some media of creation (coding, art, architecture... whatever). The overarching point - think of one thing you truly enjoy - never question it - and allow yourself to fully be engrossed in it. you need something to propel you forward.

- identity is a separate matter, and one im not entirely comfortable to answer. Youve said yourself previously its self perceived expected outcomes in of one my fav bookmarked thread vvv - and this can easily be changed (pls discuss this more with me, i have more thoughts on it)

Spoiler: goated thread

https://looksmax.org/threads/an-evi...used-dogs-mentalcels-inhibcels-gtfih.1876595/

- roids are fine, but the long term implications of a constant life-subscription to trt when im already poor i cannot agree with. imagine you have enough money, there's essentially no issue after education with roids.

- but for now, figure out if your even at homeostasis, or if you have some underlining issue that needs addressing.

- also depends on your purpose in LM, if you want to feel better, or slay - muscle answers the questions differently and there are different more effective avenues that address them more optimally (specifically if u just want to slay)


- my life story aswell

- i was KHHV until the same age, and have been fixing myself since. I've had relationships in school, but was so needy, clingy and retarded that all fell through (this behavior stemmed from a catalyst at home, that ive since distanced myself from - but obviously the solution for this is distancing yourself from all behavior similar). im no longer an incel, but trying to be someone who is more nuanced on others desires has been a challenge, especially when it comes to maintaining an uncaring facade to women when needed

- i think now that i dont have anything attaching myself to my previous retard identity i can properly develop into the thing i want to become. I understand my own idiosyncrasies, and by accounting for them they almost dont limit me anymore. I hated high-school, i hated everything about it, how it skewed my understanding of how life functions.


- again my life story

- and again, i think using these generalized containers of behavior (saying youre bpd) limit you to expecting something to happen that isnt guaranteed. The most important thing i need in my own mental posture is my ability to control how i function. The moment something impedes in my own freedom, thats when i deform into something that doesnt meet my expectations for myself.

- i believed for the longest time that family was bound by blood, but i think family is what you make it - more specifically the people you allow to see when youre not at your most functional capasity. If youre tired, or need assistance recoviering from an addiction, these are the people you allow to see you when youre not presentable to the entirety of the public domain.

- if family hasnt made an effort, dont make one. Anacdotally, you're not going to enlist any effort on their behalf - unless they've shown theyre willing to provide some in the first place so dont bother.

- dissociate yourself from loser friend groups, imagine/manifest yourself with people you want to be associated with. People who just understand social context - and youll immediately start seeing yourself filling the shoes youve manifested. you have no need to associate with loser retards that just have a negative feedback loop of possitive affermation for terrible character atributes that constantly detract from society. They souldnt promote stupid shit like anime is a positive thing to be watching in ur past time, normalsie gooning (or any other hyperbolic examples of retarded behaviour)

- drugs are a temperary solution to a permanent problem you have withing your own mental. just address your mental first before you take something exogenous you have to subscribe to, to feel the same semblance of normal you could have otherwise just fixed

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @PSLbbc @stigmaboy

Damn bruh, bookmarked i will read it later after i get home

 

[KD6Imp33]

I have no intention of sticking around longer than like 50 and I’m cutecel-lite tbh I could do with the dimo

Don't you want to have a matured wisdom age of like 80, so that you're as smart as Plato or Socrates?
And eventually share your wisdom by writing it down, so that other generations who follow learn something from you and be less retarded?
You could have some young female nurse wash your dirty old ass.

 

[stigmaboy]

@Sycophant lol you wrote a whole ass essay. honestly sounds like we're all just cope'n anyway. like maybe the whole point is just to find a way to not kill yourself before you hit 40. everything else is just noise.

 

[luuk]

Don't you want to have a matured wisdom age of like 80, so that you're as smart as Plato or Socrates?

I’ve made posts about this, the whole “wise old man” trope is cope, every old person I know is a demented fool who has lost their edge long ago. Age destroys your cognition, I’m seeing this in my parents right now its sad.

And eventually share your wisdom by writing it down, so that other generations who follow learn something from you and be less retarded?

I’ll write memoirs before I go

You could have some young female nurse wash your dirty old ass.

Humiliation ritual. The entire loss of independence and disability associated with aging is not something I am willing to stick through

 

[luuk]

- Im all for positive reinforcement, but thats the more intelligent stance on that situation. My philosophy is - why put myself out there, while both my image of myself isnt complete, im not entirely happy of the metric of which i judge myself, and ill knowingly experience ridicule anyways. You're literally just putting youself out there hoping to be received well, when that never occurs.

Interesting take. My goal with this is more rejection therapy, to become more okay with the idea of vunerability by doing it but idk

- For luuk, i think this ideology is made by people who are "innately selfish, as we constantly try to prove to those more innocent that we are selfless, and to those who aren't as innocent - that there exists selflessness in the world." - this is something i have saved, and is strongly believe in. Dont do something that will tarnish your reputation.

Reputation is important but I’d also agree that most people think about us less than we think, its about finding a balance between being less inhibited/self conscious and preserving your image

- stems from lack of agency. i've said this frequently here, but why reinvent the answer? you need something that you intrinsically enjoy, you can do without needing to receive validation for. who you are as a person is a culmination of axiomatic primitive likes and dislikes - developed throughout your life. e.g. you really liked building legos as a kid, and as a result you like constructing things - like seeing your imagination realized in real-life through some media of creation (coding, art, architecture... whatever). The overarching point - think of one thing you truly enjoy - never question it - and allow yourself to fully be engrossed in it. you need something to propel you forward.

Lack of agency is a big theme tbh
I probably need some soul searching with regards to this. I have interests but nothing I felt I could just dive into and dedicate all my efforts towards. I’m very fickle and keep changing my mind about what I want to do, I wish I had something realistic that I could stick to

- identity is a separate matter, and one im not entirely comfortable to answer. Youve said yourself previously its self perceived expected outcomes in of one my fav bookmarked thread vvv - and this can easily be changed (pls discuss this more with me, i have more thoughts on it)

I appreciate it, I feel like I’m great at handing out this kind of theoretical advice but not so good at implementing it, but it has helped me a bit

Spoiler: goated thread

https://looksmax.org/threads/an-evi...used-dogs-mentalcels-inhibcels-gtfih.1876595/

- roids are fine, but the long term implications of a constant life-subscription to trt when im already poor i cannot agree with. imagine you have enough money, there's essentially no issue after education with roids.

This is something I’ve been a bit paranoid about, like running out of test after a global supply chain collapse or something. I’ll make sure to buy a lot at a time and keep pct on hand year round if I can, need to moneymaxx first

- but for now, figure out if your even at homeostasis, or if you have some underlining issue that needs addressing.

Getting bloodwork for this

- also depends on your purpose in LM, if you want to feel better, or slay - muscle answers the questions differently and there are different more effective avenues that address them more optimally (specifically if u just want to slay)

I don’t have much problem attracting women physically although I don’t exactly “mog”, I would like the overall presence and confidence that roids give. I’m not trying to look like a model i don’t care if they bloat me a bit

- my life story aswell

- i was KHHV until the same age, and have been fixing myself since. I've had relationships in school, but was so needy, clingy and retarded that all fell through (this behavior stemmed from a catalyst at home, that ive since distanced myself from - but obviously the solution for this is distancing yourself from all behavior similar). im no longer an incel, but trying to be someone who is more nuanced on others desires has been a challenge, especially when it comes to maintaining an uncaring facade to women when needed

- i think now that i dont have anything attaching myself to my previous retard identity i can properly develop into the thing i want to become. I understand my own idiosyncrasies, and by accounting for them they almost dont limit me anymore. I hated high-school, i hated everything about it, how it skewed my understanding of how life functions.

Interesting, glad you can relate
I am slowly changing given that my circumstances are now different but I’ve had a couple of unfortunate events in my life that kind of bring me back there. I really just need to increase my agency so that I can truly remodel my identity. Like I’m staying at home right now and I feel like I regress towards how I was as a kid/teenager because I associate this place with who I was back then. I definitely cannot afford to live with my parents after uni even it it’s financially smart, for the sake of my personal development

- again my life story
- and again, i think using these generalized containers of behavior (saying youre bpd) limit you to expecting something to happen that isnt guaranteed. The most important thing i need in my own mental posture is my ability to control how i function. The moment something impedes in my own freedom, thats when i deform into something that doesnt meet my expectations for myself

This is so relatable
I agree with the label thing. I’m kind of glad I was never diagnosed with anything as a kid because a close friend of mine (whose pretty similar to me) was and kind of leans on it as a crutch and excuse. Self-fulfilling prophecy

- i believed for the longest time that family was bound by blood, but i think family is what you make it - more specifically the people you allow to see when youre not at your most functional capasity. If youre tired, or need assistance recoviering from an addiction, these are the people you allow to see you when youre not presentable to the entirety of the public domain.

For sure. I’ve met a couple people like this over the past two years that I want to keep around.

- if family hasnt made an effort, dont make one. Anacdotally, you're not going to enlist any effort on their behalf - unless they've shown theyre willing to provide some in the first place so dont bother.

Yeah I’m not so worried about them now but rather the kind of person I became from growing up in that environment and the closeness I’ve never had

- dissociate yourself from loser friend groups, imagine/manifest yourself with people you want to be associated with. People who just understand social context - and youll immediately start seeing yourself filling the shoes youve manifested. you have no need to associate with loser retards that just have a negative feedback loop of possitive affermation for terrible character atributes that constantly detract from society. They souldnt promote stupid shit like anime is a positive thing to be watching in ur past time, normalsie gooning (or any other hyperbolic examples of retarded behaviour)

Yeah I already have for the most part, I see them when I’m back in my hometown but its clear we no longer live similar lives, theres like one guy I want to stay in contact with and thats about it

- drugs are a temperary solution to a permanent problem you have withing your own mental. just address your mental first before you take something exogenous you have to subscribe to, to feel the same semblance of normal you could have otherwise just fixed

My problem is that I think there are actual chemical irregularities in my brain that I want to try to remedy. Stimulants really do restore a lot of executive function and overall competence to me but I have adhd so thats a given idk. But yeah you’re right about drugs being cope for the most part, treating symptoms vs cause

@ZenithZXV @GoyLite @PSLbbc @stigmaboy

I really appreciate this response, I relate to you a lot and you are clearly pretty intelligent and knowledgeable. I’ll heed your advice

 

[KD6Imp33]

I’ve made posts about this, the whole “wise old man” trope is cope, every old person I know is a demented fool who has lost their edge long ago. Age destroys your cognition, I’m seeing this in my parents right now its sad.

So if your lineage comes from a bunch of as you say "demented fools who lost their edge long ago", doesn't mean you have to follow their footsteps.
When you say "every old person i know", seems like you're not talking about:

I’ll write memoirs before I go

Your steroid journey is not going to make it.
Who will read that shit?
As if someone would read about Hulk Hogan in 100 years or 2000 years.
Only some brainwashed die hard "muh USA" people would care about his story. And they will vanish.

Humiliation ritual. The entire loss of independence and disability associated with aging is not something I am willing to stick through

Then maybe learn how to stay sharp, but with steroids you're not going to make it. Since it makes you age faster.

 

[luuk]

So if your lineage comes from a bunch of as you say "demented fools who lost their edge long ago", doesn't mean you have to follow their footsteps.
When you say "every old person i know", seems like you're not talking about:

Outside of a few brilliant minds, its pretty clear that most boomers have had their minds rotted from the lead poisoning and age related cognitive decline you're cherrypicking
Most old people are feeble, disabled, suffering from early stage dementia, entitled, miserable and in pain

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Your steroid journey is not going to make it.
Who will read that shit?

I'm not doing it for attention dude I wanna do it to improve my life

As if someone would read about Hulk Hogan in 100 years or 2000 years.
Only some brainwashed die hard "muh USA" people would care about his story. And they will vanish.

None of us are being remembered in 100 years bar any incredible stroke of luck

Then maybe learn how to stay sharp, but with steroids you're not going to make it. Since it makes you age faster.

I don't want to sharpen a pencil that has ran out of lead, I want to make something beautiful with it whilst it's long and dispose of it with dignity when it is no longer useful

 

[Societal Reject]

Its ok life is not meant to be fun turn your mind to higher ideals

 

[Kara]

I feel you. I'm in a pretty similar spot.

 

[luuk]

Its ok life is not meant to be fun turn your mind to higher ideals

what ideals? i’m certainly not christcoping if thats what you’re implying
i vehemently disagree with the idea that life isn’t supposed to be fun though

 

[KD6Imp33]

Outside of a few brilliant minds, its pretty clear that most boomers have had their minds rotted from the lead poisoning and age related cognitive decline you're cherrypicking

It's called brainwashing.

Maybe you could learn something from phylosophers instead of watching too many short videos.

Most old people are feeble, disabled, suffering from early stage dementia, entitled, miserable and in pain

Ok and what world believe do they have?
Are they educated about the world we live in or not?
I don't think so, most are the same, old as young people, which are brainwashed cattle of our world rulers.
Eating literal every crap their government gives them.
Retarded Boomers are then the end product.

I'm not doing it for attention dude I wanna do it to improve my life

None of us are being remembered in 100 years bar any incredible stroke of luck

I don't want to sharpen a pencil that has ran out of lead, I want to make something beautiful with it whilst it's long and dispose of it with dignity when it is no longer useful
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Maybe read into phylosophy, so you don't end up like the stereotype braindead bodybuilder full of roids.
Good luck.

 

[annenisikeyim]

I fantasise in my head so much but live an awfully mundane life, I waste so much time rotting and doing fuck all even though I have so many productive things I can do and near limitless potential

I need freedom and space and resources. But I set the bar so much higher than I actually need because of inhibition

For example I’d love to post on social media, I feel like I have the algo knowledge and the content and the ideas to actually blow up. But the idea of people I know or worse, family, seeing it would mortify me and its at the point where I almost never even post instagram stories let alone create content in any niches I like. I’m so inhibited that I feel afraid to be authentic even when nobody is watching because I’m paranoid as fuck. Like writing in a diary, I’ll start and then I’ll either just end up lying or scribbling it all out and throwing it away

I want to hop on roids too (for gains and mental sides idgaf about bone growth cope anymore) and I have spent so much time researching pharmacology, but I live with my parents half the year and rely on them for resources and my life would be ruined if they found out. But worse still I wouldn’t want to have to see my mother crying at whatever her son had gotten himself into, especially considering how much normies demonise roids. My own familial ties restrict me from exercising my will.

The first step I guess is to get a job and moneymaxx like crazy all summer so I’m less reliant on others.

The I need to lower my inhib drastically. Maybe I should get therapy or smth I know its a bit zogged but I have a lot of real issues that cause all this. Sometimes I get very defeatist about it all because I feel like my brain chemistry isn’t gonna change that drastically at 20. Maybe I should take a heroic dose of ayahuasca and hope that the aztec spirit rewires my brain in a favourable way jfl

I fear that by the time I have my own place year round, enough money to actually do what I want & freedom from my own mental chains, I’ll be too old to enjoy it and will have wasted my prime

What to do, brocels? Anyone relate?

deadass can you do a tldr

 

[Dauntedfob]

Cambridge not oxford
It was the admissions test (ENGAA), barely studied and bombed it

I got 10 9s and i'm in year 12 thinking about applying for engineering at cambridge. Im doing Fm Physics chem maths. you got any tips for me?

 

[Sycophant]

deadass can you do a tldr

- tldr: hes expressing thoughts of how he isnt productive - and is looking for some coping mechanisms for different aspects of his life

Its ok life is not meant to be fun turn your mind to higher ideals

@ZenithZXV - is this what u mean by normgoids, literally the most retarded thing ive ever read on this forum (satire account)

Don't you want to have a matured wisdom age of like 80, so that you're as smart as Plato or Socrates?
And eventually share your wisdom by writing it down, so that other generations who follow learn something from you and be less retarded?
You could have some young female nurse wash your dirty old ass.

- age isnt the deciding factor here, your ability to understand nuance of social situations and translate that into language is

- having kids of ur own, and living vicariously though their complete understanding of how people function is the blueprint perfect situation here. And from what ive said previously, i think the most core principle misconception that people believe is that there exists some selflessness in a typical individual. VVV

i think this ideology is made by people who are "innately selfish, as we constantly try to prove to those more innocent that we are selfless, and to those who aren't as innocent - that there exists selflessness in the world." - this is something i have saved, and is strongly believe in. Dont do something that will tarnish your reputation.

I’ve made posts about this, the whole “wise old man” trope is cope, every old person I know is a demented fool who has lost their edge long ago. Age destroys your cognition, I’m seeing this in my parents right now its sad.


I’ll write memoirs before I go


Humiliation ritual. The entire loss of independence and disability associated with aging is not something I am willing to stick through

- literally couldnt agree more

- there are so many factors that contribute to the deterioration of agency with age, but prominently the attention that you receive plummets, as your ability to do anything declines. As discussed before, lack of attention directly causes someone to become attention seeking - which continues the disintegration of agency further.

So if your lineage comes from a bunch of as you say "demented fools who lost their edge long ago", doesn't mean you have to follow their footsteps.
When you say "every old person i know", seems like you're not talking about:
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Your steroid journey is not going to make it.
Who will read that shit?
As if someone would read about Hulk Hogan in 100 years or 2000 years.
Only some brainwashed die hard "muh USA" people would care about his story. And they will vanish.

Then maybe learn how to stay sharp, but with steroids you're not going to make it. Since it makes you age faster.

- i understand what kind of user you are, and by extension how effective further speech is with you - but im not advantageous i just want you to break away from some of your predispositions and read before you say anything that isnt a critical thought on what i, or @luuk has said

- philosophers shouldnt be people, they should be a culmination of ideas that you selectively choose to help cope with in your own life. personally i take all of what kafka says - about the onus of other people, onto oneself - and completely invert it. these people are well renown for good reason, but the trick with philosophy is to infer it in a way thats applicable to your own life.

- quoting them, or just mentioning their name is fine for discussion - but the discussion should be had with yourself for actual results. if youre doing it for the fashion if it, youre doing it for the wrong reasons.

- wishing you all the best on your philosophical en-devours - lmk if you have any thoughts on kafka

It's called brainwashing.
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Maybe you could learn something from phylosophers instead of watching too many short videos.

Ok and what world believe do they have?
Are they educated about the world we live in or not?
I don't think so, most are the same, old as young people, which are brainwashed cattle of our world rulers.
Eating literal every crap their government gives them.
Retarded Boomers are then the end product.

Maybe read into phylosophy, so you don't end up like the stereotype braindead bodybuilder full of roids.
Good luck.

- you have a lot of opinions, anecdotally i find arguing for the sake of argument is not a great pastime - its not overly fulfilling when other parties are at a different level of nuance or understanding in a particular topic. but to help you out, probably dont start with a series of generalization of people just because. (now that ive thought about it, consider looking up logical fallacies)

- mirin the anti goverment propaganda - kinda silly tho
- most of your stuff after "Maybe you could learn something from philosophers instead of watching too many short videos." is completely water, needing to say it verbatim to assert dominance is something you need to address

Interesting take. My goal with this is more rejection therapy, to become more okay with the idea of vunerability by doing it but idk

Reputation is important but I’d also agree that most people think about us less than we think, its about finding a balance between being less inhibited/self conscious and preserving your image

- atleast you are aware. but being aware is only so productive when you continue anyways. (yk when u ask someone for advice, then u just do what u where originally thought anyways). i think there are safer avenues to build up your confidence, with less reputation compensation.

- the idea of "vulnerability", im not to sure of - and particularly what you mean. outside of this conversation, i believe you have some assertive underlying definition of what you are, and arent confident about - i believe this metric of confident can be misaligned. in the event of misaligned confidence - i think the approach is a gradual buildup of confidence over time is important - especially if youre entirely unsure.

- 100% agree people think about others less, but not to the same effect. i personally, and i think others do aswell, instantaneously group someone in my head the moment i meet them. water is wet, but there is a fallacy that people change or some other retarded thought. if someone cannot act in a convenient way to others, theres no point associating with them.

- but your outlying of the underlining problem is correct, its a balancing act.

Lack of agency is a big theme tbh
I probably need some soul searching with regards to this. I have interests but nothing I felt I could just dive into and dedicate all my efforts towards. I’m very fickle and keep changing my mind about what I want to do, I wish I had something realistic that I could stick to

I appreciate it, I feel like I’m great at handing out this kind of theoretical advice but not so good at implementing it, but it has helped me a bit

- youre not alone in this, and im the same. i hate the idea of a co-operated agreement to stick to something, but realistcially the only way unwanted change will occur is if it becomes ritualistic, i.e. reading every night, studding in specific locations.

- situational context, like allocating areas to study, or time periods to read i think help massively. When i have full control of my own environment, and living by myself - i feel its easier to have these things in place, otherwise its more of a gamble if im in the mood for it or not.

- being fickle is fine, but i think exposure to it generates interest - particularly isolated exposure where you have no intention of telling others about it and seeking validation from that activity through any other means but intrinsically.

- if u can discern a good thing from bad, i think just follow your own advice and start incorporating shit that will make u smarter - obv heroin as a hobby isnt a good thing but having one of those daily word apps on ur phone that youre likely never going to read isnt too bad.

- i feel the never follow my own advice, but it falls under the same umbrella as "getting sufficient stimulation from telling people im going to do something, then never doing it". personally i think the discussion of these ideas are great, and i previously received all of the dopamine before achieving any changes, only to make said changes and never see a new influx of dopamine. My personal approach to this was a massive document outlining all of my ideas, in the form of a looksmaxing. org that i will never post. I sometimes revisit it - and copy things from it to paste here, but not the entirety of it.

- the main point of this - is to do something im passionate about, but in private. obv pm me though, i think two people who are interested should converse for the sake of conflicting predispositions

This is something I’ve been a bit paranoid about, like running out of test after a global supply chain collapse or something. I’ll make sure to buy a lot at a time and keep pct on hand year round if I can, need to moneymaxx first

Getting bloodwork for this

- the one thought ive had that prevents me from doing it now - and im in the same boat. Im also getting my bloodwork done tmr for this same thing. Obv ill be more researched into it, and like u said before - im mostly doing roids not for the muscle, but the mental of it. js to feel better 24/7

- also i dont have a career yet, so i realistically cannot afford to take out a % of my salary to set aside for roids - par in part with needing to moneymaxx

I don’t have much problem attracting women physically although I don’t exactly “mog”, I would like the overall presence and confidence that roids give. I’m not trying to look like a model i don’t care if they bloat me a bit

- you can always get implants in ur face later, or aqualyx. Id prefer deathstar shoulders that break doorframes when i walk through them.

- confidence is key, especially if ur out at the club and noone is going to remember specifics the next morning

Interesting, glad you can relate
I am slowly changing given that my circumstances are now different but I’ve had a couple of unfortunate events in my life that kind of bring me back there. I really just need to increase my agency so that I can truly remodel my identity. Like I’m staying at home right now and I feel like I regress towards how I was as a kid/teenager because I associate this place with who I was back then. I definitely cannot afford to live with my parents after uni even it it’s financially smart, for the sake of my personal development

- complete remodel of identity is the best avenu, i have no idea why anyone would suggest anything involving incorporating your past. The best way to move forward is to completly ignore your past and summize all of it to situational circumstance rather then anything on ur behalf - otherwise your just stunting your own development by holding yourself accountable for no reason.

- literally what i think, association can entirely be circumstantial - both with location and the average of people you surround yourself with. i entirely disregarded my new-found identity from where i was living alone, and just slipped back into who i was when i was living with family when i need to see them.

- i need to move away and begin my new identity also after finishing uni, youre correct in this feeling.

This is so relatable
I agree with the label thing. I’m kind of glad I was never diagnosed with anything as a kid because a close friend of mine (whose pretty similar to me) was and kind of leans on it as a crutch and excuse. Self-fulfilling prophecy

- it becomes an excuse to act a certain way, that could have otherwise been completely overcome with very manageable coping mechanisms. it doesnt make this person more relatable, the onus just shifts from them onto those around them to manage this "problem" they refuse to address.

- a self fulfilling prophecy

For sure. I’ve met a couple people like this over the past two years that I want to keep around.

Yeah I’m not so worried about them now but rather the kind of person I became from growing up in that environment and the closeness I’ve never had

Yeah I already have for the most part, I see them when I’m back in my hometown but its clear we no longer live similar lives, theres like one guy I want to stay in contact with and thats about it

- miring the friend, but i have kept around people who have made an effort to talk to me after i moved away

- i think people are entirely like clay their entire lives, the way we can truely be molded by the people we actively associate with. By extension all pieces that have been molded, can be re-molded if we have distant for those particular features - including those imprinted on us by our family. regardless of the validity of this, id alteast hope some of this is true - i want nothing from particular people that ive previously associated with - people that are entirely destructive to those around them and again - are that self fulfilling prophecy.

My problem is that I think there are actual chemical irregularities in my brain that I want to try to remedy. Stimulants really do restore a lot of executive function and overall competence to me but I have adhd so thats a given idk. But yeah you’re right about drugs being cope for the most part, treating symptoms vs cause

- but what if some of it is a cause looking for a problem, if you just want to feel this way so you can provide yourself with the solution. i could self diagnose everything under the sun, and still be dysfunctional because i activly refuse to change my ways.

- ive met actual people who genuinely dont have any issues with them, and just give themselves problems over the years to become a retarded shell of their former younger self that need some medication to "function to a normal capacity". i understand the need to feel like your problems have answers, and honestly i fall in your exact boat. But actual dependence on medication i personally feel, and personally seen makes people less function-able.

- i do feel like certain things come harder for me then others, then i just learnt how to manage this - and instantly my life was less of a struggle. people just say shit for attention, but i think drugs are actual cope

I really appreciate this response, I relate to you a lot and you are clearly pretty intelligent and knowledgeable. I’ll heed your advice

- likewise bhai, pms are always open for intelligence. its good to talk to someone who i feel already understands a vast majority of what i say, before i say it - because our experiences are similar.

-ill take time to respond to make sure its high effort, not some shit. hmu if ur making anymore guides in future

@Avskinov @stigmaboy @anthrax @GoyLite

 

[Societal Reject]

To the faggot gray who replied (i dont know who you are) i would snap your neck irl if you said that to me

 

[Warism]

I

I fantasise in my head so much but live an awfully mundane life, I waste so much time rotting and doing fuck all even though I have so many productive things I can do and near limitless potential

I need freedom and space and resources. But I set the bar so much higher than I actually need because of inhibition

For example I’d love to post on social media, I feel like I have the algo knowledge and the content and the ideas to actually blow up. But the idea of people I know or worse, family, seeing it would mortify me and its at the point where I almost never even post instagram stories let alone create content in any niches I like. I’m so inhibited that I feel afraid to be authentic even when nobody is watching because I’m paranoid as fuck. Like writing in a diary, I’ll start and then I’ll either just end up lying or scribbling it all out and throwing it away

I want to hop on roids too (for gains and mental sides idgaf about bone growth cope anymore) and I have spent so much time researching pharmacology, but I live with my parents half the year and rely on them for resources and my life would be ruined if they found out. But worse still I wouldn’t want to have to see my mother crying at whatever her son had gotten himself into, especially considering how much normies demonise roids. My own familial ties restrict me from exercising my will.

The first step I guess is to get a job and moneymaxx like crazy all summer so I’m less reliant on others.

The I need to lower my inhib drastically. Maybe I should get therapy or smth I know its a bit zogged but I have a lot of real issues that cause all this. Sometimes I get very defeatist about it all because I feel like my brain chemistry isn’t gonna change that drastically at 20. Maybe I should take a heroic dose of ayahuasca and hope that the aztec spirit rewires my brain in a favourable way jfl

I fear that by the time I have my own place year round, enough money to actually do what I want & freedom from my own mental chains, I’ll be too old to enjoy it and will have wasted my prime

What to do, brocels? Anyone relate?

i somewhat agree, I’m going to end my shit soon

 

[annenisikeyim]

I

i somewhat agree, I’m going to end my shit soon

no

 

[ZenithZXV]

is this what u mean by normgoids, literally the most retarded thing ive ever read on this forum (satire account)

He fits perfectly.

 

[stigmaboy]

@Sycophant facemog

 

[KD6Imp33]

- tldr: hes expressing thoughts of how he isnt productive - and is looking for some coping mechanisms for different aspects of his life

@ZenithZXV - is this what u mean by normgoids, literally the most retarded thing ive ever read on this forum (satire account)

- age isnt the deciding factor here, your ability to understand nuance of social situations and translate that into language is

- having kids of ur own, and living vicariously though their complete understanding of how people function is the blueprint perfect situation here. And from what ive said previously, i think the most core principle misconception that people believe is that there exists some selflessness in a typical individual. VVV



- literally couldnt agree more

- there are so many factors that contribute to the deterioration of agency with age, but prominently the attention that you receive plummets, as your ability to do anything declines. As discussed before, lack of attention directly causes someone to become attention seeking - which continues the disintegration of agency further.

- i understand what kind of user you are, and by extension how effective further speech is with you - but im not advantageous i just want you to break away from some of your predispositions and read before you say anything that isnt a critical thought on what i, or @luuk has said

- philosophers shouldnt be people, they should be a culmination of ideas that you selectively choose to help cope with in your own life. personally i take all of what kafka says - about the onus of other people, onto oneself - and completely invert it. these people are well renown for good reason, but the trick with philosophy is to infer it in a way thats applicable to your own life.

- quoting them, or just mentioning their name is fine for discussion - but the discussion should be had with yourself for actual results. if youre doing it for the fashion if it, youre doing it for the wrong reasons.

- wishing you all the best on your philosophical en-devours - lmk if you have any thoughts on kafka


- you have a lot of opinions, anecdotally i find arguing for the sake of argument is not a great pastime - its not overly fulfilling when other parties are at a different level of nuance or understanding in a particular topic. but to help you out, probably dont start with a series of generalization of people just because. (now that ive thought about it, consider looking up logical fallacies)

- mirin the anti goverment propaganda - kinda silly tho
- most of your stuff after "Maybe you could learn something from philosophers instead of watching too many short videos." is completely water, needing to say it verbatim to assert dominance is something you need to address

- atleast you are aware. but being aware is only so productive when you continue anyways. (yk when u ask someone for advice, then u just do what u where originally thought anyways). i think there are safer avenues to build up your confidence, with less reputation compensation.

- the idea of "vulnerability", im not to sure of - and particularly what you mean. outside of this conversation, i believe you have some assertive underlying definition of what you are, and arent confident about - i believe this metric of confident can be misaligned. in the event of misaligned confidence - i think the approach is a gradual buildup of confidence over time is important - especially if youre entirely unsure.

- 100% agree people think about others less, but not to the same effect. i personally, and i think others do aswell, instantaneously group someone in my head the moment i meet them. water is wet, but there is a fallacy that people change or some other retarded thought. if someone cannot act in a convenient way to others, theres no point associating with them.

- but your outlying of the underlining problem is correct, its a balancing act.

- youre not alone in this, and im the same. i hate the idea of a co-operated agreement to stick to something, but realistcially the only way unwanted change will occur is if it becomes ritualistic, i.e. reading every night, studding in specific locations.

- situational context, like allocating areas to study, or time periods to read i think help massively. When i have full control of my own environment, and living by myself - i feel its easier to have these things in place, otherwise its more of a gamble if im in the mood for it or not.

- being fickle is fine, but i think exposure to it generates interest - particularly isolated exposure where you have no intention of telling others about it and seeking validation from that activity through any other means but intrinsically.

- if u can discern a good thing from bad, i think just follow your own advice and start incorporating shit that will make u smarter - obv heroin as a hobby isnt a good thing but having one of those daily word apps on ur phone that youre likely never going to read isnt too bad.

- i feel the never follow my own advice, but it falls under the same umbrella as "getting sufficient stimulation from telling people im going to do something, then never doing it". personally i think the discussion of these ideas are great, and i previously received all of the dopamine before achieving any changes, only to make said changes and never see a new influx of dopamine. My personal approach to this was a massive document outlining all of my ideas, in the form of a looksmaxing. org that i will never post. I sometimes revisit it - and copy things from it to paste here, but not the entirety of it.

- the main point of this - is to do something im passionate about, but in private. obv pm me though, i think two people who are interested should converse for the sake of conflicting predispositions


- the one thought ive had that prevents me from doing it now - and im in the same boat. Im also getting my bloodwork done tmr for this same thing. Obv ill be more researched into it, and like u said before - im mostly doing roids not for the muscle, but the mental of it. js to feel better 24/7

- also i dont have a career yet, so i realistically cannot afford to take out a % of my salary to set aside for roids - par in part with needing to moneymaxx

- you can always get implants in ur face later, or aqualyx. Id prefer deathstar shoulders that break doorframes when i walk through them.

- confidence is key, especially if ur out at the club and noone is going to remember specifics the next morning

- complete remodel of identity is the best avenu, i have no idea why anyone would suggest anything involving incorporating your past. The best way to move forward is to completly ignore your past and summize all of it to situational circumstance rather then anything on ur behalf - otherwise your just stunting your own development by holding yourself accountable for no reason.

- literally what i think, association can entirely be circumstantial - both with location and the average of people you surround yourself with. i entirely disregarded my new-found identity from where i was living alone, and just slipped back into who i was when i was living with family when i need to see them.

- i need to move away and begin my new identity also after finishing uni, youre correct in this feeling.

- it becomes an excuse to act a certain way, that could have otherwise been completely overcome with very manageable coping mechanisms. it doesnt make this person more relatable, the onus just shifts from them onto those around them to manage this "problem" they refuse to address.

- a self fulfilling prophecy

- miring the friend, but i have kept around people who have made an effort to talk to me after i moved away

- i think people are entirely like clay their entire lives, the way we can truely be molded by the people we actively associate with. By extension all pieces that have been molded, can be re-molded if we have distant for those particular features - including those imprinted on us by our family. regardless of the validity of this, id alteast hope some of this is true - i want nothing from particular people that ive previously associated with - people that are entirely destructive to those around them and again - are that self fulfilling prophecy.

- but what if some of it is a cause looking for a problem, if you just want to feel this way so you can provide yourself with the solution. i could self diagnose everything under the sun, and still be dysfunctional because i activly refuse to change my ways.

- ive met actual people who genuinely dont have any issues with them, and just give themselves problems over the years to become a retarded shell of their former younger self that need some medication to "function to a normal capacity". i understand the need to feel like your problems have answers, and honestly i fall in your exact boat. But actual dependence on medication i personally feel, and personally seen makes people less function-able.

- i do feel like certain things come harder for me then others, then i just learnt how to manage this - and instantly my life was less of a struggle. people just say shit for attention, but i think drugs are actual cope

- likewise bhai, pms are always open for intelligence. its good to talk to someone who i feel already understands a vast majority of what i say, before i say it - because our experiences are similar.

-ill take time to respond to make sure its high effort, not some shit. hmu if ur making anymore guides in future

@Avskinov @stigmaboy @anthrax @GoyLite

Worth reading, but i've only flown over what you wrote to me.
Thanks for mention Kafka, will look into him.
I don't like to argue for sake of arguing. If you made a good point, you made a good point.
Just bored and got no one to talk so...
On Youtube i received shadowban recently from a "muh free speech" american politics commentator. The irony.
So there's really not much space to write freely on the internet.
Anyway, if you want to take roids and die with 50, so be it.
But what you will not keep in mind is, that your opinion will change often in life and then regret hits as hard, as women who hit the wall.
And no need to talk about the ideal life with children, wife and family, when you're planning to off yourself at 50, and maybe getting erectyle dysfunction and be infertile cause of steroids.
And why do i insert dominance, by just pointing out stupidity that comes with you/ this new generation, which grows up with tiktok and phone-, porn-, social media- addiction, which all lead to idiocracy? There's even a movie about the future called "Idiocracy".
So because i got nothing to do, here and there i help someone.
If you don't take the help, i did my part, good Karma for me.
I went to far into the helping part, with giving out info about brainwash, that was silly i agree.
Yet people here who want to take roids are brainwashed.
With looksmax/ fakemax getting popular... "muh pills"
The winner, once again, Big Pharma.