i feel nothing good

[wollet2]

there are 2 possibilities

1. there is nothing wrong with me and it always been like this, in which case lol at life being so dogshit that i choose to spend my time whining about it 24/7

2. i have lost my ability to feel good

in both i am fucked. i hate life with all my existence

 

[Debetro]

My husband secretly named our son after a meme and I hate him for it​

I have been with my husband since we were in college (a little over a decade altogether) and in that time I've never question his honesty/loyalty to me or our relationship. So when he insisted on naming our son "Alberto" after a man who saved him from drowning when he was a kid, I thought it a little strange but nonetheless went with it.
My last name (which he took) is Barbosa, owing to my Portugese heritage. I've since found out that "Alberto Barbosa" is a kind of "meme name" on the internet sites he frequents. I found out after discovering a folder called "Alberto Barbosa" on his work laptop, filled with what seemed like hundreds of pictures of an African man with a kind of Portuguese themed turban. Reverse image searching one of these bizare images is how I found out the name's true meaning.
Since this discovery, I feel increasingly paranoid that the only reason he ever took my name in the first place was because of this stupid meme. We only got married early last year, after/around the time this meme seems to have been created. Before this I had always assumed I would just take his name, until he said he wanted to take mine (an act I was actually touched by and found very sweet, ugh...)
This entire ordeal has me so mad. On the one hand it's just a name, but on the other he went behind my back to name our first born son over a stupid bloody internet meme. What's worse is that he refuses to have our son's name changed and insists it's just a coincidence, which is a load of bullshit considering the amount of images he had saved of this. He refuses to acknowledge this as a serious problem and I am so furious with him, but ultimately feel powerless given he provides for me and our newborn.
Sorry for rambling on a bit, I just needed to get this ridiculous and infuriating issue off my chest as I'm too ashamed to tell my friends and family of his actions.

 

[Abhorrence]

do dopamine detox
you wont feel so empty

 

[wollet2]

do dopamine detox
you wont feel so empty

i on permanent dopamine detox. 0 dopamine

i guess

fuck life

 

[Abhorrence]

i on permanent dopamine detox. 0 dopamine

thats not possible bro
ur receptors are just desensitized

 

[Abhorrence]

i feel the same too
life lost its magic

 

[NordicLeonhard]

Ive felt like this for 6 years but i might get medication soon and ive started doing neurofeedback

 

[wollet2]

thats not possible bro
ur receptors are just desensitized

my receptors must have gotten physically destroyed or sth

like they dont exist naymore

 

[Abhorrence]

i feel the same too
life lost its magic

life ends after 15
after that its dealing with societies bullshit and chasing stuff that doesnt even matter

 

[wollet2]

life ends after 15
after that its dealing with societies bullshit and chasing stuff that doesnt even matter

life trully ends when ur dick stops working

esp if it happens at 18 and u were a previous sex addict

 

[Abhorrence]

life trully ends when ur dick stops working

esp if it happens at 18 and u were a previous sex addict

cooming at 13 dopaminemogs fucking prime adriana lima on drugs at 18

 

[Deleted member 20370]

i have lost my ability to feel good

i am jaded beyond repair

 

[Abhorrence]

cooming at 13 dopaminemogs fucking prime adriana lima on drugs at 18

this is why you have to lose ur virginity early
nothing feels as good when ur oldcel it doesnt even come close

 

[thecel]

estrogen can solve this problem