Deleted member 6997
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Man. it's killing me I just can't live my life like this. The social pressure of having sex but knowing if you put yourself out there you will be brutally rejected/shamed/ridiculed you name it.
I'm a good-looking guy which is of course a positive but man sometimes I think what does it even matter in the end. The amount of girls I've rejected legit keeps me up at night thinking about it how my life would be totally different with just a few inches more in my pants. I feel so stressed I'm literally constantly thinking what if I had a normal dick sometimes I measure my dick and look at the ruler at like 6/7 inches and think damn that's big no wonder people constantly pursue girls. If I had a big dick I would also wanna show it off.
Now with this pandemic going on I can't have sex how I normally did with random girls I met when going out preferably from another city, so it wouldn't backfire and word would spread. If I wanna fuck it has to be in my social circle cause I ain't meeting anyone new. And as an attractive guy, the opportunities present themselves but I just can't act on it, it's such a brutal feeling I can't even describe it to anyone who hasn't been in this situation. My fear of being ridiculed is bigger than my urge to have sex and I have a high libido so you can imagine.
Last weekend I was at a small party with girls I kinda knew and I just can't act like I wanne act one was constantly touching me and it was obvious she was down but I just brushed it off and acted like I wasn't interested and tried to avoid her the rest of the night.
Now tommorow we would be going there again but I've canceled saying I have to work just cause I can't do it anymore. Seeing a hot girl wanting me giving obvious signs and having to act like I don't want any of it while it's the exact opposite, it breaks my soul. My friends are also constantly questioning me why I don't fuck some of these girls cause which normal healthy male would reject hot girls
Joke of a life, legit thinking about using a ridiculous amount of DMT to create ego death
I'm a good-looking guy which is of course a positive but man sometimes I think what does it even matter in the end. The amount of girls I've rejected legit keeps me up at night thinking about it how my life would be totally different with just a few inches more in my pants. I feel so stressed I'm literally constantly thinking what if I had a normal dick sometimes I measure my dick and look at the ruler at like 6/7 inches and think damn that's big no wonder people constantly pursue girls. If I had a big dick I would also wanna show it off.
Now with this pandemic going on I can't have sex how I normally did with random girls I met when going out preferably from another city, so it wouldn't backfire and word would spread. If I wanna fuck it has to be in my social circle cause I ain't meeting anyone new. And as an attractive guy, the opportunities present themselves but I just can't act on it, it's such a brutal feeling I can't even describe it to anyone who hasn't been in this situation. My fear of being ridiculed is bigger than my urge to have sex and I have a high libido so you can imagine.
Last weekend I was at a small party with girls I kinda knew and I just can't act like I wanne act one was constantly touching me and it was obvious she was down but I just brushed it off and acted like I wasn't interested and tried to avoid her the rest of the night.
Now tommorow we would be going there again but I've canceled saying I have to work just cause I can't do it anymore. Seeing a hot girl wanting me giving obvious signs and having to act like I don't want any of it while it's the exact opposite, it breaks my soul. My friends are also constantly questioning me why I don't fuck some of these girls cause which normal healthy male would reject hot girls
Joke of a life, legit thinking about using a ridiculous amount of DMT to create ego death
