FaceandBBC
Leader of the Black Hebrew Movement
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First things to know about me: I'm a r/DataHoarder and I developed a very strong and unhealthy fetish for asian women, specially japanese.
I noticed that this fetish was affecting my life more and more as time was passing. I couldn't even watch asian dramas, because any pretty asian actress that would show up my brain would immediately sexualize her and I would lose focus of the story. In my personal life, I rejected (and now I deeply regret it) 2 women in the last years that wanted to go out with me to know me better. For the simple fact that they were not asian. My mind would try to give different excuses for why I didn't want to go out with them, but deep down I knew the reason. If they were asian, I would not only accept but take them to Dubai if they wanted.
It got to the point that when I was talking to any asian girl that was around my age, my brain would freeze sometimes, because I would try to have a simple conversation but it was impossible to not have sexual thoughts because I've been feeding this fetish for years. I noticed that this fetish was out of control also when I once flirted with an asian girl that had a partner. I used to treat women that had parners as if they were a man, with zero interest because I would hate if a man flirted with a partner of mine. So that needed to stop.
I wiped my hard drives one by one and I can finally feel that I am free. I believe my mind is gonna torture me a bit for the next days but I'll stay strong, there's no going back.
I had that much porn because as you may know, japanese adult videos are usually very long (~90min) and since I'd only download 1080p or higher quality videos, the average size of my videos was 4GB. And since I didn't want to pay for the videos, I would download them in pirate websites that could be taken down any minute, so I had to make sure to download all of them. A few of my 1TB hard drives had been filled with videos of only 1 actress. If you ask me how much of all those videos have I watched, I would say not even 1%.
I noticed that this fetish was affecting my life more and more as time was passing. I couldn't even watch asian dramas, because any pretty asian actress that would show up my brain would immediately sexualize her and I would lose focus of the story. In my personal life, I rejected (and now I deeply regret it) 2 women in the last years that wanted to go out with me to know me better. For the simple fact that they were not asian. My mind would try to give different excuses for why I didn't want to go out with them, but deep down I knew the reason. If they were asian, I would not only accept but take them to Dubai if they wanted.
It got to the point that when I was talking to any asian girl that was around my age, my brain would freeze sometimes, because I would try to have a simple conversation but it was impossible to not have sexual thoughts because I've been feeding this fetish for years. I noticed that this fetish was out of control also when I once flirted with an asian girl that had a partner. I used to treat women that had parners as if they were a man, with zero interest because I would hate if a man flirted with a partner of mine. So that needed to stop.
I wiped my hard drives one by one and I can finally feel that I am free. I believe my mind is gonna torture me a bit for the next days but I'll stay strong, there's no going back.
I had that much porn because as you may know, japanese adult videos are usually very long (~90min) and since I'd only download 1080p or higher quality videos, the average size of my videos was 4GB. And since I didn't want to pay for the videos, I would download them in pirate websites that could be taken down any minute, so I had to make sure to download all of them. A few of my 1TB hard drives had been filled with videos of only 1 actress. If you ask me how much of all those videos have I watched, I would say not even 1%.
