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I went through all of high school and college being too afraid to smile at, flirt with, or talk to girls, even ones that were staring/giving me iois (it happened occasionally since I'm a normie). I still can barely flirt with girls I'm chatting with, but at least I've made progress in that area. But one challenge I could never overcome was to smile at a girl who I was making eye contact with/considering approaching. Every time I tried, the most I could manage was smiling as I was looking away, which probably looked super weak.
Anyway, the past few months during corona were hard times for me because I had some health shit to deal with (unrelated to covid). I've been feeling better lately tho, and I recently got a haircut to get rid of my annoying shaggy corona bangs. Today I went to a local park to walk around and enjoy the weather. After an hour, I started to walk back to my car and I was approaching 2 teenage girls sitting on a bench. I've made a habit to clench my jaw and slightly squint whenever I see girls thanks to the autistic dogma of this site, so I assumed that facial pose as I walked. The girl facing me glanced at me off and on as I got closer, and then her friend turned around to look at me and we made eye contact. This was the first time in my life that 2 girls in mid-conversation paused to look at me. Usually they ignore me. Since I'm an awkward beta, I looked away and kept walking. Tbh i also felt weird about having this interaction with literal jbs, but since my short hair cut and collagen-maxxed skin make me look like a giant 10 year old, I guess it was appropriate. I continued walking, then I got in my car and started to leave the place. As I was leaving, I saw those girls standing on the sidewalk I was about to drive by. I put on my sunglasses, drove a bit slow, and as I passed them we looked at each other again and I grinned.
Unfortunately I had to quickly look back at the road again to avoid hitting the car in front of me, so I didn't see their reaction. But nevertheless, this was a personal victory for me cuz I overcame a big mental block. It's hard for a borderline aspie to smile at a girl without his brain overloading with anxiety. This was the lifefuel I've been waiting for since corona shut the world down. I haven't seen girls in a while.
P.S. this was mostly a journal entry for me. I don't really give a shit if you say dn rd. Why tf would you click on a thread that has "story" in the title if you're not gonna read
Anyway, the past few months during corona were hard times for me because I had some health shit to deal with (unrelated to covid). I've been feeling better lately tho, and I recently got a haircut to get rid of my annoying shaggy corona bangs. Today I went to a local park to walk around and enjoy the weather. After an hour, I started to walk back to my car and I was approaching 2 teenage girls sitting on a bench. I've made a habit to clench my jaw and slightly squint whenever I see girls thanks to the autistic dogma of this site, so I assumed that facial pose as I walked. The girl facing me glanced at me off and on as I got closer, and then her friend turned around to look at me and we made eye contact. This was the first time in my life that 2 girls in mid-conversation paused to look at me. Usually they ignore me. Since I'm an awkward beta, I looked away and kept walking. Tbh i also felt weird about having this interaction with literal jbs, but since my short hair cut and collagen-maxxed skin make me look like a giant 10 year old, I guess it was appropriate. I continued walking, then I got in my car and started to leave the place. As I was leaving, I saw those girls standing on the sidewalk I was about to drive by. I put on my sunglasses, drove a bit slow, and as I passed them we looked at each other again and I grinned.
Unfortunately I had to quickly look back at the road again to avoid hitting the car in front of me, so I didn't see their reaction. But nevertheless, this was a personal victory for me cuz I overcame a big mental block. It's hard for a borderline aspie to smile at a girl without his brain overloading with anxiety. This was the lifefuel I've been waiting for since corona shut the world down. I haven't seen girls in a while.
P.S. this was mostly a journal entry for me. I don't really give a shit if you say dn rd. Why tf would you click on a thread that has "story" in the title if you're not gonna read
