I found where all my problems stems from

[just coping]

It's the fear of death i may try to cope but in my heart I'm so deeply afraid of the end
@Defeatist

 

[just coping]

The soul; finding myself; enlightenment are all a shelter from this fear
I feel free now that's I've admitted this maybe this primal fear is the next step maybe conquering it will make me me

 

[just coping]

B

 

[R1PPer]

C

 

[Defeatist]

It's the fear of death i may try to cope but in my heart I'm so deeply afraid of the end

Thinking like this can also just be a defense mechanism

Maybe you’re scared of living instead, maybe both

 

[Defeatist]

Name checks out lol

 

[persuss]

It's the fear of death i may try to cope but in my heart I'm so deeply afraid of the end
@Defeatist

Death is birth our souls are free from this reality we live for ever

 

[just coping]

Thinking like this can also just be a defense mechanism

Maybe you’re scared of living instead, maybe both

Hmmm how can one be scared of living?

 

[just coping]

Death is birth our souls are free from this reality we live for ever

I used to think like but I'm finally free

 

[Defeatist]

Hmmm how can one be scared of living?

Because you aren’t perfect ,

Well for me I’m a perfectionist

 

[just coping]

Because you aren’t perfect ,

Well for me I’m a perfectionist

That's certainly a thing
Not me tho I like being chaotic I thrive in chaos and Messines