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wrecked my test with ED and starvation cycle got addicted to daydreaming because that was my only dopamine source i have wasted my whole teenage years im 19 now cant even fcuking leanmax im dysfunctional and i dont even have bad genes i truly fucked up lots of people did me dirty from my upbringing and i personally fucked up too wasnt the luckiest but couldve hnadled it better im having an attack rn thats why im writing this shi had to get it out my heads gonna explode smoking rn i cant sleep every second of my day the thoughts and my slightly recessed chin taunts me my past i cant runaway even when playing games cant listen to fucking christmas songs without my head lighting cuz of how depressed i am i truly have nothing i am nothing my walking muscles are even fucked up cuz of how long i ve stayed in my fucking room i feel like im 40 years old looking at other teens feeling expressing their emotions i feel ashamed of expressing my emotions i never been loved genetic failure? no why tf i am like this did i do this to myself i need to naturemax asap but everytime i go out i feel like a old man enjoying nature before he dies and reads fucking newspaper when im 19 fucking years oldi know everything about nutrition and gym but i have worst health indicators then a fuycking vegan i dont know how am i gonna recover from this i ve been trying for 2 years but truly ive been alone for 19 years the only good side i think of is if i recover from this every bit of happiness will feel incredible cuz of how long i was depleted from it every single moment of happiness that other people dont care about or js dont have any interest to it i will feel it as deeply as possible
