I fucking hate the way I look.

SQL2VD

SQL2VD

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I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
 
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SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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dude ur literally me. So fucking reletable. Except the ex part. Jfl. there is no ex
 
SQL2VD said:
man idk about you but i might just kms if this shit dont get better :feelsuhh:
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nigga u had a girlfriend before its not even over why tf would u.

I fucking understand u so much. I became at utter subhuman in the last year of school, broke out, buzzed my hair, became fat as fuck from so much stress and wanting to feel big and shit cuz i was always a twink. Im only getting out recently after living like u did for basically 2 years. (school ends at 16 here)

If ur at rock bottom just looksmax ur way out of it and find a new a relationship and just cope with that relationship. When some old friends saw me after not seeing me for 2 years they glazed the fuck out of me saying i changed a lot, saying i grew, saying i look way better etc. and respected me hella when i lied about having a gf.

Getting into a relationship is basically the only thing that matters as a teenager. Everything else is kinda cope. A relationship is all u need
 
FiendFiend said:
nigga u had a girlfriend before its not even over why tf would u.

I fucking understand u so much. I became at utter subhuman in the last year of school, broke out, buzzed my hair, became fat as fuck from so much stress and wanting to feel big and shit cuz i was always a twink. Im only getting out recently after living like u did for basically 2 years. (school ends at 16 here)

If ur at rock bottom just looksmax ur way out of it and find a new a relationship and just cope with that relationship. When some old friends saw me after not seeing me for 2 years they glazed the fuck out of me saying i changed a lot, saying i grew, saying i look way better etc. and respected me hella when i lied about having a gf.

Getting into a relationship is basically the only thing that matters as a teenager. Everything else is kinda cope. A relationship is all u need
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i’m assuming you’re english?
 
SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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Yeah i can relate, sometimes it's hard to get back on you're feet after life beats you the fuck up for no reason. There have been times of my life where I was just getting absolutely fucked and I felt like there was nothing I could do and I was hopeless. I just kept it pushing. I literally just kept getting up every morning and eventually things were better.

As for improving yourself for school. I have been doing that, I cleared up my skin, cut my hair, been grooming my eyelashes and eyebrows and just in general been taking care of myself. Easiest way to improve your looks before school starts is to start sleeping more and more. 9 hours a night if possible.

My best advice would be to just join the gym anyway, the fact it's there for atleast a month for something you can do, just to get out of the house. People in the gym are the most positive people you'll ever meet in my experience and don't really care about other people in the gym. I know I was very nervous when I first joined because I was worried what other people would think of me but eventually you learn nobody really gives a fuck, especially in a place like the gym. Looks matter but not nearly as much as people on this thread make them out to be.

For you're haircut, not having enough money is a pretty rough situation. I cut my own hair! I have the money but the barbers never really did what I want and I ended up walking away super chopped and unhappy. If you're feeling up for it try cutting it yourself. And get your parents permission first because idk how they'd feel about it. My parents weren't happy when I started doing it but I got better and better at it and they don't care anymore.
 
dancooper said:
the barbers never really did what I want and I ended up walking away super chopped and unhappy
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same exact thing for me, but i found a barbers who actually do my hair decently, and they aren't charging so much to make my hair look shit.
 
SQL2VD said:
same exact thing for me, but i found a barbers who actually do my hair decently, and they aren't charging so much to make my hair look shit.
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Just cut it urself if u want. My hair is quite curly / wavy so the way I cut it doesnt have to be uniform in any way, so if I "fuck up" it doesnt really matter. Idk about u but if ur hair is straight than I would just go to a proffesional
 
dancooper said:
Just cut it urself if u want. My hair is quite curly / wavy so the way I cut it doesnt have to be uniform in any way, so if I "fuck up" it doesnt really matter. Idk about u but if ur hair is straight than I would just go to a proffesional
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my hair is VERY straight, like it will not style properly with most hair products, then again, i havent tried based yet.
 
Fake cel crying about his ex I hope you get better soon but come on man
 
SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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im so sorry man. check dms
 
SQL2VD said:
i aint crying about my ex, its just she’s the main root of my fucked up mental
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Probably not your just unmotivated
 
grilldaddy❤️ said:
Probably not your just unmotivated
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yeah because she practically ruined my life, she’s the reason i have barely any friends. she accused me of sexually assaulting her and everyone flocked to her side
 
SQL2VD said:
yeah because she practically ruined my life, she’s the reason i have barely any friends. she accused me of sexually assaulting her and everyone flocked to her side
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That’s sad bhai I hope you recover soon
 
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SQL2VD said:
my hair is VERY straight, like it will not style properly with most hair products, then again, i havent tried based yet.
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curl cream is usually the one I recommend
 
SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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Pm me bro
 
Get a job.
 
We ALL suffer from the ex shit bro WERE all in the same boat some day in life. Ik it hurts but someday u will eventually find an girl who u will love MORE then your ex and ur feeling of emptyness will slowly fade away
Keep it up bro
 
jo12hi33 said:
We ALL suffer from the ex shit bro WERE all in the same boat some day in life. Ik it hurts but someday u will eventually find an girl who u will love MORE then your ex and ur feeling of emptyness will slowly fade away
Keep it up bro
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Wtf i kinda misread what she did to you but u get the point💀
 
SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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Who dosnt bro you act like your the only one welcome to the club buddy boy you ain’t special
 
hilpolp said:
Who dosnt bro you act like your the only one welcome to the club buddy boy you ain’t special
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i know im not the only one you faggot, i'm not a retard like most people here
 
SQL2VD said:
i know im not the only one you faggot, i'm not a retard like most people here
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So quit bitching and work with what you got go get some money or smthn pussy
 
SQL2VD said:
yeah because she practically ruined my life, she’s the reason i have barely any friends. she accused me of sexually assaulting her and everyone flocked to her side
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what a whore, you should rape her now for real so the accusations at least be true
 
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SQL2VD said:
I hate life, I'm lonely, I'm full of rage, I'm so inconsistent when it comes to doing activities. I haven't left my fucking house properly since at least mid July. I have no fucking real friends except for the ones I have on Discord or TikTok. And to make things worse, I went to put my watch on to see how it would fit, it's so fucking loose on my arm now.

I seriously need help, I've asked my mother if she can get me a gym membership and she was going on about "But will you be consistent?", last time I went to the gym properly was back in November. I lost all motivation for EVERYTHING after I broke up with my ex, not because of the break up but because of what SHE did to me. I was sexually assaulted, abused, fucking BITTEN, blackmailed, everything. If I had a nickel for each time I had a homicidal thought about her and her family, I would be a billionaire.

But enough about my ex, I seriously need to get into the gym more but I have 0 motivation or dedication. I try and try but I can't stick to one thing. If I'm playing a game like Hearts of Iron 4, I get bored of it quickly even though it's my favourite game. I'm just so unhappy and unmotivated. I can't stress how much I need help, and when my family is practically on their arse for money, I can't really get a gym membership or the stuff that would help me when it comes to the gym, they can't even afford to get a haircut for me (£14).

I don't know what to do, please if someone has some clue of what I can do to begin improving my mental and physical wellbeing, I've done fuck all over the summer holidays when I could've been in the gym everyday and improving my looks before I go back to school in September. As I said, if someone can help in some sort of way, or give any piece of advice, PLEASE send me a private chat or reply to the thread. :feelswhy::feelswhy::feelswhy:
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