iblameorange
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I hate myself I’ve liked this girl so much for years we always talk then we were getting somewhere we kissed at her place and I sat there just us no tv her lying on me holding hands then the first fumble she was in my face we were touching noses and I didn’t kiss her
I came home with regret we texted a lot after that but with slower replies like day long sometimes even when she wasn’t busy and we had a agreement to watch Star Wars in her house again and we were both going to sole festival and I spent hours looking for her found her and I didn’t even get a hi she clearly didn’t want to talk to me and it was clear now we don’t text I sent her a drunk voice message saying I’ll leave her alone and stuff now but I really wished she talked to me and told me to stop trying so hard I really wanted her so bad she was my first kiss(being a late bloomer fucked me) and all her friends told me while I was at a house party In her house to stop she clearly doesn’t like me but deep down I knew this but surely her kissing me meant something. Clearly not now I’m annoyed at myself,upset and live in regret I wish I wasn’t such a bitch she was the prettiest girl ever i fucking hate myself.
I came home with regret we texted a lot after that but with slower replies like day long sometimes even when she wasn’t busy and we had a agreement to watch Star Wars in her house again and we were both going to sole festival and I spent hours looking for her found her and I didn’t even get a hi she clearly didn’t want to talk to me and it was clear now we don’t text I sent her a drunk voice message saying I’ll leave her alone and stuff now but I really wished she talked to me and told me to stop trying so hard I really wanted her so bad she was my first kiss(being a late bloomer fucked me) and all her friends told me while I was at a house party In her house to stop she clearly doesn’t like me but deep down I knew this but surely her kissing me meant something. Clearly not now I’m annoyed at myself,upset and live in regret I wish I wasn’t such a bitch she was the prettiest girl ever i fucking hate myself.
