Deroga
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I remember I used to feel something when talking to girls / dating them, like feeling an excitement when they message me and shit. Then I had this one gf like 8 months ago who was completely fucked up. She had DID (means you have different personalities) so she would sometimes be extremely loving and shit then she would be hypersexual and want to fuck me and then she would ghost me and act mean to me. This kinda fucked me up since I had suspicisons of her cheating on me so I did what any normal person would do, I cheated on her asw. It was kinda like a precautionary measure, where I thought "hey if I'm cheating on her then I won't get hurt if I find out she's cheating on me." She was a pretty terrible gf, I kept trying to love her and support but she was pretty avoidant to that stuff, and would continuously get mad at me for random things. I think I cheated on her with like 4 different girls in our relationship, none of the girls I cheated on I had like any connection to and I almost feel bad because some of them genuinely liked me and I felt nothing torwards them. For some reason I haven't been able to feel love torwards another girl since ts evil girl I used to date, we still talk but we aren't dating anymore.
I'm convinced she genuinely warped my sense of love and girls because I'll meet very nice girls who want to date me and I literally can't feel any connection to them. Like I don't even look forward to seeing them, even when we hold hands or go on dates I don't feel anything. I only ever started dating / being with girls because I didn't want to miss out shit, and I remember hearing this ex girl (the evil one) talk about her expierence with this one other guy she dated when she was 14 (we were 15) and the stuff they did and it made me so jealous. But now, the other day some girl I was talking to was telling me about her ex or whatever and was clearly trying to jealousbait me into getting mad at her but I just don't feel jealous now. I just left her on seen and then she spam called me and said she was sorry.
I know it's "bad" to be jealous and shit but I kinda miss it. Although I think love is pretty useless and it's better to just do things to avoid getting hurt, honestly I do recommend cheating on your gf because most girls still talk to other girls and there is prob an 80 / 20 chance that when you have an argument with your girl she goes and flirts with another guy to make herself feel better.
So don't be the better person, be the worse person, and in order to not get hurt just cheat on everyone and do as many things as possible to ensure you don't get attached to love the person.
I'm convinced she genuinely warped my sense of love and girls because I'll meet very nice girls who want to date me and I literally can't feel any connection to them. Like I don't even look forward to seeing them, even when we hold hands or go on dates I don't feel anything. I only ever started dating / being with girls because I didn't want to miss out shit, and I remember hearing this ex girl (the evil one) talk about her expierence with this one other guy she dated when she was 14 (we were 15) and the stuff they did and it made me so jealous. But now, the other day some girl I was talking to was telling me about her ex or whatever and was clearly trying to jealousbait me into getting mad at her but I just don't feel jealous now. I just left her on seen and then she spam called me and said she was sorry.
I know it's "bad" to be jealous and shit but I kinda miss it. Although I think love is pretty useless and it's better to just do things to avoid getting hurt, honestly I do recommend cheating on your gf because most girls still talk to other girls and there is prob an 80 / 20 chance that when you have an argument with your girl she goes and flirts with another guy to make herself feel better.
So don't be the better person, be the worse person, and in order to not get hurt just cheat on everyone and do as many things as possible to ensure you don't get attached to love the person.
