Spartacus1-
The world is yours
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I concede, life won and I fell. No matter how strong-willed I try to be, no matter how many copes or hobbies I try to amass.
Everything seems to be getting worse every day. I did try to be the best I can, live happily without thinking about the horseshit that is reality. but unfortunately, you can't win if your default difficulty is already set on impossible.
I hate this shitty existence and reality of luck and fucking chance. People are born and they are already succeeded in life, given everything without them even trying. While here am born poor, ugly, stupid with zero prospect or future. Like what the point of my existence? To balance out between ugly and good. Because You can't have too much good without adding something ugly or something will break type of shit? To complete some sort of demented twisted cycle? Was I created just to fucking rot and be left out? Like what the fuck is the point?
Either way, I'm out I can't play this unfair game anymore I've been drained mentally and physically to the point of wishing to just die and hoping for a better life next time(i probably won't even get). But it's pointless I'm too much of a coward to end my life, so I'm just going to wait it out, till I die as an old rotting man lonely and forgotten. After all, no one can truly escape their predestined fate.
And I need no sympathy I never asked for such, this isn't a call for help or attention rather a statement of acceptance. This is my first and last time venting because there is nothing more left to say.
Everything seems to be getting worse every day. I did try to be the best I can, live happily without thinking about the horseshit that is reality. but unfortunately, you can't win if your default difficulty is already set on impossible.
I hate this shitty existence and reality of luck and fucking chance. People are born and they are already succeeded in life, given everything without them even trying. While here am born poor, ugly, stupid with zero prospect or future. Like what the point of my existence? To balance out between ugly and good. Because You can't have too much good without adding something ugly or something will break type of shit? To complete some sort of demented twisted cycle? Was I created just to fucking rot and be left out? Like what the fuck is the point?
Either way, I'm out I can't play this unfair game anymore I've been drained mentally and physically to the point of wishing to just die and hoping for a better life next time(i probably won't even get). But it's pointless I'm too much of a coward to end my life, so I'm just going to wait it out, till I die as an old rotting man lonely and forgotten. After all, no one can truly escape their predestined fate.
And I need no sympathy I never asked for such, this isn't a call for help or attention rather a statement of acceptance. This is my first and last time venting because there is nothing more left to say.
