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Voted: Most likely to ER on this forum
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I'm giving up on looksmaxxing I've succumbed to inceldom this is my formal goodbye I will rarely use this site anymore I will just log in ocassionally for 5 mins every now and then.. I'm too fucking ugly short face syndrome is too brutal I can't do anything I can't make myself look good.. I'm NTmaxxed and i thought I was at least MTN but I just made a video being outside and I saw what I really look like from back camera + far away, god fucking damn it my sfs is noticable.. I thought you couldn't see it from the front but no you can..
I don't even know if I will do pdo threads or even roidmaxx anymore.. I might as well roidmax with all the drugs I've been using to cope.. Fuck all this bullshit looksmaxxing is worthless even if I save enough money for surgery (can't do that when I keep buying drugs) my mind is still very fucked up I'm on the absolute BRINK of trying not to ER my school but getting high is pretty much the only thing holding me together my mental is beyond cooked even if I get gl and get a gf
Hello my niggas a day after posting this I accidentally overdosed and I realize how uncomfortable I feel in my skin I was so out of it I just started crying like I felt my face and cried from how inferior it feels like my shortface syndrome my thin lips and I looked at my hands and all my childhood trauma came rushing back into my head that I've been keeping under lock and key in my mind, I've been pretty parasocial and emotionless recently but I really just started crying and shit I didn't think I could loathe being in my own skin anymore but wow that was the worst pain ever I thought I was going to dieeeee I was ready to die tbh. Idk ig this is kind of an "ego death" I almost wanted to slit my own throat but I didn't want to give up and I eventually passed out and I woke up in a pool of my own sweat, vomit and melted chocolate that I now have to clean
So yeah basically I'm having a sort of "ego death" but it's different I just feel so uncomfortable in my body like I've always thought of my mind and body as seperate and I didn't care waht happened to my body but wow now I definitely feel connected to it and this is giving me so much self-loathingness that I'm panicking looking for ways to make money I need surgery ASAP
I don't really expect anyone to read anything, but this is just a headsup on why I'm not going to be active anymore
I don't even know if I will do pdo threads or even roidmaxx anymore.. I might as well roidmax with all the drugs I've been using to cope.. Fuck all this bullshit looksmaxxing is worthless even if I save enough money for surgery (can't do that when I keep buying drugs) my mind is still very fucked up I'm on the absolute BRINK of trying not to ER my school but getting high is pretty much the only thing holding me together my mental is beyond cooked even if I get gl and get a gf
Hello my niggas a day after posting this I accidentally overdosed and I realize how uncomfortable I feel in my skin I was so out of it I just started crying like I felt my face and cried from how inferior it feels like my shortface syndrome my thin lips and I looked at my hands and all my childhood trauma came rushing back into my head that I've been keeping under lock and key in my mind, I've been pretty parasocial and emotionless recently but I really just started crying and shit I didn't think I could loathe being in my own skin anymore but wow that was the worst pain ever I thought I was going to dieeeee I was ready to die tbh. Idk ig this is kind of an "ego death" I almost wanted to slit my own throat but I didn't want to give up and I eventually passed out and I woke up in a pool of my own sweat, vomit and melted chocolate that I now have to clean
So yeah basically I'm having a sort of "ego death" but it's different I just feel so uncomfortable in my body like I've always thought of my mind and body as seperate and I didn't care waht happened to my body but wow now I definitely feel connected to it and this is giving me so much self-loathingness that I'm panicking looking for ways to make money I need surgery ASAP
I don't really expect anyone to read anything, but this is just a headsup on why I'm not going to be active anymore
dont fucking kill yourself
