I go from one bad situation to the next

[Deleted member 21735]

-i was suffocating for 9 years over my hs crush. first 6 years was because she didnt even wanna go out with me and then we went out eventualyl. somehow i got her to make out with me but she didnt want sex and that made go into aspie rage. i was thinking too much with my dick at that point and i fucked up. because despite all that shit she was still ok with meeting with me and taking. if i was not autistic i could have stayed at good terms with her.

-after lots of self loathing and masochism i met another girl. and with her it went even worse, cuz unlike the previous one, she wouldnt torelate me at all. she was also extremely avoidant and disappeard from ly life completely afterwards which makes me be obsessed with her even more

-after lots of self loathing and masochism i had to enlist. in the military i got severely bullied for all the misfortunes i had gone through. people dont help you if you are down they just beat you up more.

-only thing thats left is death. anything else will just make it worse. i have been building burden since i was 15 and i cant fucking take it anymore

 

[anoncell]

Sounds like you need to work on yourself before you get into relationships, ur ego gets bigger the higher ur smv is and you wouldn’t be allowing yourself or letting yourself believe to that level where you’re chasing Stacey’s or even looking back, only thing left isn’t death it’s looksmaxxing

 

[Deleted member 21735]

Sounds like you need to work on yourself before you get into relationships, ur ego gets bigger the higher ur smv is and you wouldn’t be allowing yourself or letting yourself believe to that level where you’re chasing Stacey’s or even looking back, only thing left isn’t death it’s looksmaxxing

myself is pefrfect

 

[anoncell]

myself is pefrfect

You don’t have options and ur pedestaling women so believe what you want to cope

 

[Deleted member 21735]

You don’t have options and ur pedestaling women so believe what you want to cope

i pedestalize my itis cuz she is amazing