PsychoDsk
I'm like really really desperate for sex, I need i
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If you read my other story's you know I have an on and off relationship with the 'love of my life'
we been on and off for 5 years now.
Well until today
I wanna kill her
a week ago we had a fight abt politics and she said she didn't wanna talk to me cuz I voted far right in my country and I'm somehow 'racist'. since then we haven't chatted. That didn't bother me cuz I know she'll always be obsessed with me and I can get her back without any effort at all. untill now
Today I went to the gym in the evening, after the gym I always smoke a cig at the entrance. I was doing that alone since all my friends went in the afternoon. I was smoking my cig and out of nowhere my 'girl' and her friends biked past me and started laughing HARD at me. This one huge black ass nigga friend of hers yelled at their group 'ewww he's so uglyyyyy'.
MY GIRL STARTED LAUGHING HARD. I was so fucking pissed off bro.
My mind went all places, 'what if she thinks I'm actually ugly, what if she fucks another dude at that party, what if she will never come back to me'
I went home, showered and called a buddy to meet me so we could go stalk her at that party.
We went there and saw her group of friends but not her, I was mad asf and knew she was doing stupid shit. I searched for her to talk to her. I wanted to win her back since seeing her brought back all the feelings I had for her. I was in love but I was also pissed asf.
I was looking 2 bars further down the street and I saw her dancing with this one subhuman nigger. Like that guy was genuinely subhuman. She was looking in his eyes like she always did with me and I swear my heart broke into a million pieces right there and then.
I don't know if they kissed or what not but I wanna kill her and myself so bad rn.
When we were on breaks in the relationship she kissed 2 other dudes while I did stuff too but it didn't break my heart like it did now. I KNOW she doesn't fuck other guys since she's really conservative and is scared of sex until she can actually be comfortable around some1. She's depressed and she wouldn't sleep around. I'm also her first and only body. I KNOW that for a fact but it's still messing me up so bad that she was dancing with him and looking at him like that.
It fucks me up so bad man
Everything just felt diff with her and to know now that I will never get THAT back with her is killing me. Like actually killing me.
I don't know wtf to do bro
I'm in like 2 bottles of fcuking wodka and I'm losing my mind.
I don't even want another bitch, I just want her but she won't ever want me anymore.
fuckkkkkkk
But kinda lifefuel tbh
next year I'm going to the same college she's going to and I'll be at all the partys she's gonna be going to. Next year my hair will be long so my smv will be maxxed asf. I'm gonna fuck every fucking bitch in town and start with her friends. And I'll make her watch. I have to break her heart as bad as she just did to me.
She needs her fucking life ruined
fucking whore
but I also love her
but still
fuck
we been on and off for 5 years now.
Well until today
I wanna kill her
a week ago we had a fight abt politics and she said she didn't wanna talk to me cuz I voted far right in my country and I'm somehow 'racist'. since then we haven't chatted. That didn't bother me cuz I know she'll always be obsessed with me and I can get her back without any effort at all. untill now
Today I went to the gym in the evening, after the gym I always smoke a cig at the entrance. I was doing that alone since all my friends went in the afternoon. I was smoking my cig and out of nowhere my 'girl' and her friends biked past me and started laughing HARD at me. This one huge black ass nigga friend of hers yelled at their group 'ewww he's so uglyyyyy'.
MY GIRL STARTED LAUGHING HARD. I was so fucking pissed off bro.
My mind went all places, 'what if she thinks I'm actually ugly, what if she fucks another dude at that party, what if she will never come back to me'
I went home, showered and called a buddy to meet me so we could go stalk her at that party.
We went there and saw her group of friends but not her, I was mad asf and knew she was doing stupid shit. I searched for her to talk to her. I wanted to win her back since seeing her brought back all the feelings I had for her. I was in love but I was also pissed asf.
I was looking 2 bars further down the street and I saw her dancing with this one subhuman nigger. Like that guy was genuinely subhuman. She was looking in his eyes like she always did with me and I swear my heart broke into a million pieces right there and then.
I don't know if they kissed or what not but I wanna kill her and myself so bad rn.
When we were on breaks in the relationship she kissed 2 other dudes while I did stuff too but it didn't break my heart like it did now. I KNOW she doesn't fuck other guys since she's really conservative and is scared of sex until she can actually be comfortable around some1. She's depressed and she wouldn't sleep around. I'm also her first and only body. I KNOW that for a fact but it's still messing me up so bad that she was dancing with him and looking at him like that.
It fucks me up so bad man
Everything just felt diff with her and to know now that I will never get THAT back with her is killing me. Like actually killing me.
I don't know wtf to do bro
I'm in like 2 bottles of fcuking wodka and I'm losing my mind.
I don't even want another bitch, I just want her but she won't ever want me anymore.
fuckkkkkkk
But kinda lifefuel tbh
next year I'm going to the same college she's going to and I'll be at all the partys she's gonna be going to. Next year my hair will be long so my smv will be maxxed asf. I'm gonna fuck every fucking bitch in town and start with her friends. And I'll make her watch. I have to break her heart as bad as she just did to me.
She needs her fucking life ruined
fucking whore
but I also love her
but still
fuck