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I need to tell this to someone. I feel like a worthless trash piece of shit. I’m bordering on suicidal ever since it happened, I’m very worked up about it as I should be.
It was about a week ago, my “friend” sent me a link to a NSFW Reddit account that happened to be my sister’s, he found the situation hilarious and told me he saved all her pics which really pissed me off. At first I was utterly disgusted. The pics aren’t too extreme but definitely very NSFW still but she posts in some very kinky subs. I don’t even know why I looked through it all. A normal person would’ve thrown their phone in horror at the first pic. But I didn’t and I fucking hate myself for it.
I don’t know what came over me. I was looking through it, and while I felt genuine shame and disgust inside, I was still aroused. It’s hard to type this tbh. It makes me sick thinking about it. But it happened, I used the pics and got myself off, then completely deleted Reddit afterwards out of guilt. I couldn’t eat that night or the next day, at one point I even puked from the stress.
I’ve barely been able to hold a conversation with my sister or even look her in the eyes since. For context she’s 27 and I’m 32. I feel hopeless and like I’ve doomed our relationship. I don’t know whether to tell her. I don’t want to be here anymore. I truly hate myself.
It was about a week ago, my “friend” sent me a link to a NSFW Reddit account that happened to be my sister’s, he found the situation hilarious and told me he saved all her pics which really pissed me off. At first I was utterly disgusted. The pics aren’t too extreme but definitely very NSFW still but she posts in some very kinky subs. I don’t even know why I looked through it all. A normal person would’ve thrown their phone in horror at the first pic. But I didn’t and I fucking hate myself for it.
I don’t know what came over me. I was looking through it, and while I felt genuine shame and disgust inside, I was still aroused. It’s hard to type this tbh. It makes me sick thinking about it. But it happened, I used the pics and got myself off, then completely deleted Reddit afterwards out of guilt. I couldn’t eat that night or the next day, at one point I even puked from the stress.
I’ve barely been able to hold a conversation with my sister or even look her in the eyes since. For context she’s 27 and I’m 32. I feel hopeless and like I’ve doomed our relationship. I don’t know whether to tell her. I don’t want to be here anymore. I truly hate myself.
